Sunday, October 28, 2007
way back into love
[Verse 1](Drew Barrymore)I've been living with a shadow overhead, I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed, I've been lonely for so long, Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on!
(Hugh Grant)I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away, Just in case I ever need them again someday, I've been setting aside time, To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!
[Chorus](Both)All I want to do is find a way back into love. I can't make it through without a way back into love.Oooooh.
[Verse 2](Drew Barrymore)I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine, I've been searching but i just don't see the signs, I know that it's out there,There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!
(Hugh Grant)I've been looking for someone to shed some light, Not somebody just to get me through the night, I could use some direction, And I'm open to your suggestions.
[Chorus](Both)All I want to do is find a way back into love. I can't make it through without a way back into love. And if I open my heart again, I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end! Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.
[Middle-eight](Drew Barrymore)There are moments when I don't know if it's real Or if anybody feels the way I feel I need inspiration Not just another negotiation
[Chorus](Both)All I want to do is find a way back into love, I can't make it through without a way back into love, And if I open my heart to you, I'm hoping you'll show me what to do, And if you help me to start again, You know that I'll be there for you in the end!Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.
(Hugh Grant)I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away, Just in case I ever need them again someday, I've been setting aside time, To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!
[Chorus](Both)All I want to do is find a way back into love. I can't make it through without a way back into love.Oooooh.
[Verse 2](Drew Barrymore)I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine, I've been searching but i just don't see the signs, I know that it's out there,There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!
(Hugh Grant)I've been looking for someone to shed some light, Not somebody just to get me through the night, I could use some direction, And I'm open to your suggestions.
[Chorus](Both)All I want to do is find a way back into love. I can't make it through without a way back into love. And if I open my heart again, I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end! Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.
[Middle-eight](Drew Barrymore)There are moments when I don't know if it's real Or if anybody feels the way I feel I need inspiration Not just another negotiation
[Chorus](Both)All I want to do is find a way back into love, I can't make it through without a way back into love, And if I open my heart to you, I'm hoping you'll show me what to do, And if you help me to start again, You know that I'll be there for you in the end!Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.
still so much to say...
hello everyone.....haha as if i have a lot of readers...
its the weekend again... it seems only on weekends i and many other pple truly have time for themselves...to ponder...so pamper ourselves and etc... weekdays are pretty standard...go to work...come home n relac n sleep early n then back to work the next day...weekends seems short but it felt long....now i know y....
some random updates on what i have done during this hiatus...hehe...learned this word some time ago but its ages since i used it...
just for fun...do u guys know i always open 2 windows when i blog...one is this template...the other one is my previous post...to carry on with where i ended for continuity....wonder if fellow bloggers out there does that...do u?
settled my squad early today n got some rest at home...after which i went o maju camp to endorse my MC to be excused for RT...n incidentally it has ended cos i am left with 2 sessions which i can default. i think from now on...whenever i think of maju camp, i will think of the PTI who got into an accident and passed away...although we were only acquaintance but i felt sorry for him n his family. how sad, such a promising young lad. perhaps i and most pple shld take it from there n treasure life. n then i went to a bday chalet, an ex-colleague from IRAS.
friday is a powerful day. it can make pple happy. everyone just seems to be willing to put on a smile. work was harder than usual cos i had to run the show on my own...n sorry to say...i just gave myself a grade of 30% operational ready. most of the calls i got i dun really know how to handle them n i had to refer to my colleagues. i had to handle one situation though, pretty clueless i dinno what i am supposed to do so i needed my staff to explain to me what was going on, apparently she seems quite unwilling which i assume it was becos the matter was quite handy cos time was not on our side, the matter was pretty straightforward n more importantly cos she had to repeat it again to me. in the nick of time, i made a decision without confirmation from the other party but i think was viable n i dun feel guilty of that decision cos i made what i think was in my sense the logical/sensible/rational decision. then came another headache, previously i managed to obtain leave from my manager but now cos one of my colleagues is leaving, my bkk holidays in dec seems to be in jeopardy, argh.. seems to be so many things i have to be very meticulous to avoid making silly mistakes at work. ktv in the night was shiok, managed to let off some steam. really didnt mind sending my friends back however i applaud them for being understanding n making rational decisions. if i were in their shoes i would have done the same.
usual day at work. finally give in to the discomfort and pain on my left ankle n see a sinseh. have been limping ard the past few days. makes me look so pathetic.
cant recall already...but shld be the usual weekday routine. lets talk abt last weekend then.
