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hasnt really been feeling good this few days...dissonanced...imbalanced...things dusen seems to be acting consistently...

i shall reverse the order of my "diary" today...from the day i last blog...

thurday(24th) : hmm...looks like its harder to recollect this way...attended POA n ME as usual...then went home...

friday : stoned at home...read my esap readings...omg...they were like greeks to me man...i dun understand what i was reading...probably thats how my dissonance all started...then stayed at home to watch tv night lor...

saturday: spend most of the daytime settling my fantasy team n a tad of esap worksheets... later when to play pool with alvin n zhaoquan...they need more practice man...my favourite pool spot has reopened...but there were some unwelcome changes...firstly they r strict on slippers...n no more 8 feet table...after that we had dinner and went to an ah pek pub to watch soccer...

sunday : slept at 330am n woke up at 7am for the melrose charity walk...hmm...the companions were seem a bit unusual...with my cousins n a friend from sim...it was a good workout consider i haven engage in any exercise for a long time becos of my prolonged knee injury...after that we went to the mac at farrer road for breakfast...my virgin visit there despite passing by it so many times...wanted to went home n take a rest but instead played mj...its was unrightful, afterall i have a marketing test on the coming tues n i haven prepared for it yet...more woes to my dissonance...i am actually a bit particular here...but i dun like to play mj with changing players n myself or pple move abt...but one kuku friend of mine is totally capable of coming up with that stunt...set 2pm with him n he said ok...then he say he can only make it at 3plus...so bo bian lor...ask my father to stand in for him first...then say either my father win or lose its on him...aint he lucky man...my father made decent profits for him...then he came n took over my dad...on my 2nd round...my father was already deeply aroused to play...so he came in at xi feng n took over me...duh...so let him play lor...so i slept while they play...in the end won a bit for me..
dine out was next...argh...i am getting umcomfortable in my clothes...I AM PUTTING ON WEIGHT! DAMN!...dissonanced, imbalanced, unhappy....that night had 4 matches but i din watch any ...instead all 4 matches watched me sleeping on the sofa...i was that tired...

monday: studied for my test...miserable lah...i hate to memorize things...was feeling damn stupid to read thru them w/o memorizing but also feel damn stupid if i spent time n memorize them also...either way it makes me sian diao...stupid test...so spend the whole day doing this stupid thing...no wonder i am feeling unhappy...at night just watched tv...heck care liao....

tuesday, today,29th: happy birthday to tan chin yew....attended esap in the morning
*anything can be healed(maybe not, confused)...it just needs time n some adaptation*n marketing in the noon...the test was what i expected to be...i wasnt alone...many pple were taking it to be open book...stupid isnt it? all referring to notes...claimed by them as it may be...but i am sure they copied at least 80% from the notes...nonsense isnt it? i am not making myself noble also...i too looked ard n looked at the only qn that i prepared(it so happened to be one of the qn)...NONSENSE...after that was lesson as usual...feel so sorry for 2 of my friends...the admin conducted checks for pple who actually gatecrash..hmm....dunno how i shld addressed it also...the admin wasnt wrong...but my pple who were caught was injustified also...the admin was just carrying out their duties...whereas my friends just attended lesson cos they missed their earlier lessons...n the LT wasnt packed at all...there were still aplenty of seats...seen a more shocking event...i think a guy who wasnt from SIM atteneded the lesson n was reported to the police...omg...what an unlucky guy...hai...seriously i may have to crash lesson one day also...i hope it wont happen to me..

have to get rid of the disonance out of me asap....... :'(