Thursday, May 18, 2006
closer n closer
its getting closer to my next 3 papers....with just over 10 days to left.. starting to feel the heat again...self awareness abt actual, ideal n ought self is pretty scary, read that earlier from my esap note...
my actual (present) state isnt that good cos i am freaking over the exams...i am only somehow confident of passing
ideally , i wish the sky is the limit, getting all distinctions
ought to be at least getting 2nd upper or lower to secure a good job in the future
ideals r what we strive for, but failing to achieve it will produce dejection-related emotions(dissatisfaction, sadness)
failure to resolve actual-ought discrepancies will produce agitation-related emotions (fear, anxiety)
frankly i am running into probability of not attaining both...shucks..hai...
finally decide to just touch a bit on 3 of the 11 topics in ME...they r pretty much beyond my abilities to understand n time dusen permits to focus much on them also, i call it a temporal end to my ME revisions n move on to esap.....had a lil tiff with my bro.....hai...gong shuo gong you li po shuo po you li...what happenend was i remember clearly we had a bet on soccer n i won but he says he din acknowledge the bet...i was prepared not to pursue the money since it was just a petty amount n it was all for a moment of fun then...but accrued losses over mj n daidee later n actually reduced his losing...so i said lets call it quits...but he refused to budge n but still kept harping on it n pressed me for payment...so wu liao...its actually not the money that matters now...its the pride...haha...sound like 2 childish adults...i heck also lah...i simply just refuse to give in, cos y shld i?.........the new tv show on channel u is pretty nice, wardrobe sos...but what sexism..they only help to salvage the female's wardrobe.....ideally i shld be studying now or at least ought to be sleeping but actually here blogging....haha....
it seems like a blue tuesday yesterday...haha...cos my sis left home to stay in the hotel for her last week of stay in sg, not that she wants but i suppose its becos her boss is in town so she had to attend to her boss, my parents seem so sad...haha...spend the rest of the day on my ME n left stressed over the topics i dropped...maybe it wasnt a bad idea...cos to spent time trying to understand them will be very time consuming...n after a few surveys i did it seems that most other pple are dropping topics here n there...hope its not going to cost me dearly...
happy belated mothers' day....had a very heavy brunch n made me uncomfortable the whole day, orr bee...ha...then did revisions but was perpetually interrupted by my father over the sale n purchase of a new car...personally i want a lancer, but feedback from agents n friends was it isnt a good car so my father is reluctant, but i am frankly ok with any choice since he is the one ultimately paying...the old car has been a good servant, with occasionally off-days...haha...its time to retire lao peng you...had a belated celebration for mum...ate at a restaurant...probably becos we requested the food to be prepared earlier...so its actually not very tasty but it still cost a bomb...n since its mothers' day so its ok to splurge a bit...n had a bit of red wine...was pretty worried to have a gout attack though, luckily not...n funny i had a pretty funny dream... what i remember was there was some cock up at the restaurant then i started scolding n yelling at the restaurant's staff...haha...
sunny sunday, had the usual brunch n i knew mj beckons since my sis is leaving...n so it happened...but just after dong feng nan in the first rd my aunt came...haha...so she took over me...but she left after one game so i took over.....then after dinner play another..."lao ber ji dao"(last game in dialect) we said.....
sat revision was good...i din an ok amount of revision so i decide to pamper by playing pool with my sis...it turned out to be a thrashing...she is too good for me...well...maybe she wore contacts while i din, cos the last time when she din wear i din lose that much...argh...littlefools won the FA cup, their fans r so yaya...
vesak day...fri revision wasnt that satisfying...cant remember much what happened that day but i guess there was mj n mj...thats y i din study the whole day...
visited gmc to see my mum spec for her diabetes...with the help of insulin her blood sugar readings its better...but wud prefer it if was because of the intrinsic reasons n not receiving external help...no choice lah...a lil bit of revisions after that
a day after that demoralising POA paper...so i was feeling a lil lethargic n only study a bit n there was a call for mj with long time friend/ka kis...boring game..not only i lost but also because one of my friend was in a foul mood...well...a lil too many things for him to bear now probably...hopes everything turns out fine...
majulah majulah...looking forward to hit my targeted amt of revisions tmw...till next time peeps...oh yah...suddenly thot of the strike in uk uni...its actually quite amusing to be inflicted...but it wouldnt if the outcome is going to be negative...haha....haha....hahah....
