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i wanted to blog...but i keep procrastinating day by day...

2 agendas as i plan what i should blog abt....
things i handled wrongly...
wishlist!

i dunno how i shld start...haha..
last sat my boss asked me if i wanna clear my time off by coming to work at a later time...then i replied her.. "hmm...u r the boss!..haha" she seemed to be a lil taken aback...then i carried on to say...anything...if the workload is ok for her to do alone then i will come in later...lesson learnt?... speak with more caution ...esp to ur boss...haha

a friend asked me for mj a few times this few weeks...due to genuine reason that i am not free...i turned him down...then this time he sms me on wed to book me for mj on sat...i had no appts... but i still turn him down...dunno isit i diao qi lai...or i dowan to play mj over sat n sun...or any other reasons...then he says i dun give him face...then i feel bad...couple of times i wanted to ask him if the mj is still on...but i decided not to...since i already made my standy...i shall standby that...dunno of any lesson learnt...

i realised i hate to be told of the things to do or not to do when i know i am in full control... n i am unable to hide that emotions...haha...
i am annoyed when my father tells me to drive carefully...i feel its so redundant cos i think i am reponsible/cautious driver.
a staff called to tell me he is unable to make it to work...after assessing the strength...i reckon its not too much of an issue...then an old-timer was like kind of telling me...i shldnt just allowed like that...must assess then allow...then i thot...wasnt that what i do already...weirdly...think my expressions showed that...then she apologize to me...cos i think she thinks i am thinking that she is "yi xia fan shang" n being a kaypo...haha...oops...i felt quite embarrassed...lesson learnt? i must control my emotions n not let it make known...haha..

a new addition to my mistake list...order size M for my standchart singlet...shit!haha..

my wishlist is very long this yr...haha
laptop
thumb drive
wallet
sandals
jacky tics
jay tics
cant think now...will add when it comes to my mind..

cant believe it took me so long to write this shit!

yea...tmw no need to work...today can "dawn"...haha... this popular word was used in sec sch... it was so cool to stay out the whole night then...

i am so glad my legs r so much better now...but i know it will not last... i dunno when will it come n haunt me again.. lately i will say my mood have been badly affected by it...24/7 of discomfort...

turned down everything to stay at home n rest the legs over the weekends...the hours of work on sat has accumulated a few good hrs of time off...allowing me to start work at 1pm from monday till wed...

monday n tues....work work work n then late dinners with some friends...if they din ask me i think i would have just settled for some milo n biscuits or some instant noodles...

tonight was more happening...kind of have 2 outings after work... met up with the first grp at marina sq to have my late dinner again n some catching up...n then rooftop at neil road to chill...
heard a pretty funny joke today...got standard...

some reflections...
my friends gave me 2 reasons for working late...firstly...the company is understaffed..
2ndly...personal inefficiency...hmm...i pondered....so they r denying there the existence of workaholic?or other exceptional reasons?

on the same night...i realised a change in me...something i dunno if its good or bad...i became serious?...the joker(there has to be a more appropriate word, pardon my vocab) in me vanished.. my friend were just kidding...but i reacted defensively to it...i dislike defensive pple n i am guilty of it myself...

hmm...any diff btn explaining n defending?...haha...cos i think i need to explain myself for being misunderstood lately...by the same person...hahaha....this is like some verbal war ...

my speed in replying to sms...depends on urgency and importance and maybe other factors... so my reason for not replying immediately...cos the matter wasnt urgent so i usually put it off till i am free or when its really deadline to reply...whats more...i already reply you on msn already mah....

now its where the other factors i mentioned comes in...as mentioned earlier...my stupid leg is making me very fan...so if the msg is really not impt...i may not even bother to reply..but i did reply to apologize after my leg got better n less moody...

just now was the more ridiculous one...i was plainly joking n i dinno she will take it so seriously...what karma whatever...hmm...dun be so ren zhen la...come what may... y make it so tense for a simple gathering...but anyway...chill la...relax... continue to arrange gathering...keep it up...

work is going to be tougher cos i am most likely going to run some shows alone with the departure of my colleague...think its going to be quite revolutionary cos he is an old bird in my dept...probably the most iconic person in my dept for the right n wrong reasons...some sort of a policeman...he is able to catch "thieves"...partly explains why he is not so well liked...the other part owed it to his personality..

oh well...time to sleep....

to fate.

a really really bad week.

i want a new pair of legs. a pair of good legs. finally took MC after limping painfully for 2 weeks. i really need them to recover over the weekend. i think i am leaving a very bad impression on my boss...hai... is it really fate? things might have been less problematic if my colleague has not resigned. becos of his resignation, my dept is becoming shorthanded n my boss is expecting me to learn as much as fast as possible n take over his duties...but right now 2 issues has make me look bad.

first issue is abt my leaves. to a certain extent i regret booking my bkk holidays too early. emails n calls have been made to colleagues n boss to work out a feasible schedule for me to take my leave. felt so imposing.although my boss has allowed but i still think its a bad time to go on holidays since at the moment we r shorthanded.

2nd issue is this pair of sickening legs la...i am in such a sorry state..shortening the already limited time i have left to learn things at work.i think i made a terrible mistake by visiting the TCM.i totally mishandled it la if not my legs may not be in such a bad shape.yday was hell. damn pain even to limp. decided to see a doc from work.had to ask my parents to make their way to the clinic to bring me slippers n some wet cloth n tissues to wipe the chinese herbs thats bandaged on my ankle.feel so paiseh to make 2 old folks wait on me.

just now when i called my boss to inform her of my MC, somehow feel that she is quite..hmm.. not unhappy..but thinks that she feels that i am very troublesome. adding woes to her worries.firstly leave matters then now MC..hai..

shen ah jiu jiu wo ba..