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its happy(not!) valentine's day today...happy for lovebirds but not for the lonely souls... so boring so lonely n so sad...my cousin was telling me she hates v day...i dinno y when she told me last night but i fully understand now....its a day where the memories of the past haunt u n everything n every moment is just sucky...stay at home sucks! go out sucks! with friends around sucks! being alone sucks! i declare i hate v day now also..haha.....

the rubbish week (weak!) :

last wednesday : weak...cant do my poa assignment..no more poa lessons already n mocks coming n still cant do the assignment...even with the notes n tuts right in front of me...fu****G hate myself...carried on with ME revisions instead...feeling damn sian so went to play pools with ben n jy...the whole night i only won twice i think...they r too good for me...then had supper with them and went home...hmm...fetching n driving pple sometimes is irrational n rational ba i think...i guess when there r more pple i have to be more partial but becos that day only the 3 of them i drove them back even though is not on the way like ben says...so i said...along the way or not is really subjective ba...if i dunno him well maybe i would not have drove him home...anyway this a neverending issue lah...cos as long as there r pple there are objectivity n subjectivity...

last thursday : lousy...i haven actually recalled what happen but wth...everyday is a chore! i supposed i attended the last poa class...ok...it was good in fact...cos the lecturer went thru a couple of qns which gave me a tad of confidence...then had me lesson...the usual fooling ard and chat n it being closer to weekend did make me feel a lil lighter...went home after the lesson then the usual eat sleep tv...

last friday : TGIF(not!)dun care...just gonna complain n grumble ...woke up early in the morning to send the car for service...the night b4 i had already planned my day...but so many unexpected events...becos the service center is very near my house so actually planned to punt on some more toto when i walk home but then my father called n say he will pick me up...so i thot ok lah dusen matter since i can buy later when i collect the car...then felt abit hungry but i wanna cut down on consumption so i tahan until lunch time..meanwhile i watched the ming xing ou xiang i taped n revised some esap...but b4 i cud complete them the service center call to say i can go n collect the car..duh...so many things not going according to the plan...after that completed the revision n then start on eREV...f lah...waste time...i guess i am always slow to realise things...while everyone was cursing n swearing at the system i was still pretty cool with it...but then i realised its not!...it took my whole noon n yet cannot complete...complete waste of time only......everyone was waiting for the toto...if only i were the winner...it would change my life.. i remember some time ago there was a personality test on 933...n my ans shows that i am very unsatisfied with my life now n cant wait for it to change for the better asap!...it din materialised...have to wait till next yr...was at coffeeshop with campmates then saw another grp of friends..a guy n a ger...so i joined them when my campmates left....i had actually wanted to ask that guy friend n a few other friends out on vday...no amorous feeling...but its becos we r the lonely souls...but then at the coffeeshop they(the guy n ger) decide to go out together on vday liao...so LL lah...

sat : spend all the time on notes n fantasy football n then watch soccer at night...

sun : suay sunday...hai my auntie came over...so its mj...i really din want to play liao...but then she came all the way so no choice lor...had to ying chou...n of cos i lost...felt tired after that n nua...my brother had a unusual game " si(4) an(4) ke(4)"...special hand...first time seeing it...really waste my night away also...i practically do nothing...

monday : my dad car's aircon spoilt so i had to take bus to school...hmm...so social issues to discuss...r we paranoid? r we prejudiced? r we biased?...well... a down syndrome boy sat beside me...thru out the journey he make the "phelgm sound"...in my mind i was really afraid he would spit at me...or talked to me or touch me or do anything to me...but well i can only keep cool n stayed at my seat...cos if i walked away wudnt i be showing discrimination?...luckily nothing happened....went to the library n settled my eREV asap...luckily some friends were there earlier so i had a comp to use...after that i went to attend a makeup esap lesson....felt so out of place... no familiar faces....instead of going home after that went to play pool with ben n jy again...lost all games...yeah i am damn lousy...then had a dinner then went home...rest awhile n then went to jog...kickstart my promise to resume my exercise regime

tuesday : worst day...begin the day with esap lesson...after that did ask ard pple for ktv but all not available...sigh...had 2 funny encounters in the toilet today...first one was i was in a cubicle then a guy came in to the toilet...i think he thinks there is nobody else was inside n he was singing at the top of his voice...well...wasnt pleasurable...2nd incident was i wanted to go n wash my hands...then i happned to cross path with another guy so we change direction n change direction...usually it only takes abt 2 or 3 times to get out of the way but this time it took 4...so we burst into laughters.....WK n gang r crazy...they came to my marketing class just to see the 2 pretty gers i mentioned...duh...i bet they r pissed...i made myself disappear after the lesson to avoid further embarassment...oh yah...anyway i wud like to apologize to hazel here...i hope i din offend her by replying a dissent reply to her msg.....but personally i just dislike this kind of "sms" which promotes friendship n blah blah in disguise of the vday...hope she is not offended...well..so at the end of the day i din do anything but coop myself in the house to stay away from all the lovebirds...

its been a long time...really a long time...