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exams blues, only blues...getting more n more stress as the day goes by....have been hallucinating myself in exams hall n freaking out occasionally these couple of weeks...the thought of it makes me sick...time seems so fast yet seems so slow...fast when i realised days passed n its already abt 2 weeks since i last blog...fast when i think i dun have enough time to study...slow when it seems like it takes etermity for me to read a single page or do a single qn...thinking back, i remember there is a lot of things i did n many things on my mind which i wanna blog down... lets start with today...

the day din started too well i would say....my neighbour asked my dad for a ride but her face kind of changed when she knew i was the one driving actually...i also dunno y she seemed quite uneasy...i wonder y...isit becos i am unfriendly or i appeared unfriendly?....then had a bad experience on the road...i was driving at this pretty wide lane...becos i was going to turn left...so i occupy most of the left side of the lane, then i saw a car picking up speed n trying to squeeze into the lane with me...i was very pissed! cos i think he is putting my parents n my lives in danger...frankly if not becos my parents were in the car, i would have block his way...not another accident man...REN!...lesson was alright...pretty nostalgic at times when i know its going to be the last few lessons ...hehe.. had a lil discussion with daryl on efficiency and "got sim"(dunno how to say in english...basically mean thoughful)...anyway the scenario was we found a 2 seater in the LT...then he saw a friend, then she asked where we were sitting then he told her...so as can be seen...what for tell her? cos there is no seat for her tell her also no use...y waste her time to go n look for our seats...anyway its just one of the scenarios...another scenario was at the toilet...toilets in sim have a common door, which then lead to gents n ladies...that time i was abt to go thru the common door with a friend...when the door opened, a lady was abt to come out...then my friend walked in...i paused for a while wanting to let her come out first...but then she also paused to wait for me to go in...what i saw as inefficiency as we were both waiting, i decided to go in first...then i said sorry....lame ya...basically what i think sometimes its not rudeness of ungentlemen that override courtesy...but efficiency probably....haha...anyone reading this should find it very boring...anyway i had to leave early today cos i had to collect the car from the garage...cant believe it myself too...my father got into an accident again...thank god its a very minor one...but its still very demotivating...n he just lost his specs...jia latz...think my father is getting senile......became sim san zhi xiang with 2 other friends today!

beginning to believe "study" n gambling really clash with each other...luck has been very very very bad lately...chao ta liao...man u suffered a setback, luckily chelsea too

went to ktv after a full day ..pretty impromptu n feeling a bit guilty...haha...guilty cos i have so much revision yet to cover n guilty cos i have turn down a lot of friends who have been asking me out recently...but then i still can go ktv...was ready to go home after dinner with the friend...but he looked so sian...so made a last min decision to go ktv...it was pretty fun anyway in the end...one of those better sessions...i really hate it when i go to ktv on an "off" day...its like always stuck in 2nd gear...

i think i gave my parents attitude on thursday...i felt so bad...i had so lil sleep...maybe 3 hrs?..but i had to wake up to send the car to the workshope...what i wanted was to chop chop go to the workshop then returned home to sleep...but my parents wanted me to drive them to a few places...i had no appetite cos its still early...but they wanted me to eat...duh...so its like they have to force me to eat...they r really treating me like a small lil kid...haha...at first i was pissed but now i understand...its lifestyle basically...cos for them they r used to wake up early n have breakfast n do things...which is y they dinno what i wanted was to rush home n sleep but instead they carried on with their normal routine...lately i heard n oldie from su yong kang' song...the last line was..."ai bu zhi she zou jing du fang de sheng huo, geng yao neng zhu jing bi ci the sheng ming"

carrying that topic on lifestyle...my bro bought a new lcd tv...in my sense was for what...waste money...esp not at the time when there r already so much losses incurred over the 2 accidents... n when my father keeps nagging at me to save money n when my mum decides to stop seeing her diabetes specialist becos of the exuberant charges...but what can i say when i myself also think i am spending money unwisely...there is so much expenses along with the tv...we need a new tv console...we have to upgrade our SCV set top box....haha...maybe i am too stingy to be aesthetics ...haha...i am not sure if i am correct in using this word...ironically i have a t-shirt with this word...*933 is playing FIR ah qing song(qi shi hai ai ni), i think his songs r nice* ....anyway so we looked ard but still haven find a suitable tv console...maybe my father just cant bear to part with his money..

early bird on a sunday morning...an "off" day...hate it...

i did not make it to the next rd of the star dj contest, althought it was expected, but i was still hoping for a miracle. too bad it din come...recently while listening to 883...they seem to have a similar thing coming up also n it was for charity this time...but i think i really cannot afford the time now liao...

gotten back all my mocks resulting...pretty mocking...can buy toto with the numbers
msm-60..maybe can buy 6
hrm-22
mm-21
me-7.5
icp-39
last digit roll...haha...5, 6, 7, 21, 22, 39...haha...huat ah!!

had a very very very dream a few days ago....part of it is impossible...whereas part of it seems attainable...but it would take a great deal of me to come to terms with it...
does it chews on u like it chews on me...hai...

exams blues...only blues...its very chilling when i think what if i am not going to make it...its very chilling when if i think i have to see friends graduating leaving me behind...its very chilling when i think i am going to get a low class, which is very likely to happen...its very chilling when i think i am not going to find a job....its very chilling when i think of all the stress....its very chilling...very chilling...grrr