RT in the morning. mj in the noon. nua. boring sunday.
RT. villa bali.
no luck on the mj table lately. has suffered substantial losses. badly need to recoup. hehe
met hazel,jas,wk for dinner after work. spending more generously on food n life. overdrafting, time to watch my expenses. we had dinner at waraku n then chill at paulaner. persistent/perserverance.. as seen..its a thin line. i always rem this. gu zhi n jian chi difference. when u fail, pple say u r gu zhi. when u succeed, pple say u jian chi.
as usual, the weekly routine so skip to last last weekend.
RT in the morning. mj. nua. haha...i din ctrl c + ctrl v
RT. steamboat at geylang. 2nd steamboat in 2 weeks. km8
a very emo weekend
finally went to dragonfly. more fulfilling to go ktv n sing
end of tape. feels like typing a report.
lets quote some of the nicks n phrases as seen on msn nicks n blogs
1) at first i thot the nick was like this "the only thing we never get enough of is love n the only thing we never get enough is love" but the nick is actually "the only thing we never get enough of is love and the only thing we never GIVE enough of is love"
2) smallest action is greater than the biggest intention.
twinkle. tinker.
do feel aimless now. maybe i need goals. SMART?bold?capable?
*Pondering for the past 5 mins*
time to sleep.
its the weekend again... it seems only on weekends i and many other pple truly have time for themselves...to ponder...so pamper ourselves and etc... weekdays are pretty standard...go to work...come home n relac n sleep early n then back to work the next day...weekends seems short but it felt long....now i know y....
some random updates on what i have done during this hiatus...hehe...learned this word some time ago but its ages since i used it...
just for fun...do u guys know i always open 2 windows when i blog...one is this template...the other one is my previous post...to carry on with where i ended for continuity....wonder if fellow bloggers out there does that...do u?
settled my squad early today n got some rest at home...after which i went o maju camp to endorse my MC to be excused for RT...n incidentally it has ended cos i am left with 2 sessions which i can default. i think from now on...whenever i think of maju camp, i will think of the PTI who got into an accident and passed away...although we were only acquaintance but i felt sorry for him n his family. how sad, such a promising young lad. perhaps i and most pple shld take it from there n treasure life. n then i went to a bday chalet, an ex-colleague from IRAS.
friday is a powerful day. it can make pple happy. everyone just seems to be willing to put on a smile. work was harder than usual cos i had to run the show on my own...n sorry to say...i just gave myself a grade of 30% operational ready. most of the calls i got i dun really know how to handle them n i had to refer to my colleagues. i had to handle one situation though, pretty clueless i dinno what i am supposed to do so i needed my staff to explain to me what was going on, apparently she seems quite unwilling which i assume it was becos the matter was quite handy cos time was not on our side, the matter was pretty straightforward n more importantly cos she had to repeat it again to me. in the nick of time, i made a decision without confirmation from the other party but i think was viable n i dun feel guilty of that decision cos i made what i think was in my sense the logical/sensible/rational decision. then came another headache, previously i managed to obtain leave from my manager but now cos one of my colleagues is leaving, my bkk holidays in dec seems to be in jeopardy, argh.. seems to be so many things i have to be very meticulous to avoid making silly mistakes at work. ktv in the night was shiok, managed to let off some steam. really didnt mind sending my friends back however i applaud them for being understanding n making rational decisions. if i were in their shoes i would have done the same.
usual day at work. finally give in to the discomfort and pain on my left ankle n see a sinseh. have been limping ard the past few days. makes me look so pathetic.
cant recall already...but shld be the usual weekday routine. lets talk abt last weekend then.
RT in the morning. mj in the noon. nua. boring sunday.
RT. villa bali.
no luck on the mj table lately. has suffered substantial losses. badly need to recoup. hehe
met hazel,jas,wk for dinner after work. spending more generously on food n life. overdrafting, time to watch my expenses. we had dinner at waraku n then chill at paulaner. persistent/perserverance.. as seen..its a thin line. i always rem this. gu zhi n jian chi difference. when u fail, pple say u r gu zhi. when u succeed, pple say u jian chi.
as usual, the weekly routine so skip to last last weekend.
