liansoon

Surprise visit

2011-07-28T00:31:00.001+08:00

haa...a surprise visit to my old friend...

let's see how many peekples still remember you...

leave a comment if u r an old friend too :)

Regards
Lian Soon

Welcome 2 Taiwan:)

2009-11-10T23:32:00.000+08:00

www.fencepup.blogspot.com

out of office, 26/09/09 to 04/10/09 - part 2

2009-10-03T00:44:00.002+08:00

30/09/09
woke up early to have prata breakfast with hongsheng...its been a long time since we catch up with each other...seem to have more than chat than usual...haa... thought hard abt what i can do to fill up rest of the leaves...was reluctant to start on jia hao yue yuan cos i thot there was no mandarin dubbing... but there actually is! so watch n watch n watch...watch local channels at night too... EOD mobility 85%..

01/10/09
met WK, LL and JR for lunch...jas supposed to join as well, but she PANG SEI!!...went to bai bai at guan yin miao...then headed home and rest b4 revisit to town to have dinner with pri sch gang.. its been ages since everyone met up too.. the jap restaurant we went to at iluma has this new toy.. there is a pointer that we point at the menu to make our order...novelty..haa.. EOD mobility still 85%..

02/10/09
suddenly so hungry now...cos seeing chang he, n they r feasting on their catches from the sea.. okay back to today...usually its TGIF one..but today damn sian...cos monday going back to work liao...nothing much nothing new...chat with pple...ka jiao them from work... haa... had my brunch then continue txfbjhyy...din watch much today then went to nap... the show quite crazy leh...where for 20 year old still controlled by adults one...i mean to a certain extent ok la...but to be dragged, quite nonsense leh..crazy show...had dinner n games at mind cafe... went home after that...save money... mei you bb de di wu tian liao.... EOD mobility still at 85%...

out of office, 26/09/09 to 04/10/09

2009-09-30T00:49:00.002+08:00

26/09/09 (sat)
my poor foot was being tortured again...agony...stay at home to recuperate..missed my cousin's wedding.. what a spoilsport... watched a chn 5 telemovie, F1 and some soccer. had a DIY instant noodles...end of day...mobility 45%.

27/09/09 (sun)
went thru tw itinery with bb.. just a lil bit more to complete the itinery.. went to ppl's park complex to pay the balance of bb's shanghai tour.. n spent the last night with bb before she set off the next day.. EOD...mobility 55%

28/09/09 (mon)
had lunch with bb at northpoint b4 sending her to the airport... she needed her last popiah fix b4 she was can board her plane..haa...went home n nua. unexpectedly edwin ask me out for a game of snooker. played pool with him, supper and went home.. somehow has lesser to chat with him nowadays.. frequency also a bit off...came home n watch "chang he".. haa... i am rewatching these 2 dramas lately...shen diao n chang he... Z ah jie sings better than F ah jie...completed tang xin feng bao too...always feel lost after a drama... EOD mobility 70%

29/09/09
mei you bb around de 2nd day, fair. hehe.. imitate alfred and chang zai xin... haiya! frustrating... wanted to bring my folks to take flu vac jab end up brought myself frustration. tot now is the company flu vac exercise so bring them along end up to realise it only start 2 days later. better make sure there is vac available b4 i make another wasted trip. sorted out some old correspondences on the shelves and old clothes in the wardrobe. Will give some to edwin to try..actually quite paiseh cos some quite old n dirty liao...everytime i look at these clothes i quite scared...very worried what if i revert to what i was b4....must constantly remind myself...then met up with richard and had a long chat............ EOD mobility 83%..

30/09/09
coming soon...

h1n1

2009-06-05T20:38:00.002+08:00

is super irritatin
is sickening
grrr

vday + hongkong

2009-03-13T23:26:00.004+08:00

yo...wo hui lai le...

true in every sense, not just back from HK but also back to this blog space of my own.

haven been blogging for a while...n i admit the decision to blog is because bb has posted her entry on our hk holidays...hmm...rendezvous??haa..surey there was another reason y i am wanna blog cos it would be a great momento to keep n relive when i am old.. hopefully blogspot is still ard by then..hur hur...

