Friday, April 13, 2007
zombified
feeling a lil like a zombie now....physically n mentally tired at the moment. the day started at 8am...had icp lesson in the morning, the last of my icp lesson. feeling a lil emo at the end of it , tsk tsk..it feels like saying goodbye to mr nageb, sim n fellow schoolmates....i still rem my first lesson in sim was ibm, taught by mr nageb, which seems like it was only yesterday...haha...how time flies.....
couldnt find a suitable person to go with me to taiwan...a lil disappointed but its ok...
did some mm revision in sch b4 my evening hrm class....pretty dismal cos i think i covered less than what i planned...emo again as its like going to be the last month i will be spending my time in SIM...something which has been a part of my life for 3 yrs....the library, the toilet, the tables n chairs, the koi pond, the atrium, the lift, the staircase...bla bla...very soon they r going to become memories...
like i was telling sean, it takes really a lot of motivation to attend hrm class...the last burst which really zombified me...kind of lost of words...its like i know yet i dunno whats going on n vice versa...as the lesson went on...many thots flashed in my were mind....so whats education?? whats really the rationale for attending lesson? y a min or a sec ago there can be some very enthu students seeking attention from the lecturer then the next they can just remain silent n then irritate the lecturer? i am not at all blaming them...just a bit puzzled...for all she knows, sometimes she needs to pinpoint pple to get an ans, then y did she still not do that, allowing some kind of a dumb cycle to go on...lalalla...
enjoyed 2 songs in the car on my way back, ying xing de ren by syz n xiao shi by FIR...i sang to the top of my voice, something like a liberation, letting it all out in the car! shiok! but just like we have to get back to reality, the engine stops, the music stops and then back to the tranquility...
just when we thot the accident which my father got into had come to an end, we received a lawyer's letter from the claimant was sent to us, sian...more errands to run n more dispute to settle. at first i thot it was a SOP, but now i totally dun understand y r they sending us a lawyer's letter. from the day of the accident till now, we did not receive any calls from them, so we din get into any dispute mah...so y r they sending letter to us...its not as if we have confronted n we r refusing to accede to their terms...anyway, just have to call n clarify everything tmw...
ok...some updates for now...
the mazda is also back, somehow it feels like restoring things back to status quo although its not really the case...firstly, dun really well comfortable driving a car thats pretty badly hit,if the intensity of the damage can be measured by cost, its 30k. lucky got insurance but still paid 525 excess. some of my neighbours were not making things better, they were like telling us an accident is worthless, if can sell then sell away...which i think its kind of creating some dissonance in my father n me, not wanting to be impolite, we just smile n keep mum...a funny/weird conversation with my bro also....he asked, so how is the car?...a very natural qn which i think anyone in his shoes will ask...but how am i supposed to ans him...so i just said its cleaner n look newer, haha....n he replied, ok so its for the better...then i really dunno how to ans liao...just keep quiet n change topic...
mm class was like this n like that lor....
cen jing cang hai nan wei shui
chu que wu shan bu shi yun
vaguely understand the meaning of this 2 lines, any kind soul who know can enlighten me pls, thanks
a very happening sat, yes 933 star dj contest!
seems pretty unbelievable, but finally i still made up my mind to give it a try...