RT in the morning. mj. nua. haha...i din ctrl c + ctrl v
RT. steamboat at geylang. 2nd steamboat in 2 weeks. km8
a very emo weekend
finally went to dragonfly. more fulfilling to go ktv n sing
end of tape. feels like typing a report.
lets quote some of the nicks n phrases as seen on msn nicks n blogs
1) at first i thot the nick was like this "the only thing we never get enough of is love n the only thing we never get enough is love" but the nick is actually "the only thing we never get enough of is love and the only thing we never GIVE enough of is love"
2) smallest action is greater than the biggest intention.
twinkle. tinker.
do feel aimless now. maybe i need goals. SMART?bold?capable?
*Pondering for the past 5 mins*
time to sleep.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
so much to say
but i dunno where to start.
Monday, October 08, 2007
Orientation @ HSBC
Had a good night sleep earlier and all ready to go to work today! haha...indeed i was...abt 40 mins early...kiasu...haah...so went to the mac n read papers...
orientation was quite the normal...met colleagues from diff dept....the presenter goes thru some slides n some ice-breaker... the presenter instilled confidence into us which i think was good.. it kind of made me proactive n socialable...haha...i took the initiative to talk to pple...n by chance i even made an short presentation...
a wet afternoon...lucky the unsheltered path wasnt too long...but still a bit drenched...i feel like an alien in the new office... new environment n new faces....was introduced to abt 15 pple...but i think i rem only abt 5 names...die..haha...then a very embarrassing thing la...had this online learning module which i took 4 tries to pass.....WTH....i think i was too conceited thats y.....after i fail the first time i thot i shldnt have prob passing the 2nd time...n indeed i did better than the 1st try but still fail...so i thot a third try surely pass liao...but fail aagain...DUH...din want to fail the 4th time...i went thru the notes again...luckily passed this time....phew...then spend rest of time to read thru some contract...n that abt ends my first day at work liao...
omg....hey!gorgeous is......
tmw working on an early shift...but also ends early...haha...good nite world
may tmw be better!
orientation was quite the normal...met colleagues from diff dept....the presenter goes thru some slides n some ice-breaker... the presenter instilled confidence into us which i think was good.. it kind of made me proactive n socialable...haha...i took the initiative to talk to pple...n by chance i even made an short presentation...
a wet afternoon...lucky the unsheltered path wasnt too long...but still a bit drenched...i feel like an alien in the new office... new environment n new faces....was introduced to abt 15 pple...but i think i rem only abt 5 names...die..haha...then a very embarrassing thing la...had this online learning module which i took 4 tries to pass.....WTH....i think i was too conceited thats y.....after i fail the first time i thot i shldnt have prob passing the 2nd time...n indeed i did better than the 1st try but still fail...so i thot a third try surely pass liao...but fail aagain...DUH...din want to fail the 4th time...i went thru the notes again...luckily passed this time....phew...then spend rest of time to read thru some contract...n that abt ends my first day at work liao...
omg....hey!gorgeous is......
tmw working on an early shift...but also ends early...haha...good nite world
may tmw be better!
Friday, October 05, 2007
few days...
few days ago and a few days to go...
its been so long since i blog in the afternoon...driven by boredom, anxiety and etc....
as usual...read from behind
time is slowing a bit down today...slow down by a lot i would say...the past few days were action-packed!
its been a really boring day so far...watch evans almighty...read up HSBC history n heritage... meeting a few friends for dinner later...hopefully it will brighten up the day or perhaps night a lil...
yday was a really really enjoyable day...but it explains y its so dull today...cos today really pales in comparison. lunched at sushi tei...i am starting to like jap food...the "healther choice"... and then we caught the nannies diary at amk hub....we took the "special transformer seats"...hehe... i enjoyed the settings more than the show...hahaha... n then went to the "ten dollars ktv club" to sing...its good shit man...seriously....anytime much more value than partyworld/kbox...a small cosy room which we can set the temp ourselves, free flow of drinks, songs n systems were good...n a bowl of "sharksfin soup"...haha...i can sing there till the last song available for me to sing...extended the time with supper...haha.....there were much more details i left out...ha...
went to sch n caught hold of mr nageb to be my referee...it seems quite weird.... he dunno who i am...he din talked much n then just agreed to be my referee.... dong gua tang suddenly becomes so hard to get...went to 4 medicinal n all sold out...cant believe it...any signs beckoning? RT ippt was just a formality...zouk out after that....which is a ONS for me as usual la..i miss drinking...haha... some ugly scenes there tough...kns...