N i am not supposed to read bb blog until i have posted my version.. so if i wanna read hers i got to blog first...

alrighty...the prelude to our rendezvous...oops...i mean honeymoon...ok...still not subtle enough.. holidays then... what a perfect timing to go on a holidays right after vday!

aiya...i thot it was the perfect smokescreen to tell bb just to wear what she would wear to Fosters. i thot it was well concealed cos she was harping abt going to there for hi tea n scones...so i thot i could just ride on it...haha...but...din seem as smart as i thot it will be...

i am so glad she liked my decision to buy the flowers although she told me not to...phew... but then...frankly how can i let my bb spend vday without a bouquet of her own...haa...i am glad she liked the collage too! hehe! i like the cupcakes, the muffins and the mugs very much too! thank you bb!

both of us din sleep a bit before the flight ..haa..ijust as we planned to concuss a while in the hotel after we touch down, the weather at macau was impermissible for the plane to touch down as a result we landed at shenzhen airport and had to spend 3 hours plus in the aircraft. as such, there was no time to waste n we had to go straight into action.

From macau, we took a ferry to zhuhai. Our first destination.

First place we explored after check in was the underground shopping mall..freaking big..but like bb concur with me...just have to cover probably half the mall will be enough cos the other half is selling the same things..haha...anyhow so we just walk, had some makan n bb did some shopping. I personally like the dessert shop in the mall..the steam milk and black sesame were pretty nice. went to hai xian jie for dinner upon melvin recommendation. abalone selling at a dollar each! however the way the dishes were prepared were too salty. before returning to the hotel we bought some mangosteens, bagus neh!

2nd day, we continued to explore the mall n bb did some grooming. then we made our way to hk. yuan lai bb cannot take ferry ride one cos she will seasick...better be nicer to me ah...if not i bring u shang chuang....haha...shang chuan i mean..

bb brought me to her fav shui jiao mian shop to eat. SLURP! weather there was quite chilly so i was yearning for more soup n bb requested for me. YEAH! haha..then we went to the escalator thing...gosh its really long de lor..guess it shld be treated as a convenience for the residence more than a tourist attraction! cos go up liao then how to come down?? few options only la...either walk down, roll down or take cab or other public transport. of cos we chose the first option. then bb brought me to a dessert shop famous for it durian pudding and puff...hmm...isit puff?..anyway i chose the pudding...not bad..but i still prefer to consume durian in its original form although down the years, the sensation from consuming durians has been diminishing...haa. then i think we went to flower street to shop. bb turned into a shopping queen...or i guess she already was. hur hur. somehow feeling detached cos i din wanna shop as i think my wardrobe is overloaded already so i walked ard with bb n see her shop...haha...dun be mistaken i am absolutely not complaining. so i just observe bb while she shop..haa...she is like so ren zhen and tao zui in her shopping world...haha... quite attractive...haha...ren zhen de nue ren......

next day...of cos eat again la...haa..hk...is all abt mai dong xi chi dong xi ma...next on our menu is DIM SUM! haha...its quite amazing how come we can eat so many varieties! n its super worthwhile. wu chao suo zhi. confirm. guarantee. after which we made our way to lantau island to see the big buddha. lucky the weather was nice. The last time i went with jas ml n des, it was pouring n we were all wet. then we went to wong tai xin to suan ming. shall not divulge cos tian ji bu ke xie lou...haha..more shopping at night..n more fruits at night b4 we ko ko ji...haa

next day... we went to sai kung to see the seafood market...hmm...some supersize fishes, prawns and shellfishes.. then sat at the benches enjoying the cool breeze with bb. nice. shop.eat..

last destination, macau.
first of all, went to taipa to eat crab poridgge.. normal only...the koi kee, ju xiang and feng cheng are everywhere la...haha...i thot there was no diff too...but bb asked an intelligient qn...n cant agree more that its true. the diff lies in the chefs thats all...haha...then we went to the venetian. din realised until bb mentioned it looks like Genting...but its much bigger n newer and sophisticated. Under melvin strong recommendation, we went to fisherman wharf. Already been there the last time i was there...haha...quite a big gap from what bb expected to be..

before we left...we had bamboo noodles, pork bun, egg tart, a taiwan pastry and then st paul's ruin b4 we leave for sunnyland.

overall a very pleasant holidays. especially cos its spent with bb n its my long break b4 siti returns from maternity leave.

alrighty! i can go n read bb's blog liao...

Regards
Lian Soon

Their milestones

2009-02-07T02:34:00.003+08:00

met on the 7th of aug 08.

the guy made the confession after 2 months.

they got together after another 3 months.

they are blissfully together for 3 weeks and counting.