my actual (present) state isnt that good cos i am freaking over the exams...i am only somehow confident of passing
ideally , i wish the sky is the limit, getting all distinctions
ought to be at least getting 2nd upper or lower to secure a good job in the future
ideals r what we strive for, but failing to achieve it will produce dejection-related emotions(dissatisfaction, sadness)
failure to resolve actual-ought discrepancies will produce agitation-related emotions (fear, anxiety)
frankly i am running into probability of not attaining both...shucks..hai...
finally decide to just touch a bit on 3 of the 11 topics in ME...they r pretty much beyond my abilities to understand n time dusen permits to focus much on them also, i call it a temporal end to my ME revisions n move on to esap.....had a lil tiff with my bro.....hai...gong shuo gong you li po shuo po you li...what happenend was i remember clearly we had a bet on soccer n i won but he says he din acknowledge the bet...i was prepared not to pursue the money since it was just a petty amount n it was all for a moment of fun then...but accrued losses over mj n daidee later n actually reduced his losing...so i said lets call it quits...but he refused to budge n but still kept harping on it n pressed me for payment...so wu liao...its actually not the money that matters now...its the pride...haha...sound like 2 childish adults...i heck also lah...i simply just refuse to give in, cos y shld i?.........the new tv show on channel u is pretty nice, wardrobe sos...but what sexism..they only help to salvage the female's wardrobe.....ideally i shld be studying now or at least ought to be sleeping but actually here blogging....haha....
it seems like a blue tuesday yesterday...haha...cos my sis left home to stay in the hotel for her last week of stay in sg, not that she wants but i suppose its becos her boss is in town so she had to attend to her boss, my parents seem so sad...haha...spend the rest of the day on my ME n left stressed over the topics i dropped...maybe it wasnt a bad idea...cos to spent time trying to understand them will be very time consuming...n after a few surveys i did it seems that most other pple are dropping topics here n there...hope its not going to cost me dearly...
happy belated mothers' day....had a very heavy brunch n made me uncomfortable the whole day, orr bee...ha...then did revisions but was perpetually interrupted by my father over the sale n purchase of a new car...personally i want a lancer, but feedback from agents n friends was it isnt a good car so my father is reluctant, but i am frankly ok with any choice since he is the one ultimately paying...the old car has been a good servant, with occasionally off-days...haha...its time to retire lao peng you...had a belated celebration for mum...ate at a restaurant...probably becos we requested the food to be prepared earlier...so its actually not very tasty but it still cost a bomb...n since its mothers' day so its ok to splurge a bit...n had a bit of red wine...was pretty worried to have a gout attack though, luckily not...n funny i had a pretty funny dream... what i remember was there was some cock up at the restaurant then i started scolding n yelling at the restaurant's staff...haha...
sunny sunday, had the usual brunch n i knew mj beckons since my sis is leaving...n so it happened...but just after dong feng nan in the first rd my aunt came...haha...so she took over me...but she left after one game so i took over.....then after dinner play another..."lao ber ji dao"(last game in dialect) we said.....
sat revision was good...i din an ok amount of revision so i decide to pamper by playing pool with my sis...it turned out to be a thrashing...she is too good for me...well...maybe she wore contacts while i din, cos the last time when she din wear i din lose that much...argh...littlefools won the FA cup, their fans r so yaya...
vesak day...fri revision wasnt that satisfying...cant remember much what happened that day but i guess there was mj n mj...thats y i din study the whole day...
visited gmc to see my mum spec for her diabetes...with the help of insulin her blood sugar readings its better...but wud prefer it if was because of the intrinsic reasons n not receiving external help...no choice lah...a lil bit of revisions after that
a day after that demoralising POA paper...so i was feeling a lil lethargic n only study a bit n there was a call for mj with long time friend/ka kis...boring game..not only i lost but also because one of my friend was in a foul mood...well...a lil too many things for him to bear now probably...hopes everything turns out fine...
majulah majulah...looking forward to hit my targeted amt of revisions tmw...till next time peeps...oh yah...suddenly thot of the strike in uk uni...its actually quite amusing to be inflicted...but it wouldnt if the outcome is going to be negative...haha....haha....hahah....
// posted by lian soon @ 1:39 AM 