1st attempt to get hold of nageb...failed.... went back to office to return some documents and nothing much...suppered with some friends at bedok 85... wish speedy recovery to ben's dad
went back to IRAS to return my pass n tender resignatiion...nice time working there...made new friends...learned new things...n i think the exp has been good...strongly recommend anyone looking for temp job can work there.... YES! signed!! all signed!!! got the job!!!! surprising met a friend there too who was working at the HR dept...did a medical check up, played pool and a night long chat...i realised how it can make me happy...
a few more days to go n i have to embark on another journey...i wonder how the future will be.... on one hand i am ready to move on...on the other, i am reluctant to give up the present lifestyle... uncertainty is not always delightfully surprising....its making me anxious...
aiya...heck for now...i shall just go n enjoy my night out..
till next time folks...
its been so long since i blog in the afternoon...driven by boredom, anxiety and etc....
as usual...read from behind
time is slowing a bit down today...slow down by a lot i would say...the past few days were action-packed!
its been a really boring day so far...watch evans almighty...read up HSBC history n heritage... meeting a few friends for dinner later...hopefully it will brighten up the day or perhaps night a lil...
yday was a really really enjoyable day...but it explains y its so dull today...cos today really pales in comparison. lunched at sushi tei...i am starting to like jap food...the "healther choice"... and then we caught the nannies diary at amk hub....we took the "special transformer seats"...hehe... i enjoyed the settings more than the show...hahaha... n then went to the "ten dollars ktv club" to sing...its good shit man...seriously....anytime much more value than partyworld/kbox...a small cosy room which we can set the temp ourselves, free flow of drinks, songs n systems were good...n a bowl of "sharksfin soup"...haha...i can sing there till the last song available for me to sing...extended the time with supper...haha.....there were much more details i left out...ha...
went to sch n caught hold of mr nageb to be my referee...it seems quite weird.... he dunno who i am...he din talked much n then just agreed to be my referee.... dong gua tang suddenly becomes so hard to get...went to 4 medicinal n all sold out...cant believe it...any signs beckoning? RT ippt was just a formality...zouk out after that....which is a ONS for me as usual la..i miss drinking...haha... some ugly scenes there tough...kns...
1st attempt to get hold of nageb...failed.... went back to office to return some documents and nothing much...suppered with some friends at bedok 85... wish speedy recovery to ben's dad
went back to IRAS to return my pass n tender resignatiion...nice time working there...made new friends...learned new things...n i think the exp has been good...strongly recommend anyone looking for temp job can work there.... YES! signed!! all signed!!! got the job!!!! surprising met a friend there too who was working at the HR dept...did a medical check up, played pool and a night long chat...i realised how it can make me happy...
a few more days to go n i have to embark on another journey...i wonder how the future will be.... on one hand i am ready to move on...on the other, i am reluctant to give up the present lifestyle... uncertainty is not always delightfully surprising....its making me anxious...
aiya...heck for now...i shall just go n enjoy my night out..
till next time folks...
Monday, October 01, 2007
random updates...
past 10 days...PS..can start reading from the last para...haha...then clearer picture...
accomplished 2 things today...finished watching my xue jing chu geng dvd...most pple like to listen to the original canto version but i prefer the chinese one...cos i think i can fully understand the show....but ok la...still managed to understand most of the show...nice show...if only....the first series i had to hold back my tears...but this time it was ok...shld be becos of the language ba...2nd thing i accomplish is buying 2 more sets of working attire...thanks to my bro's gf for such a good deal....
made such a wasted trip to office..owe it to communication prob ba...but dusen matter la.. tmw will have to make another trip down to resign... it has been a good time working there...settled my fantasy squad then went for RT...followed by a night of crap with the ex-campmates...missed those ole good army daze...hai...but i do feel a bit regret for not watching chen qi zhen concert...she is my idol man...the singer w/o the $ factor in this economic world...
had a 2nd rd interview with hsbc...Q&A was ok until she asked me if i had any commitment...then i told her abt my RT/ICT but not my holidays in dec..n i thot gone case liao...cos she seems concerned...it was such a long interview....but the HR called me in the evening...hehe...well...haven sign so nothing is certain yet..."fingers crossed"... i think i wanna learn to be a bad guy...or at least be bad guy to pple who dusen deserved to be nice to...waited for a friend for 30 mins at a bus stop...so many buses and cars....so fed up waiting for him...hai... maybe last life owe him one...chilled out with a few friends at villa bali and supper at fong sheng later in the night...
ferociously sending out resumes and applying for jobs...feels like parrot...repeating myself over n over again...had a nice night out....what shld i do next....haha/hai?lost...
send send send resumes and then go RT....n then chill out...PS cafe closes so early...dun go there anymore liao...haha...changed to coffee club express....nice places with assorted memories...
happy mooncake/lantern/mid autumn festival! family day...went to CQ after sending my sister back...feels good to stroll under the moonlight n neon lights...who thinks sex sells? i think there is some truth...