:)

会呼吸的痛

2008-12-06T23:52:00.002+08:00

在东京铁塔　第一次眺望

看灯火模仿　坠落的星光

我终於到达　但却更悲伤

一个人完成　我们的梦想

你总说　时间还很多　你可以等我

以前我不懂得　未必明天　就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛　它活在我身上所有角落

哼你爱的歌会痛　看你的信会痛　连沈默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛　它流在血液中来回滚动

后悔不贴心会痛　恨不懂你会痛　想见不能见最痛

没看你脸上　张扬过哀伤

那是种多么　寂寞的倔强

你拆了城墙　让我去流浪

在原地等我　把自己捆绑

你没说　你也会软弱　需要依赖我

我就装不晓得　自由移动　自我地过

我发誓不再说谎了　多爱你就会抱你多紧的

我的微笑都假了　灵魂像飘浮著　你在就好了

我发誓不让你等候　陪你做想做的无论什么

我越来越像贝壳　怕心被人触碰　

你回来那就好了能重来那就好了

爱笑的眼睛

2008-12-06T23:44:00.003+08:00

如果不是那镜子

不像你不藏秘密

我还不肯相信

没有你我的笑更美丽

那天听你在电话里略带抱歉的关心

我嘟的一声切的比你说分手彻底

泪湿的衣洗干净阳光里晒干回忆

折好了伤心明天只和快乐出去

这爱的城市虽然拥挤

如果真的遇见你

你不必讶异

我的笑她无法代替

离开你我才发现自己

那爱笑的眼睛

流过泪像躲不过的暴风雨

淋湿的昨天删去(忘记)

离开你我才找回自己那爱笑的眼睛

再见爱情我一定让自己让自己决定

泪湿的衣洗干净阳光里晒干回忆

折好了伤心明天只和快乐出去

这爱的城市虽然拥挤

如果真的遇见你

你不必讶异我的笑她无法代替

离开你我才发现自己那爱笑的眼睛

流了泪当一个人看旧电影

是我不小心而已

离开你我才找回我自己

那爱笑的眼睛再见到你

我一定让自己让自己坚定

离开你我才发现自己那爱笑的眼睛

流过泪像躲不过的暴风雨淋湿的昨天忘记

离开你我才找回自己那爱笑的眼睛

再见爱情

我一定让自己

让自己坚定

再见到你我一定让自己假装很坚定

眼泪笑了

2008-12-06T23:33:00.002+08:00

比想象中更痛你真的没回头

我命令眼泪不许失控

回忆不跟你走都挤在我心中

我就有责任让它值得被珍重

谢谢你曾让我难过谢谢我没有想太多

当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了谁还想哭呢

再勇敢的站着找回光和热

面对你的时候我不会舍不得

因为你已是过客因为路有些曲折是美的

心碎成了沙漠就快开凿绿洲

我没有时间不知所措

你温柔的双手本就不属于我

又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢

谢谢你曾让我难过

谢谢我没有想太多

当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了谁还想哭呢

再勇敢的站着找回光和热

面对你的时候我不会舍不得

因为你已是过客因为路有些曲折

你眼泪都笑了谁还会哭呢

来不及完美的就唱首骊歌

想起你的时候我不是卑微的

反而我没有遗憾因为我已爱过你

深深的

batam

2008-11-24T10:40:00.001+08:00

http://odinchoy.livejournal.com/

Pls click on it to see my batam adventure.

Many thanks to odinchoy for this contribution.

Regards
Lian Soon

fighting to live another day.

2008-11-09T23:57:00.001+08:00

too tired to fight another day.

i am bushed.

i am exhausted.

i am being trounced.

domino

2008-11-01T12:02:00.001+08:00

every piece is falling down one by one.

so much

2008-10-30T00:31:00.002+08:00

so much to say i think i can go on n on n on...

i think i am mistaken. actions speak louder than words. i think my actions really speaks much more since i talk lesser.

so much so i think i am being mistaken when i din mean as much.

2008-10-29T00:57:00.002+08:00

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2 books. 2 drinks

2008-10-24T10:20:00.001+08:00

darcy and lizzy : sweet
landon and jamie : sweet bitter

stella : bitter
peach sake : sweet bitter

great depression

2008-10-12T03:05:00.001+08:00

again.

one year anniversary

2008-10-09T12:22:00.000+08:00

yday marks the first year of my working life.

strange encounter..

