liansoon

i got a swollen finger with me for 4 days! deformed now! blardy pain!! it is seriously affecting my life! n my mood! it dated back to last yr...a game of bball...argh...IF only i never play! my approach in life is usually come what may n things happen for a reason but sometimes these really puzzles me..maybe its just my ill fated life la...ren ming...only myself to blame...who ask me to be so greedy n not disciplined...hopefully i will learn after this time...said many many times liao...but still...

its been a week plus since my mocks r over...but my revision have been below expectations...i am so so worried now...n the blardy finger is making things worse...

i think i am so edgy now...i feel so insecure n my temper is getting bad...somehow i am less patient with my parents and friends...

some of the events over the week
went to bai bai my grandparents today...damn shag...after that mj with sibling n cousin...hmm...which is a correct education? the scenario was like that...i was winning then my cousin is losing...his son, my nephew, 8 yrs old played punk...he came over to me...then ask me to open my drawer...then he took some chips..anyway it was already very chaotic in the room liao...cos got 2 even younger nephews...making so much noise...so i dowan to create more chaos.. then he put the chips into my cousin drawer...wth...haha...think he took either 10 or 20...i am not very sure also...so i din expose him la..so after the game then i told him cannot do that again.. cos its almost like stealing...but i bet he dinno he was stealing...too young to know...

went to see a doc on friday...i dun like to see doc...cos i dun like pple to nag at me...but i think i let the doc down...he always tells me to take care of myself but i always go back on my words..

tuesday dinner could probably be what lead to my swollen finger now...a sinful dinner..regrets...

earlier i was saying i am so impatient to my father...that becos i had to run errands for him...n its still abt the injured car...go there to n fro...take up my whole day...

crappy entry..

good nite pple