reached there ard 1020 n to my surprise(delight?), there werent really too many participants. however, its not concealed...which means i have to stand on the stage n make a public audition, a very big stumbling block. at 11 i made my way to the registration booth n my number was 94... i was overwhelmed by the first 4 contestants...i really thot i shld chicken out...but i just stayed n watched n watched ...ok.. overall i will say more than half of the contestants were better than me...some same as me n only a few i think did worse than me...b4 my turn, i was thinking so what i shld say on stage...but but but...on n off the stage is so diff...i seem to have 1001 thing to say but i think i said less than 10 things...i also dunno y...n i even made mistakes which i initally warned myself not to make ...some of which were made by the previous contestant n ironically i was laughing at them myself when i was waiting for my turn. well...i wanted to defend myself by saying that the way this audition is held is not favourable to me, but i think i just have to accept since its their game n they call the shots....results will be out tmw...i will be very very very shocked if i do get thru...well...still i wanna thanks bukoh mary, cos of the 3 judges judging me, i find her to be the most appreciative i would say, she gave me this really sincere smile when i got on the stage n off the stage n when i was a lil nervous....on the other hand...lets not say ...haha...ask me personally la if wanna know...well...i will still try to make my way to become a dj...it seems a lil weird to me now as i reflect...actually in the past there were events like "shui qiang zou le wo de mai ke feng" and "project s"...how come i wasnt so enthu abt them previously...isit becos i am graduating n i need to find a job?...probably...but 2 yrs ago...i already make a declaration to someone i wanna be a deejay.....lalala...looks like i cannot stop writing on this...haha...anyway the reason i wrote on the form for y i wanna be a deejay was really dumb...keke...i wrote becos i really like to listen to songs, so whenever i heard a really nice song, usually classic, i wished very much i can own that cd...wahaha...thats just one of the many many reasons...just like i learn in my icp class we although there are many advantages n disadvantages, but we still need to rank them...that reason was joint top with another reason...
i was contemplating whether to pen this......sian...my ME sucks...i dowanna fail it again!
i am comtemplating to pen this also...
a friend asked me for a ride
at that point my father said he wanna use the car, so i had to take public myself too
but at the very last min, my father let me used the car instead
so in the end i got to drive.
i did not inform the friend
so i am wondering if i am correct or wrong or neither right nor wrong.
k, so y din i inform him...firstly...it was last min, so i reckon he shld have made his way so quite redundant to inform him...2ndly..lazy?dunno how valid it is though...probably to say its too much of a hassle more pleasing to see n hear...cos if i call him, still have to arrange place n time which highly needs adjustments on my side...so just take it as it is...
i did ask myself if i shld explain to him...asked a few person n they told me its not necessary...but i did ask myself if i were in his shoes how will i feel...will i feel i am being cheated? it seems highly possible that i will be....however...i am still leaving it as it is....wait yue miao yue hei, n probably if i explain things it would seem i am defending myself....
on a happier note, my parents cold war has ended...hehe...bed head quarrel bed tail reconcile...keke...
alright...good nite pple...
couldnt find a suitable person to go with me to taiwan...a lil disappointed but its ok...
did some mm revision in sch b4 my evening hrm class....pretty dismal cos i think i covered less than what i planned...emo again as its like going to be the last month i will be spending my time in SIM...something which has been a part of my life for 3 yrs....the library, the toilet, the tables n chairs, the koi pond, the atrium, the lift, the staircase...bla bla...very soon they r going to become memories...
like i was telling sean, it takes really a lot of motivation to attend hrm class...the last burst which really zombified me...kind of lost of words...its like i know yet i dunno whats going on n vice versa...as the lesson went on...many thots flashed in my were mind....so whats education?? whats really the rationale for attending lesson? y a min or a sec ago there can be some very enthu students seeking attention from the lecturer then the next they can just remain silent n then irritate the lecturer? i am not at all blaming them...just a bit puzzled...for all she knows, sometimes she needs to pinpoint pple to get an ans, then y did she still not do that, allowing some kind of a dumb cycle to go on...lalalla...
enjoyed 2 songs in the car on my way back, ying xing de ren by syz n xiao shi by FIR...i sang to the top of my voice, something like a liberation, letting it all out in the car! shiok! but just like we have to get back to reality, the engine stops, the music stops and then back to the tranquility...
just when we thot the accident which my father got into had come to an end, we received a lawyer's letter from the claimant was sent to us, sian...more errands to run n more dispute to settle. at first i thot it was a SOP, but now i totally dun understand y r they sending us a lawyer's letter. from the day of the accident till now, we did not receive any calls from them, so we din get into any dispute mah...so y r they sending letter to us...its not as if we have confronted n we r refusing to accede to their terms...anyway, just have to call n clarify everything tmw...
ok...some updates for now...