2008-10-09T01:25:00.002+08:00

was on the way home on the mrt...

quite packed..

after khatib mrt, most of the pedestrians had left the cabin..

then i saw an old man standing..

poor thing, i think he has been standing for some time already...some really idiot sporeans...

but i also never gave up my seat to him, firstly i am sure there will be seats once we reach yishun, 2ndly i myself is having a sick knee, 3rdly damn stoned.. lastly...i dun really like to walk a distance to give my seats cos they may get seated by someone else n i will embarrassed the other person who shld but did not give up his seat. but given all the points above not established, i would still give up my seat to someone who is in need even if i have to walk a distance.

anyway, somehow we saw each other...

then suddenly he walked towards me...

i was a bit shocked...

he told me he lost his way...

he thot he took the wrong direction...

firstly i gave him my seat then ask him where he is going...

i couldnt hear him properly really...

but i think he say he board the train at braddell n is going towards jurong east...

nothing wrong in my sense but he says he usually take the other way...

which seems to be further i think...

but he kept saying this is not the usual way n he is lost...

so i just tell him this way will reach jurong east too

however he still seem worried..

so i just stoodby him n kept talking to him n tell him this way he could reach jurong east too...

slowly he became more relaxed...

and he say he wont dare to go out at night anymore with a smile on his face...

that feeling was good...

someone trusted me n was grateful...

i wonder he chose to ask me by choice or by chance......................

dont get it..

2008-10-05T02:49:00.000+08:00

i dun get it..

poisoned...

2008-09-26T12:04:00.001+08:00

i am being poisoned. grrr

empty

2008-08-16T02:05:00.001+08:00

this entry is abt emptiness....

once again...

2008-07-08T00:24:00.003+08:00

pls see odinchoy bblog for my gold coast adventure

http://odinchoy.livejournal.com/

regards
LS

who invented to end email with regards....hmmmm...

test

2008-07-08T00:24:00.001+08:00

test

aussie

2008-06-26T01:32:00.002+08:00

happy holiday!

2008-06-26T01:30:00.000+08:00

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2008-03-21T03:01:00.001+08:00

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start stop continue part 2

2008-03-16T03:06:00.002+08:00

START ● Start to de-stress by taking time-off. ● Start to be more vocal during briefings. ● Start interacting more with staff. ● Start to be more decisive. ● Start to be more firm when handling external customers. ● Start praising staff for their efforts.

STOP ● Stop being too shy.

CONTINUE ● Continue smiling and being cheerful. ● Continue to be helpful and work hard to be an outstanding officer. ● Continue to be patient and humble.

suddenly

2008-03-05T23:14:00.002+08:00

banished to hell.............

for the first time i drove to work yesterday....all for 30 mins more of sleep...n it cost me dearly..
look on the bright side...at least i managed to reach office in time...

anyway what i wanted to share was some views of me from my colleagues.
following our performance appraisal lately....we have this start stop continue thingy...

Start:
1. Start to be more enthusiastic in monitoring staff performances and give appropriate recognitions.
2. Start to be more aggressive and daring towards external counterparties, especially in times needed to support the actions of the staff, such as requesting for waiver of error committed.
3. Start to learn the entire working process, especially RLBX (from top to bottom), so as to be fully equipped with relevant skills to handle the team better.
4. Start to be more resourceful, especially during problem solving.
5. Start to motivate the morals of the staff.
6. Start to be more vocal, especially during briefing.
7. Start to be more decisive and demonstrate high level of confidence.
8. Start to reward staff more generously, take initiative to find opportunity to award stars for star card for and extra mile performed by the staff. (ie: help out in SVS, VR for clearing ops, etc)
9. Start to praise staff more often. (May adopt the strategy of 5 praises to 1 negative feedback)
10. Start to build rapport with staff.

Continue:
1. Continue to be caring and sensitive to subordinates.
2. Continue to put yourself in the shoes of the subordinates.
3. Continue to be patient, humble, friendly and sweet.
4. Continue to be a good role model to all the staff.
5. Continue to give support and fight for subordinates’ rights.

Stop:
1. Stop being too quiet.
2. Stop being indecisive.

some of them made me felt good...but some made me felt bad...haha..

any comments anyone?...

tmw

2008-03-03T23:25:00.001+08:00

gonna post something interesting tmw...watch out...
haha...

today was damn busy....first few days of the month always like that..

sleep time...

feels like singing...

2008-03-02T18:02:00.000+08:00

suddenly...feel like going ktv....

blue..

2008-03-02T17:48:00.001+08:00

it has been raining these few days...blue...

back to back

2008-02-25T00:15:00.002+08:00

hardly any back to back post from me..

started the day with brunch at noble house...advance celebration for my father bday... following a tiring mj...pretty much mj fatigue...end up on the losing end today...

a new stage in life brings about lots of changes made n to be made....

change change change...everyone talking abt change...obama talking abt change...my dept svp talking abt change...i also wanna make some announcements abt change!

haha!

