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going to hk in a few hrs lor...its my first time going hk...so excited...haha.... have been wanting to go there since dunno when n the time has finally come...haha

ocean park, peak, disney, lan gui fang....all the tourist attractions that i have been seeing n hearing is going to come b4 me...haha...

i have only 3 hrs to sleep...haha...dunno can fall asleep or not...

bb everyone for now...will be back in a week time!

when i thot of this title...i meant change from student to a worker...but at the same time... i also wonder if this change will really happen...meaning....who knows...i may not be able to graduate... frankly if i am not...its going to be very hard for me to come to terms with it...bloody scary....

i can feel the expectations from my parents n bro...they r like allowing me to enjoy myself as much as possible then find a job n lighten their burden....if i really cannot graduate i dunno what i am going to face lor...sarcasm...despise...stress is building up....

had a swollen foot a few days ago....i wonder was it anything i ate or did i over exercise...hai... made me concerned over 2 things...the more immediate one is can i make it to hk n enjoy myself?...the next one is...how am i going to work with my condition....leather shoes r so much more uncomfy...n how can i afford to take so many mcs...i wonder if its time for me to start on medication...put if off for 8 yrs liao....cos was still young then...n medication can bring side effects...i wonder if its time to start now....hai...big decision...

i remember 2 yrs ago....i discussed an issue with a friend...as in pple who blame themselves n pple who blame others...i think i am a self-blamer more than a pple-blamer...ha...when something happen...usually i will blame myself for incompetence for not keeping things in control...probably will be a lil offensive or not nice to say here...but heck la...anyway like i say i am not blaming my friend la...but does hope that my friend can change...n of cos...there may be other reasons which i am not aware of...

what happened was....supposedly arranged to meet up with friends for a discussion...n thinking that everyone will be on time or at most slightly late...i could bring my parents to the place i am going...i can leave them there to walk ard on their own...then meet friends for discussion...but end up...one friend was very late...to be frank...i felt it was quite unfair to all who made an effort to be on time...so end up i had to leave halfway during the discussion...i did thot of giving the friend a morning call...given that the friend has a superb record for being late...hahaha...but i thot i shld give her a chance....i did thot of changing my mind n tell my parents to stay home in case i had to overshoot the timing...but they were so enthu the moment i told them i was going to take them out n jalan...just to reemphasize...no hard feelings ok(wouldnt it be nice if u dun read this, tsk tsk)...just hope that u will change...punctuality is a lil bit like responsibility...but u may have ur reasons...if i wronged u...tell me k...but if u dun think need to explain its okay also...
anyway...the moral is "da shi teng, ma shi ai"

anyway i am so so looking forward to the hk trip now...the most worrying thing is the leg...although track records has shown that after i see doc ...it gets well n wont have a prob...shall rest more at home these few days...

alright...good nite world....

another boring week...the usual things, the usual routine....lets write something for a change... inspired by cz...my academic profile...haha...although we had different situation...he already graduate liao...but my fate is still unknown...

studied at woodlands pri sch....my lower pri grades were really bad...i think my worst subject was english i think...then when i was in pri 2 i moved house...then my neighbour became my tutor...luckily n changed my grades ard...i was in the 2nd class for pri 4 n 5...then i did quite good in pri 5 n got into the best class....i also dunno was it becos the pace were different...i think i degenerate without me knowing...i thot i could do well enough to go to an slightly above average sec sch...but i was only able to get into an average...but still i think owe a lot to my tutor...if not i might have land somewhere worse....

continued with my average results in ahmad ibrahim sec sch...in fact it was below expectations....supposedly with my PSLE aggregate...i shld be able to go to jc...how a sch can be value-added was becos a student psle is tied to the o-level...so my cohort was actually seen as the better cohort that added value to my sec sch...but i wasnt part of them...i took value away from it instead...hahaha...i dun really have a teacher which i think played really significant role in my life in sec sch....i was 2 points from being able to go jc....my english n geo already chalked up 12 points...hahaha...kns....

life in poly also average...studied building services engineering...not my first choice...not even a choice i choose myself...i chose my first choice...optometry in SP...but din get in...rest of my choices were made by pri sch friends...the 3 yrs ....think got all the suan tian ku la la...some modules were interesting some were miserable..almost had to repeat one module...but luckily i pass the supp paper...my final project was quite a classic also...we were an efficient team...haha we divided the job damn well...i was procurement manager...i din take part in most of the engineering...i only go n buy things n do some administrative work...n surprising our project dunno came in 2nd or 3rd...tsk ...