1st rd interview with hsbc...nice hr lady....had a feast at sushi tei then follow by mj after visiting my uncle at the hospital...he is slightly better now...but still very weak...hai...
another routine sunday and boring saturday
fri toto did not belong to me....put aeroplane night...dinner cancelled....mj cancelled...ktv beckons...a expensive ktv...n tiring night...
an oldie that i kept singing in ktv lately....yi ke xing jiao gei shui
我的一颗心交给谁？
交出去会不会后悔？
爱情的边缘一次又一次徘徊
我的一颗心交给谁？
交出去能不能收回？
付出了感情只怕换来是伤悲。
过去我为爱流过泪，
现在已锁上我心扉，
孤单和寂寞习惯陪我心沉睡。
是否该抛开是与非，
再爱一次也无所谓，
自从遇见你仿佛已经忘了我是谁。
我的心应该交给谁？
交给你会不会心碎？
迷惑的眼睛已分不清对不对。
我的心应该交给谁？
交给你会不会心碎？
一颗心交给谁？
nitez
accomplished 2 things today...finished watching my xue jing chu geng dvd...most pple like to listen to the original canto version but i prefer the chinese one...cos i think i can fully understand the show....but ok la...still managed to understand most of the show...nice show...if only....the first series i had to hold back my tears...but this time it was ok...shld be becos of the language ba...2nd thing i accomplish is buying 2 more sets of working attire...thanks to my bro's gf for such a good deal....
made such a wasted trip to office..owe it to communication prob ba...but dusen matter la.. tmw will have to make another trip down to resign... it has been a good time working there...settled my fantasy squad then went for RT...followed by a night of crap with the ex-campmates...missed those ole good army daze...hai...but i do feel a bit regret for not watching chen qi zhen concert...she is my idol man...the singer w/o the $ factor in this economic world...
had a 2nd rd interview with hsbc...Q&A was ok until she asked me if i had any commitment...then i told her abt my RT/ICT but not my holidays in dec..n i thot gone case liao...cos she seems concerned...it was such a long interview....but the HR called me in the evening...hehe...well...haven sign so nothing is certain yet..."fingers crossed"... i think i wanna learn to be a bad guy...or at least be bad guy to pple who dusen deserved to be nice to...waited for a friend for 30 mins at a bus stop...so many buses and cars....so fed up waiting for him...hai... maybe last life owe him one...chilled out with a few friends at villa bali and supper at fong sheng later in the night...
ferociously sending out resumes and applying for jobs...feels like parrot...repeating myself over n over again...had a nice night out....what shld i do next....haha/hai?lost...
send send send resumes and then go RT....n then chill out...PS cafe closes so early...dun go there anymore liao...haha...changed to coffee club express....nice places with assorted memories...
happy mooncake/lantern/mid autumn festival! family day...went to CQ after sending my sister back...feels good to stroll under the moonlight n neon lights...who thinks sex sells? i think there is some truth...
1st rd interview with hsbc...nice hr lady....had a feast at sushi tei then follow by mj after visiting my uncle at the hospital...he is slightly better now...but still very weak...hai...
another routine sunday and boring saturday
fri toto did not belong to me....put aeroplane night...dinner cancelled....mj cancelled...ktv beckons...a expensive ktv...n tiring night...
an oldie that i kept singing in ktv lately....yi ke xing jiao gei shui
我的一颗心交给谁？
交出去会不会后悔？
爱情的边缘一次又一次徘徊
我的一颗心交给谁？
交出去能不能收回？
付出了感情只怕换来是伤悲。
过去我为爱流过泪，
现在已锁上我心扉，
孤单和寂寞习惯陪我心沉睡。
是否该抛开是与非，
再爱一次也无所谓，
自从遇见你仿佛已经忘了我是谁。
我的心应该交给谁？
交给你会不会心碎？
迷惑的眼睛已分不清对不对。
我的心应该交给谁？
交给你会不会心碎？
一颗心交给谁？
nitez