Regards
Lian Soon

....

2008-02-24T02:42:00.002+08:00

no idea what to put as my title..

seems like quite some time since i last blog...so many events over this period...notably the cny...
n it felt like its gone in a swift..

with an engineering mind, i am thinking of how to put everything together...ha...

worked as usual today n then dinner and a game of mj instead of ktv....luck was on my side today...i managed to win a "shi san yao"..

myself n colleagues have been really unfocused lately and made repeated mistake...that sucks big time...it makes everyone tense and demoralised the whole team. but there is really no answer to how it can happen cos its all the same processing, which means everyone knows what to do just that we commited human errors. wonder what is distracting the whole team. isit the festive season or change of management , increased workload? absolutely no answer...guess everyone just have to stay focus and be very careful.

attended an induction course on thur n fri, it was good. now i am clearer what my dept is as whole n know pple from diff sections and a good time to get myself away from work to refresh myself. despite learning abt the whole overview of the dept, there were also other off the work lessons which is valuable in life...

worked 2 full shifts on mon n tue...n gosh...maybe i was overwhelmed n got distracted from work...apart from that...i guess i had something else on my mind as welll....

cny....hmm...cny is abt bai nian, get ang bao, eat goodies, catch up with one and other, movies, gambling..

the only movie i watched was ah long...after watching then i realised it quite a far cry from what the papers were saying...it did not glamourize ah long....in fact there were 2 things the show wanna put across...firstly, everyone shld really think twice b4 borrowing from ah long and 2ndly ah long shld really curb their behaviours...
steamboat and lo hei at audrey's place..thanks for the arrangement and the lo hei from sakae was really worthwhile...

interestingly, i arranged for my friends from SIM to my place. haven done that for quite a long time..zhao dai bu zhou ah, qing duo yuan liang...haha... n my sis end up the biggest winner...anyway its really hard playing the host i feel...haha...cos its like quite hard to gel the guest together...

took a one day off from work. won the day off in a lucky draw...not sure if it the only lucky draw i win in my life...haha...end up with 2 mj sessions...haha..i thot my friend's skin was quite thick in this instance...he asked me to pick him then go to another friend's place for mj...omg.....it wasnt really on the way...but since he asked, it was quite hard to turn him down also...but the return trip i turn him down..i dropped him near my place n he took a cab back himself...that look bad on me lor... but i was really tired n i think it shld be safer that way (an excuse probably, hehe)

vday.....ask me n perhaps u will be told...haha...

i had to go back to work on chu 3 (big boo!) super turn off but no choice..super boring mj...haha... cos new player then the speed was really slow..rush home to take a shower then go elinor place n blackjack...i am so sorry i gave the steamboat a miss. the soup was thumbs up, thanks ah. personally mr prata is not my choice for prata...cos its not cosy...sit inside too warm..sit outside too dirty..

chu 2..went to wee kiat to exchange oranges...haha...its always only see him once a year...then went to relative's place as usual...gamble makan then my sis brought us to hilton hotel to eat cheesecake...oishi...but usually i will only a bite or 2 from these sinful food..

chu 1 is always wait at home for visitors...not much changes over the past yr...except one of my uncle is no longer with us...hai...its really sad that he couldnt make it till the new year...but he will always remain in our hearts. one of the uncle i admire most. cos he worked really hard to what he was and he has no airs.

attended my uncle's wake after everyday's work...just wondering y so many pple like to gossip n discuss abt religion...

worked almost the full day on cny eve...it was quite fun with all the celebrations ard in the office, probably some deity saved us in the nick of time...if not gonna in deep shit..had reunion dinner n blackjack n mj....was trying to make something happen....

happy birthday to xiaolan baby...hope i din annoy u that day...

happy birthdays to the jan n feb babies...mj...jas...serenes (so qiao, 2 serene in the office with the same birthdate)...daniel...alex...xueli...marcus n daddy...haha

oh yah...now i remember something quite significant ...it was the TPM...gosh...its really a new experience...to be appraiser n appraisee...as it is...i dislike judging pple and give comments as to how a person shld change n behave...actually quite uninterested in it but still have to do it as it translates into what bonus will each get.. its abt proving oneself...gong lao n ku lao...another enlightenment of another mostly used quotes from tv shows..."mei you gong lao, ye you ku lao"...

k...tired to pen further..ciaoz for now.

frustrated!