the mazda is also back, somehow it feels like restoring things back to status quo although its not really the case...firstly, dun really well comfortable driving a car thats pretty badly hit,if the intensity of the damage can be measured by cost, its 30k. lucky got insurance but still paid 525 excess. some of my neighbours were not making things better, they were like telling us an accident is worthless, if can sell then sell away...which i think its kind of creating some dissonance in my father n me, not wanting to be impolite, we just smile n keep mum...a funny/weird conversation with my bro also....he asked, so how is the car?...a very natural qn which i think anyone in his shoes will ask...but how am i supposed to ans him...so i just said its cleaner n look newer, haha....n he replied, ok so its for the better...then i really dunno how to ans liao...just keep quiet n change topic...
mm class was like this n like that lor....
cen jing cang hai nan wei shui
chu que wu shan bu shi yun
vaguely understand the meaning of this 2 lines, any kind soul who know can enlighten me pls, thanks
a very happening sat, yes 933 star dj contest!
seems pretty unbelievable, but finally i still made up my mind to give it a try...
reached there ard 1020 n to my surprise(delight?), there werent really too many participants. however, its not concealed...which means i have to stand on the stage n make a public audition, a very big stumbling block. at 11 i made my way to the registration booth n my number was 94... i was overwhelmed by the first 4 contestants...i really thot i shld chicken out...but i just stayed n watched n watched ...ok.. overall i will say more than half of the contestants were better than me...some same as me n only a few i think did worse than me...b4 my turn, i was thinking so what i shld say on stage...but but but...on n off the stage is so diff...i seem to have 1001 thing to say but i think i said less than 10 things...i also dunno y...n i even made mistakes which i initally warned myself not to make ...some of which were made by the previous contestant n ironically i was laughing at them myself when i was waiting for my turn. well...i wanted to defend myself by saying that the way this audition is held is not favourable to me, but i think i just have to accept since its their game n they call the shots....results will be out tmw...i will be very very very shocked if i do get thru...well...still i wanna thanks bukoh mary, cos of the 3 judges judging me, i find her to be the most appreciative i would say, she gave me this really sincere smile when i got on the stage n off the stage n when i was a lil nervous....on the other hand...lets not say ...haha...ask me personally la if wanna know...well...i will still try to make my way to become a dj...it seems a lil weird to me now as i reflect...actually in the past there were events like "shui qiang zou le wo de mai ke feng" and "project s"...how come i wasnt so enthu abt them previously...isit becos i am graduating n i need to find a job?...probably...but 2 yrs ago...i already make a declaration to someone i wanna be a deejay.....lalala...looks like i cannot stop writing on this...haha...anyway the reason i wrote on the form for y i wanna be a deejay was really dumb...keke...i wrote becos i really like to listen to songs, so whenever i heard a really nice song, usually classic, i wished very much i can own that cd...wahaha...thats just one of the many many reasons...just like i learn in my icp class we although there are many advantages n disadvantages, but we still need to rank them...that reason was joint top with another reason...
i was contemplating whether to pen this......sian...my ME sucks...i dowanna fail it again!
i am comtemplating to pen this also...
a friend asked me for a ride
at that point my father said he wanna use the car, so i had to take public myself too
but at the very last min, my father let me used the car instead
so in the end i got to drive.
i did not inform the friend
so i am wondering if i am correct or wrong or neither right nor wrong.
k, so y din i inform him...firstly...it was last min, so i reckon he shld have made his way so quite redundant to inform him...2ndly..lazy?dunno how valid it is though...probably to say its too much of a hassle more pleasing to see n hear...cos if i call him, still have to arrange place n time which highly needs adjustments on my side...so just take it as it is...
i did ask myself if i shld explain to him...asked a few person n they told me its not necessary...but i did ask myself if i were in his shoes how will i feel...will i feel i am being cheated? it seems highly possible that i will be....however...i am still leaving it as it is....wait yue miao yue hei, n probably if i explain things it would seem i am defending myself....
on a happier note, my parents cold war has ended...hehe...bed head quarrel bed tail reconcile...keke...
alright...good nite pple...
// posted by lian soon @ 1:07 AM 
