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rapidly mastering the skills of procrastinatio...thoughts like...aiya...tmw then do la.. no mood to do them now la...is taking over me...f me...i hate myself now...

last thur was fun...sim bash... added another musical note to my life...now i have do re mi fa...ha.. not sure if its a good or bad thing though...apart from that i really had a good time at the bash.. probably becos the company was fun n knowing that its going to be last time added more meaning to it...heres my explanation to jas for saying i made such a funny arrangement...see huh...firstly we r all worried abt u...then u have to work tmw...so best is to send u home first... then wanted to send ben back to MOS n send gilian back then ml will take cab back from ur place...but then took some time to hail a cab...so i asked ben if he is going back to MOS n picked jingyou then go home liao...he said ya...so i ask him to take cab then i send ml n gilian back lor...like that funny meh? haha...u selfish la...only care abt too expensive for ur bf...wahaha...you yi xing mei ren xing(dun think u understand, dun understand then come ask me in sch) anyway it was late...as long as everyone reaches home safe n sound can liao...

still feeling sei sei the next day...attended icp then went to have a gathering with some poly friends...ah man...kenna dua by agnes...haa but it was ok la...she din meant it also...was supposed to meet at orchard for dinner...i was not sure if its spore shopping center or orchard shopping center...it was the latter but she told me the former...so i had to walk a bit...but it was a good walk...i think i like to walk...it give a lil chance to exercise n think abt things...i aint sure if i am someone who thinks a lot...i mean...there is no definite limits...just like many other things...so i can only someone who prefers to make comparison of relate something to something...like songs, music, movies, pple...etc..almost everything...this yr the arrangement for gift exchange was different from the first time...pretty fun cos we had to guess who is the actual one buying the present....anyway mine was easy to guess...cos only those who have my msn knows i want zhou hui cd...so i guessed my sender pretty easily....thanks! love the cd alot! then i managed to fool simon his present was bought by me...so fun...i bought something from bodyshop for cindy...haha...a bit bo sim la i think cos i last min buy one...although u can say its already what i intended to buy....i like simon magic tricks! i look forward to that whenever we meet...keke.. i am a sucker for magic...

damn tired...but there was still hrm...shit man...hrm sucks! i am really clueless...i dunno how to study for it...sianz..went to cwp to shop for xmas gift b4 going home...bought for ml n jas...hope they will like it ba...hmm...ml was so sweet to give me a hand made socks...thanks!..gan dong :"...then home n do my fantasy stuffs...at night went to ktv ...i am pretty fed up with my legs really...i dunno whats the prob with it...

xmas eve...lonely xmas...hmm...dun make it so sad la...though was at home but at least it was peaceful...haven napped for such a long time...1pm to 6pm...haha...then played mj with my pple at home...dont really wanna stay at home...but also dunno where to go...so just online n chat with other lonely souls...alas...found cz...we had mac at seletar reservoir...frankly i quite like the setting...quiet n peaceful...n nice chat...riiiiinggg....hy called...just nice...4 pple available...so mj again...probably one day will really come where i will be really alone...when everybody is busy n i have only me myself n i to spend the xmas...it will probably be really lonely...

mj madness continues...then ktv ....i felt i am a walking zombie...n i am still feeeling i am one now...

another wet tues...spent the day doing some mm tuts n ran some errands.. in the evening went to mediacorp studio n watch the live recording of PSS 2 male semis...tic courtesy of LESHENG... support him!...if u don mind...keke...it was pretty fun ...

another mm class another day of revision in sch....did the revision outside the LT where i know "fa" will be...hai...i am a piece of shit la...courage n confidence have deserted me...

another ME class...and more doing nothing...i feel like killing myself!haha...piece of shit piece of shit piece of shit piece of shit piece of shit piece of shit................LS went thru... great...

cos i am dying inside to hold u
couldnt believe what i felt for u
i am dying inside
i am dying inside
but i couldnt bring myself to hold u.........

jingle bell jingle bell jingle all the way....lalala... my mind is totally overtaken by the holiday mood today...i think its becos half of this week is gone n i just wanna indulge in this festive season...

i think i am so naughty in mm class...haha...2 things rule...firstly, if its too hard i am not interested to listen...too simple i also dun give a damn...haha so basically i am paying lil attention in class...sometimes i feel guilty for disturbing the lecturer n fellow students...after that i made a futile effort to jio pple for ktv...haha...i think i can be such a nuisance sometimes...to a certain extent maybe i shld not keep pestering once they decline...stayed in sch to do some tut qns...but the holiday mood is making me listless la...after that i toook a long road home...i walked to np then exit thru the back gate...reliving the old days memory...then along the way i sang softly...haha...quite a shiok feeling...n a good exercise..."new york dallas los angeles...ji mo gong lu mei zhan dou xia xue......"after i got home n here i am ...glue to my comp n tv...kill me...