2008-01-15T23:44:00.000+08:00

with so many things.

my laptop is not under my control...argh...just now i really dunno y there was no sound, then i merely restart it then got sound liao...

occasionally i have problems with IE too...damn it..

i find relationships with colleagues is so delicate...really must handle with care...
upwards...if i slack a bit i am worried my boss will be unimpressed with me...if i repeatedly make mistakes, it seems unpardonable...if i perform, maybe its what i should be doing, if i joke with her, maybe she/others will think i am currying favour...

downwards...if i am too strict with them, they r not gonna like me n working r/s will be strained..if i am too lenient, lots of errors will surfaced...if u asked too much, they will find u bothersome, ask too lil...they will slack...

gosh...what a hard day at work...

ren nan zhuo
zhuo ren nan
nan zhuo ren

i think i may see myself on youtube very soon, cos i got an ugly sleeping posture on the train...i am aware of it but its really the most comfortable posture...i am sleeping like a log on the train lately...

time for bed..must be very vigilant at work tmw...going for zero defects!

happy new year..

2008-01-12T15:24:00.000+08:00

and a belated merry xmas...ha... a lil late for all the wishings...well...din expect myself to be so busy n lazy to blog....

well...a lot of things on my mind which i wanna blog...let see what are the more significant things i can recall..

yday should have been a good day at work...but i made a mistake..not a big issue cos it was very easy to resolve but i am pretty frustrated with the treatment i get ...n its from our contractor.. apparently i made some IT mistake, so i called up the IT support whom we engaged. i admit its my fault la..cos its a repeated mistake but its also not what i wanted what...i apologized but he still not happy..kns...still say if the same mistake happen again he will not come...wth...we r the customer lor..to put it more bluntly...they could have improved their systems to automate it or prevent me from making the same mistake as the end user...grrr...spoil my mood... to add on more grievances..damn disappointed...does it takes a lot to reply? i dun mind late replies...esp when i already give a lot of buffer time to reply...but what is the meaning of not replying , does it takes a lot to reply...its quite basic manners leh...beh kia lang du lan...but anyway after a while i also realise its not worth dulaning la...dun reply then dun reply lor...just take it as nil/negative return...

nothing much on thursday...but i broke my egg...i gotten the first error log ... but isnt that work all abt...where got error free one...ha...got error means got do work...wahaha...

i kind of miss RT...cos it kept me fitter/leaner ... my pants are getting tighter...argh...so i am making myself to do some exercise now everyday..but its really quite insignificant to RT... had a simple dinner with WK n hazel...hazel just changed job...i am wondering if i will be changing job soon...some of the push factors...my office is gonna move soon..and further away from home.. doing the same thing every day is monotonous...pretty queer but i do feel that by doing a new job could reset me...as in let me know what r the things to look out for as a new joiner in any company...on the other hand...i do like to stay on...but i will wanna be transfer to other dept n of cos vertical movements as well...lets see how my career path will be..

usual tues n mon ...

sunday mj with mk cz n hy...pretty long time never did that n had curry fishhead at sembawang

a super boring sat...i suddenly felt like doing sales...sell cars or property...to make more money...still considering that possibility...i was thinking if i shld ask my boss if it will be allowable in the company rules...but i was thinking if it does...she will not be happy too...n may just give me more work.. had dinner with shunhao at sunset way...wow...expensive dining at hdb...n i got a summon...damn...adds cost the dinner...haha...anyway its not really a nice place...guess i will just go one more time to try the bbq n steamboat n not returning anymore unless its good..ha.. or bring newbies there..then went to EB ...nice chat with the fellas...lots of catch up after haven seen them for such a long time...congrats to sh who is tying the knots soon...quite interesting to hear abt those "grown-ups" things..hahaha..

check out the loof on friday night...disappointed...in my opinions...they squander quite a good place ba..n the biggest mistake is its uncomfortable seating...we met there to exchange present...i bought a levis polo tee for steph n i got a timberland t-shirt from elinor..haha...like a bit big leh...haha...dunno if i wish to fit into it or not...haha...can fit then not wasted...but if can fit means i am putting on more weight...i think not fit into it better ba...alvin got a pair of gloves from huini and elinor got an esprit bag from alvin...the gloves dusen come cheap cos derrick got a summon for it...summon curse....

oh yah...an issue abt service for the whole week...had been really dismal at the service level lor...need more power to revamp the situation...

new year eve was quite a bang..had lots of fun with friends at ktv...think what i remember most was when baoshan knocked down his mug , n instead of being apologetic, everyone just goes on to shout "happy new year!!" haha...although something quite sad happened to a friend, hopefully a new year would mean a new life to her as well....

