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day 1....er i think day 13 better

day 13...
3 consecutive weeks without mj...kind of good at least i managed to catch up a lil bit with my readings...my damn funny leg...here pain there pain...sickening...a day of lying on bed, gluing to computer n some tv...the qi tian da sheng on scv very funny la...i am surprised they din censored the "vulgarities"...

day 12...
abt the same as day 13 as in i had some revision...then after that met richard for dinner at vilage...the former marche.... went there with diff grps of pple b4...a place with pretty plentiful memories...dunno y the leg was so in pain yesterday...which explains y i din wanted to stay out too long...although already chatted very long with richard during the dinner...so there still a lot more to be said n the night was still young...however i am so in pain i just wanna go home n rest...

day 11
sch is getting stressful...n with a preacher like nageb...it adds to the woes...there r more n more things to memorize liao...towards the end of the lecture i was like having cold sweat...how to tahan...cannot take it man...after that went to ktv with huini...2 pple sing 4 hrs is really quite madness...the quality gets lousier as we sang...

day 10...
had ME...after that i doubled home...my leg is so painful! arghh...inital plan was to do my mm tuts...but since i am home i switched to hrm...then in the evening there was an impromptu decision to go mu chuan...there was a singing contest there....kind of made me interested to take part...i think i will ...but maybe next yr...n maybe i will try out the audition there too after i grad...in case canot find job then i can sing for a living there if i can make it...hahaha...wonder what enlightenment my friend got there...he decided to quit smoking...great isnt it?...pple who wanna quit smoking...can try going to mu chuan...haha

day 9
skipped morning mm n attended noon one ...actually morning one is better cos the lt is better...but what to do....then sort of completed my msm tut..as in i look at the qns n they seem so repeated...except for the figures...so i just try a few examples n close shop...a new show to catch now...project superstar...

day 8
boring hrm in the morning then some msm tuts in the noon....home n thats all....mono life...haha

day 7
msm then jog...probably the jog that cause me the misery...but only my incapability to blame...

day 6
refer to day 13...wahaha..

day 5...
with reference to day 12...nua-ed at home...y did i say wrt to day 12 leh...cos life is so funny...
nobody asks u out ...then when they do....they come altogether...i had few options for day 12...none for day 5...keke...

day 4
icp then wanted to jog at np one...but forgot to bring shoes...forgetful me...so went home to jog then lalalalalalala.....

day 3 to day 1....no idea...haha...

live to fight tmw...ciao...

yes...after 2 weeks...i can finally walk properly...its like learning how to walk...believe it or not... cos i have been like limping for 2 weeks trying not to exert pressure on the affected area...which are the big toe area and side of my foot...it took me some time n courage n confidence to step n then wholly n walk normally...anyway i am just so relieved over it now...to be free from pain is a blessing...

hai...sad to say...i have lost confidence in acupuncture...did i mention the physician is actually a friend's father? what a letdown...i visited him...not it did not relieve me of any pain nor did it get any better...utter waste of money n time n lost of faith n trust...continue to be in pain...n i told myself i will give him 2 days...my slack n nua continued with the pain...

for the first time in many weeks...i swopped my morning mm class to noon...due to fatigue n untolerable leg pain...if i had to go i would have to take public...but by going in the noon at least i can still drive...so i went to the noon class...what a fortune to have met mj...if not i have to alone...anyway i still unable to phil lesson...hai...i am just banking on the tuts to help me... then after lesson...hmm...i went to do the "something secretive"...haha...still dunno the outcome...i do hope its positive.....after that i became ahmad...driving for abt 2 hrs...from sch to home...then home to serangoon gardens n then home...i sent my folks to a wedding banquet...thot i could have arranged dinner with a friend then i can stay ard that area then dun have to drive so much...but he wasnt at home n the pain continue to kill me...so i just wanna go home n rest...to sidetrack abit...actually its also partially due to my impatience ba...i could have waited for him for a while...but i din want to wait...i dun like waiting....n so since we couldnt come up with a viable solution in double quick time on the phone i proposed to go home...