wet wet wet....cold cold cold...torrential rain flooding most area...the situation looks bad at some area man...hrm then went home n some hrm revision....bored bored bored....

msm...home...nua...tv...revision...sleep....ha

mj sunday...haha...seems like the power of mj is taking over me...my weak legs gave me a fright..lucky they r ok after a rub...

started sat with a nike sales at expo...bought an basic tee n a pair of shoes...hope its not another wrong decision...got home to settle my fantasy team then nap...woke up then calls n smses came...went to have dinner with faithful old friend daniel at glass house...then went to walk ard at PS n watch eragon...part of the expediture at PS was carrefour...remember the old days when they stocked up tidbits n snacks b4 booking in...eragon was simple to understand...unlike lotr... the author is only 17 yr old...no wonder...

icp...home...stay home friday night....

ME...revision...home...tv...

mm...revision...home...tv..

ok...nothing more to say...end it with this....

last xmas i gave u my heart
but the very next day u gave it away
this yr , i am saving my tears
giving it to someone special...

haha...i think i am crazy....i got the 4 "fa" tiles from my mj n put them on top of the monitor...to inspire me...keke...huat la!

oh man!...damn pain!!...pain until i cant walk...hai...what marathon...i swear i will not run if given the choice again...attended my msm in agony...the moment i stand up i need a bloody long time to accustomed to limping n the pain..agony!

climax tue...i contemplated skipping hrm n go straight to see a doc first...but on the way i thot...damn...tahan one day liao...whats another 3 hrs..how wrong how wrong...i struggled to make it to the LT lor...then the LT was damn bloody cold!...i struggled inside and it took me great pains to get out of the LT during the break..that was it...i cannot get back to the LT liao...sean packed my bag for me n i went to see the doc...too painful...no choice have to get a jab to heal faster...last time i pain until i cant even limp so i used my wheeled chair to get ard at home...haven done that for a long time...but i had no choice but to do it again this time...

couldnt make it to morning mm cos still my legs were only rated 50%...as usual noon class lor...n the usual talking away in the class...ha..

ME...ah...what test...shit...i hate the lazy me this sem...partly is really owed to the pain that has be hounding me few weeks...pss is a must thing to watch now...haha

what a fri...haha...time to disclose the small secret here on msn...sometime ago i din wanted to blog abt my trial at talentine...but now that everything over liao can say liao...hmm..i also dunno how to start...keep it simple...i joined talentine...but never get thru the audition...but anyhow...the even sponsors were talent scouting or also can be say doing sales la...cos in the end they r actually pple to buy their grooming service...something like that la...where pple can learn how to be an artiste...but also some other personal grooming stuffs...but well...anyway still a good exposure...then supper at yishun then go home...

early bird...chirp chirp...ktv in the noon with ml n des... initially i thot ml say say only...wah...but she really wakes up early n give me a morning sms sia...what passion for ktv...haha...after that rush home to settle my fantasy teams then rush to huini wedding dinner. so happy for her..wish her n derrick happiness n bliss ever after~~~~~~~~~~ she requested me to send her folks home...so how could i reject her...haha...that fact that she shows appreciation is already justifying y i shld do her the favour liao...

argh...wasteful sunday...i wanted to study one....but my bro san que yi...then my malay neighbours next block was holding a wedding ceremony....so its gonna be rowdy anyway...so play mj la...then whole day gone again just like that lor...

usual mon....nothing unusual...

what a tuesday!...just like a meaning stephen chow was trying to put across in his show ling ling fa....when i try hard to find something u will not find it...then when u r not expecting it...it will just pop out....too bad...tan hua yi xian...so fast...just like shooting star...haha...did just a bit of production today...a mm test that is due tmw...ai...ming tian hui gen hao...

good nite world!

what a tiring sunday!...slept at 2am and woke up at 420am for the quarter marathon...feeling the aftermath of it now! my legs r only functioning at 40%..pain pain...mountain pple mountain sea...my event started at 7am...the moment i started to jog i knew i was going to be in trouble...the ankle that did not recover fully was already signalling to me...but i cant possibly just stop so just have to bear with it n finish the race...jogged for like until the 6km mark...then i finally walked...kind of disappointed actually...but well...i am just not well prepared enough..besides the ankle...i also have 2 big blisters on two of my last toes...but to me i know they r just excuses to me...anyway i completed the race in 1hr and 26 mins...timing isnt really much of an issue...its the process.....

after that i rush home cos got to pick up the folks for dim sum...its like such a mad race...morning drive from woodlands to marina square...then rush back after the marathon then rush to miramar hotel to eat then send them home then rush to amk for mj...wasnt really that keen to play...but i haven master the skill of rejecting...my legs were like so painful n i am so tired...sitting for hrs at the mj table only make things worse...knock up so early last night...chong chong mang mang...what a weekend...

i am seriously slacking a lot a lot in my revision...i hope to put them all back in places b4 the xmas...