the end n beginning of the year is the busiest time at work...volumes were exceptional which probably resulted in my error mentioned earlier..

xmas parties this yr...had a few gifts exchanged...
with the "simers"..i got a piggybank from jas n mj got my towel as a gifts...wk got a lamp from david and david got "something" from ml...cos at that time ml haven buy so i dunno what isit...jas got a noise making coin bank from mj...ml got a diary from wk...did the exchanged at st james...hha...7ppl ordering 2 drinks..no wonder the waiter also du lan...

with the "polymers" i got a pair of parker pen n pencil from richard and richard got a thumb drive from connie..audrey got a thumb drive from agnes and agnes get what ah...haha..cindy got a mug from audrey...simon got a mng diary from roy, roy got my toiletry bag..mike got a massage thing from simon...dunno who get what also liao..haha...

with the..assorted(edwin n jy)..haha... i gave a thumb drive to jy n got a wallet from edwin...edwin got a singha shirt from me... i think korean cuisine is normal to me...dusen wow me...

anyway think it will take extraodinary effort to recall other happenings...

Lastly, hopefully all things will be like my name...heng lian soon (lucky plus smooth-sailing)...

as promised...

2007-12-17T00:18:00.000+08:00

my bkk trip!

http://odinchoy.livejournal.com/

enjoy....r u ready to enter?...haha kns...

spend some time with myself...

2007-12-16T03:17:00.000+08:00

thats what i told ml just before i started on this blog....

it was like words really from the bottom of my heart...tsk tsk...can feel a gush of emotions when i said that...

day time was too noisy and dusen have the luxury of staying up late on weekdays to enjoy a quiet night and spend some time with myself...

its the last month of the year again...cant help but keep thinking what has been "processed" for the whole yr...the good ones, the bad ones and the neutral....the sighs and yeahs....

some updates on what have been covered for half of dec...

the month started with some stress at work cos been tasked to do some monthly in the absence of my boss...

completed part of my wishlist..i bought myself a laptop! hehe...

down put down everything at work n went for a holidays in bkk...when pple asked me how was the hols, i think it pales in comparison to the other places i have went... let me analyse what could be the reason. i reckon its there are not many places to sightsee or play...which is what i usually look for when i go on hols....kan dong xi, chi dong xi then mai dong xi...we r like going to the same places every day...the shopping malls...but overall its still quite good ... lots of funs n laughters...6ppl squeezing in one tutu or taxi...thot it was a mission impossible...but it was possible....n enjoying some nice foods...anyway just waait for jack to put up the pics on his blog then paste the link here...hehe

hmm...coming to something on a verbal constipation...

alright...let see what r the things coming up...

maybe meet edwin/jy on wed night since thur is a holidays n i haven met them for a really long time...

then meeting poly friends for dinner n gift exchange on thur...hai...really like no time to buy present...today could have been a good day to shop...but kind of bad time management...haha.. i have got some vouchers anyway...shld i just use it as xmas gift...keke..

meet jas et al on friday...another gift exchange but again...like no time...hahaha....so for those going n reading this blog....can try making a guess what i am going to get haha...

seems like something is on sat...but seems lke nothing is on also...more n more things to rem...but memory space is getting lesser....

hmm....alright...batt warning sign is up....time to end...

procrastinate....

2007-11-26T23:41:00.000+08:00

i wanted to blog...but i keep procrastinating day by day...

2 agendas as i plan what i should blog abt....
things i handled wrongly...
wishlist!

i dunno how i shld start...haha..
last sat my boss asked me if i wanna clear my time off by coming to work at a later time...then i replied her.. "hmm...u r the boss!..haha" she seemed to be a lil taken aback...then i carried on to say...anything...if the workload is ok for her to do alone then i will come in later...lesson learnt?... speak with more caution ...esp to ur boss...haha

a friend asked me for mj a few times this few weeks...due to genuine reason that i am not free...i turned him down...then this time he sms me on wed to book me for mj on sat...i had no appts... but i still turn him down...dunno isit i diao qi lai...or i dowan to play mj over sat n sun...or any other reasons...then he says i dun give him face...then i feel bad...couple of times i wanted to ask him if the mj is still on...but i decided not to...since i already made my standy...i shall standby that...dunno of any lesson learnt...