ok...times up for the grace period...i am going to see a western doc...this doc ah...really make big money man...he has seamless patients...something i am pretty pissed also...firstly i called wanting to get a q number...but the person told me to just come n take a number...then when i reach after my lesson...the number is 25 n i got 49...wah lao eh...which means at least wait 1 hr....but got one person who came b4 me said she called n she got 37...argh...dunno how they work...ok...my uric acid is quite high...anyway i am so glad i see the doc la...i felt better after just one day...

tgif...normal icp...normal day....anyway there is this guy whom i am pretty new to...but i dunno y i am like so rude to him..haha...rude as in i really suan n tu him directly...but it was really all for fun n jokes...hope he is not offended.....my folks have another wedding dinner to attend again...so be their ahmad again...so while they r eating theirs...i had mine with my bro n sis n thai express... the food is normal...but i find the price a bit steep for that fare...after that my bro wanna go eat selegie dou huay...i can only watch...n eat grass jelly...caught the last episode of zhuan shi qing yuan...so glad...that means the evening time can be use to study liao...need more to time to catch up on lots n lots...

so so revision on a stay home weekend part 1...supposedly wanted to visit a friend father...but he dun really want us to go...cos he says his father is quite vulnerable to germs n bacterias now n quite uncomfortable with visitors..so never insist lor...hai...but mk seems quite insistent...somehow his r/s with yh seems pretty strained now...bachelor=boring weekend n soccer..haha...

flop revising...the moment i lie on my bed i only want to sleep...omg...so lil revision only...got to be one of the most sinful day...

boring msm...dunno y...how...i am losing all interest in study...hrm revision just now is not productive at all also...die...shit!

confused...so whats next now...chong lai? stop it? look forward?..............

y ah...y my leg still pain after so long...i also dunno when will it fully recover....argh...it got better last thurs after the acupuncture...but somehow it worsens after friday...was it the food that i ate during supper?...i din really eat a lot of the "forbidden food" ah...or it was still more than i could consume...damn sian la...no mood for anything...haven had a proper revision since that day...so many things are accruing..stress...vexed...pain...

after ME class last thur i nua in sch then went to see a chinese doc.. had acupuncture for the first time in my life...wah...sensation... when he poke the affected area...which is at the big toe...pain... then other area is also pain together with some "ooh"...then when he on the electricity...could feel the current...first few mins pain...then after that is...not so pain...cos used to it liao... after the whole session it was still painful...but the next day was better n i was so happy n i thot i will recover by monday latest...but its not meant to be............

felt much better on friday...attended icp then went home....skipped dinner cos my usual dinner is ard 8pm then roger was giving a supper treat...perhaps it was this sinful supper...damn...all the best to roger for he was treating becos of his pay rise...

pain came back...but anothe area...the other end of my feet...dunno wth..... attended cindy n mh wedding in the evening...how blissful...wish then happily ever after...poor legs...have to wear shoes n walk so much...ouch...wooh....

cmi liao...pain reach climax...plus a few hrs at the mj table...only make matters worse...more stress...more pain....stress cos never study again...

very weird very very weird....maybe happiness can cure all illness...i was still feeling the pain.. then attended msm...after that went to ktv with ml jas ben n jy...i really dunno y...but i felt my leg was better at the ktv room....how come?? i dunno...maybe its ktv therapy...indulging in something enjoyable probably can cure a person...i was happy cos i thot i am gonna be fine soon...but the joy was shortlived...after we step out...then the pain come back...felt the pain creeping back at the dinner...then reach home the pain came back in full force...arghhh....

attended hrm...then nua ard to wait to see the doc again...acupuncture again...but this time i haven feel better...i hope it will be after tmw when i wake up...hoping for epiphany...

just have to live in agony now...............