till next time...

hmm...how to say hi...it can be as easy as abc yet it can be as difficult as....haha...or as hard as...? gosh ...i know neither...broken english me...

let see what situations can there be with saying hi...on the msn...i always say hi/hello/yo to pple...to some i will use hi n some use hello n some use yo...depending on how close i am with the person...then there are some i dun bother to say hi...n some i wanna say hi...but something is holding me back...complexity...let the words remain unsaid~~~

then now face to face...saying hello to strangers like receptionist or customer service is so easy compared to saying hi to pple u know but u not sure if they do recognize...cos its like so paiseh like if u say hi n then the person just stare blindly at u wondering who u r...even a smile with no return also so paiseh...n its like so frequent esp in sch for me now...cos some pple r friend's friends...but i not sure if they recognize me...so i dowan to be misunderstood at dao by not smiling at them or say hi to them...yet an unrequittal...will be so embarrassing...haha..

today was not bad...at least i felt 60% productive.....think 50 % la...haha...attended ME...i still having trouble understanding that topic although its the 2nd time i am attending it...hai...then i get down to finished my mm tut ...feels good that i can finally keep the notes for a while...for the past week...my table is like so messy...tv monster caught me again...i am beginning to watch more tv lately...its eating into my revision time...shucks...pss is still fun to watch...what a pity the big beauty her ching is out...although to be frank her singing skills is so so only...

happy bday jy...what a day...big roti prata...haha..cos after mm lesson i wanted to stay in sch to do tuts...but but but...went to settlers at hv instead....quite fun...but seems like a bit old liao... somehow like find that becos its so childish to play board game...but hey...those games not really that easy man...need to strategize and gk must be not bad as well...

stupid hrm test la...shit man...its killing me..i seriously wrote shit i think...the dilemma is if i dun hand in i feel like i am doing myself a disfavour..yet if i hand in its like telling him to read shit...haha...anyway i still hand in...i dun really have any idea how to tackle the problems lor...somehow abdul is so implicit...y cant be be more specific like tell us what to read n what to write...hopes he will give out model qns and ans asap...

very boring msm class...think i am not a lesson kind of person...more of a tut kind of person...cos i find it so hard to understand lecture or i find it so hard to pay attention...doiing tuts is like more helpful to me...maybe i dun not know the meaning underneath but at least i have some idea what to do...think my nature is like that...i dun like to dig so hard to find the underlying truth...i just wanna know the truth n accept it...watch bai jia le season 2...quite nice show...i think they should allow the loser team to buy out the furnitures...afterall they spent so much effort in it...so if they like it shld let them buy if they want....

sei sei sunday...thats due to the hangover on sat...sleep like almost during the whole of day time then attend a simple wedding of my cousin...my family orbat is very funny...guess its the elders' having prob with each other...then things only seem to turned better this couple of year...well..like they say...blood is thicker than water...i haven seen this cousin of mine for i also dunno how many years...probably more than 10 years....

shag sat...started with buying jy present...think we bring bad luck to arsenal...haha...they lost 2 games after we bought the jersey for jy...then went to collect my race pack...oh man i feel so motivated there...however i rate my legs 50% ok only...fingers still crossed...the goodie bag is not bad also..then walked ard suntec then at heeren....dinner time...i booked a table for 18 the day b4...but when i went to claimed my tables, the staff at village say they dun have records of my reservation...wth...luckily they were still able to get us the seats...quite uncomfortable though since we were given 3 round tables to join together...finally had my pork knuckle...i have been craving for it!...after we went to acid bar...not bad...better than i expected plus we din have any probs getting seats...cool...the night din end there...then we went to a ktv pub at boat quay...side track*listening to my fav singer singing one of my fav song...chen qi zhen..song title cant remember...haha shiok...the reason y this song or this album is so memorable its becos it brings back many memories...the first cd for my first car....those were the days...."*ok...get back now...played dice sing song n make merry in the pub...then while i was singing, a guy from a table beside us came to approached us...at first i wonder is it something not correct...then he put his arms around my shoulders...n looked at me...a bit stunned...haha...think he is a tourist from hongkong n a bit drunk n just wanna have fun n make some friends...so he bought us drinks...cool...hehe...although i din drink ..then we sat at the river to continue to chill...jasmine is drunk la...drunkard...wanna pee into the river...wahaha...

nothing much on a friday...lesson n then malinger in sch...then mj...n lose...hai...down on luck again....

attended noon me class...cos i am very tired...then went to bugis to find ben n jas to buy ml present...tcc at bugis is nice...worth patronizing...made a expensive trip to peninsula...i think all carparks in spore shld have grace parking man...i went there wanting to buy jersey for jy but all the shops close liao...so left like within 10 mins...but kenna charged 3 dollars...omg...

lalalala...wed...lalala...tues....hahaha...dont write liao la...