SIM...strangely...its tougher than i expected initially...but it also seem to be not as tough...managed to clear the first yr successfully but the results were mediocre..tough luck in the 2nd yr....3rd yr...unknown...

llalala....bed time...

haha...actually already back for 2 days...but now then blog...oh yah(to zy: yeah i had a great time there thanks!)...hehe...anyway i shall just convenient leave my friend's blog address here...
http://odinchoy.livejournal.com/

i like this lil tanned skin colour...haha...

these 2 days back in spore has been quite busy...do this do that....watched 2 movies...gui ah gui ah...cmi....really cmi.... then i also watched spiderman 3....cant believe there are still so many pple who hasnt watch it...anyway i had stomachache at the last probably half an hr of the show...tahan until spiderman forgives the sandman then rush to the toilet...haha

i am so interested to learn harmonica!...i went to yamaha music sch n look at them ....i am eager to buy them...apart from its more economic then other instruments...i also think its quite cool...i can bring them everywhere...but on hindsight...i think just like any other instruments...i think it shld not be too easy to master...n i dunno if my perserverance can sustain...kekeke...

finally met up with han yu...an ex campmate....had dinner at ding tai feng....chat abt all the good old days...past present future la basically...

pretty packed schedule for the next few days...meaning less time at home...hope my father will not nag at me...keke

kk nites pple

keke...i am leaving for phuket in a few hrs...the flight is at 7am..n i have to reach airport at 5am...n i haven sleep...haha...whats new... most young adults r like that la..

it was such an impromptu...air tics n hotel book yesterday n gone tmw... i think it so ironic of planning holidays...
well...first of all...things r so volatile...so i find having to plan an holidays ahead can be so unsecured...but if u dun book early...its hard to get air tics n accomodation... so does that means holidays is given more priority then other things?...and u may have to adjust ur other matters to the dates of the holidays...anyway...hopefully have good news of my HK trip also...heh...after that then is really career planning liao...

some random updates...

a week of nuaing seems to be quite enough already...already covered most of the activities...n like time to be productive again....

anyway most of my activity is like quite standard la....mj n ktv...haha...
mj, ktv, bowling, dinner with friends, badminton, chill out, nua at home...these r abt the activities i do...
hmm...dunno how to carry on liao...nothing interesting...

all the best to some of my friends who r going to have there final paper on friday!

good nite world!

yes yes yes!!...its finally over...had a dreadful time for so so long...lost for words now...tsk tsk...
hmm...i am still feeling uncomfy abt my exams...i am really not sure if i can graduaete...but i know its pointless to think at this moment liao...can only wait till the results is released... zou yi bu kan yi bu...

recap a bit on my examinations...
1st paper icp...i think i did my best for this subject liao...n i was able to keep my pen moving thru'out the paper...although i wanna say if i really flunked it...at least i wont blame myself...but i will be disappointed...

2nd paper was mm...hmm..din deflect too much from what i expected...i knew i wasnt going to have enough time to finish all...cos it requires a lot of time to do the workings...expectations were lowered b4 n after the paper...hopefully its still acceptable...

3rd paper was hrm...what a nightmare...i regretted studying so many topics...its like meeting neither ends...not here not there....partly i am blaming the lousy timetable i get...although i know my timetable is not the worst...but its not that good neither...so to an extent...i believe exams r not fair to all...i wonder if the employers see this point...back to the paper...i had a hard time filling the spaces...i kept thinking if shld attempt the other qn instead...i had problem recalling ...which further confirm my complaint that exams r so dumb...test of memory!! my confidence of passing it really low...n i blamed my stupidity for studying too many topics n the timetable...

4th paper, me...another frustrating paper...its the 2nd attempt...so needless to say it wasnt as bad as the first time cos i more prepared...but i still think i let myself down...i think i had a weak attitude when i was studying it...i just keep thinking that it was really hard for me know how to...so i wasnt very meticulous when i was revising...n it costs me dearly...a few qns was from either tuts or past yr qn...which means if i had been revising more seriously i would have known how to do them...n possibly more confident of passing the paper...n i made a careless mistake! darn!! i would blame myself by a large margin....shucks!

last paper...msm...its not tough paper...but i had a bad start...did markov n i keep having problem summing the mkt share to 1!...i spent a lot of time checking it thru...it got me all gan chiong n pek chek!...but luckily i still managed to got it right in the end...but i was in a fluster n really untidy thru out the paper...i also hope i din make any careless mistakes...i would be disappointed if i dun get a 2nd class grades for it...

i am not very sure of the situation...supposedly we can grad with 10 units...but i really dunno how true is that...if it is..i think my situation is slightly favourable...hai...it sucks to be uncertain abt the outcome...but i have decide to think more optimistically...just do what everyone is doing...expecting to grad n apply for jobs meanwhile...

speaking of which...its a headache also...hai...slack for a week then think abt it la...

did a few things that i had been putting off this while....cut hair...chill out...supper...mj...n blog! haha...will be going ktv tmw...n had dinner with friends...n another mj n supper...

just wanna say it really feels good after exams....no more enforcing myself to sleep not more than 8 hrs...no more thinking n planning what to study the night b4 i sleep....n to wake up n slowly enjoying breakfast...watch tv...you zai xian zai...

n what i want now is to go on a holidays!!...pls take me away from this place...i wanna go somewhere for a breather!! i am suffocating here!!

k la...i think i will end here liao...damn tired...i am going to have a good sleep n a day of fun tmw!!