i realised i hate to be told of the things to do or not to do when i know i am in full control... n i am unable to hide that emotions...haha...
i am annoyed when my father tells me to drive carefully...i feel its so redundant cos i think i am reponsible/cautious driver.
a staff called to tell me he is unable to make it to work...after assessing the strength...i reckon its not too much of an issue...then an old-timer was like kind of telling me...i shldnt just allowed like that...must assess then allow...then i thot...wasnt that what i do already...weirdly...think my expressions showed that...then she apologize to me...cos i think she thinks i am thinking that she is "yi xia fan shang" n being a kaypo...haha...oops...i felt quite embarrassed...lesson learnt? i must control my emotions n not let it make known...haha..

a new addition to my mistake list...order size M for my standchart singlet...shit!haha..

my wishlist is very long this yr...haha
laptop
thumb drive
wallet
sandals
jacky tics
jay tics
cant think now...will add when it comes to my mind..

cant believe it took me so long to write this shit!

happy deepavali n birthday to my sister!

2007-11-08T03:58:00.000+08:00

yea...tmw no need to work...today can "dawn"...haha... this popular word was used in sec sch... it was so cool to stay out the whole night then...

i am so glad my legs r so much better now...but i know it will not last... i dunno when will it come n haunt me again.. lately i will say my mood have been badly affected by it...24/7 of discomfort...

turned down everything to stay at home n rest the legs over the weekends...the hours of work on sat has accumulated a few good hrs of time off...allowing me to start work at 1pm from monday till wed...

monday n tues....work work work n then late dinners with some friends...if they din ask me i think i would have just settled for some milo n biscuits or some instant noodles...

tonight was more happening...kind of have 2 outings after work... met up with the first grp at marina sq to have my late dinner again n some catching up...n then rooftop at neil road to chill...
heard a pretty funny joke today...got standard...

some reflections...
my friends gave me 2 reasons for working late...firstly...the company is understaffed..
2ndly...personal inefficiency...hmm...i pondered....so they r denying there the existence of workaholic?or other exceptional reasons?

on the same night...i realised a change in me...something i dunno if its good or bad...i became serious?...the joker(there has to be a more appropriate word, pardon my vocab) in me vanished.. my friend were just kidding...but i reacted defensively to it...i dislike defensive pple n i am guilty of it myself...

hmm...any diff btn explaining n defending?...haha...cos i think i need to explain myself for being misunderstood lately...by the same person...hahaha....this is like some verbal war ...

my speed in replying to sms...depends on urgency and importance and maybe other factors... so my reason for not replying immediately...cos the matter wasnt urgent so i usually put it off till i am free or when its really deadline to reply...whats more...i already reply you on msn already mah....

now its where the other factors i mentioned comes in...as mentioned earlier...my stupid leg is making me very fan...so if the msg is really not impt...i may not even bother to reply..but i did reply to apologize after my leg got better n less moody...

just now was the more ridiculous one...i was plainly joking n i dinno she will take it so seriously...what karma whatever...hmm...dun be so ren zhen la...come what may... y make it so tense for a simple gathering...but anyway...chill la...relax... continue to arrange gathering...keep it up...

work is going to be tougher cos i am most likely going to run some shows alone with the departure of my colleague...think its going to be quite revolutionary cos he is an old bird in my dept...probably the most iconic person in my dept for the right n wrong reasons...some sort of a policeman...he is able to catch "thieves"...partly explains why he is not so well liked...the other part owed it to his personality..

oh well...time to sleep....

resigned....

2007-11-02T10:35:00.000+08:00

to fate.

a really really bad week.

i want a new pair of legs. a pair of good legs. finally took MC after limping painfully for 2 weeks. i really need them to recover over the weekend. i think i am leaving a very bad impression on my boss...hai... is it really fate? things might have been less problematic if my colleague has not resigned. becos of his resignation, my dept is becoming shorthanded n my boss is expecting me to learn as much as fast as possible n take over his duties...but right now 2 issues has make me look bad.

first issue is abt my leaves. to a certain extent i regret booking my bkk holidays too early. emails n calls have been made to colleagues n boss to work out a feasible schedule for me to take my leave. felt so imposing.although my boss has allowed but i still think its a bad time to go on holidays since at the moment we r shorthanded.

2nd issue is this pair of sickening legs la...i am in such a sorry state..shortening the already limited time i have left to learn things at work.i think i made a terrible mistake by visiting the TCM.i totally mishandled it la if not my legs may not be in such a bad shape.yday was hell. damn pain even to limp. decided to see a doc from work.had to ask my parents to make their way to the clinic to bring me slippers n some wet cloth n tissues to wipe the chinese herbs thats bandaged on my ankle.feel so paiseh to make 2 old folks wait on me.

just now when i called my boss to inform her of my MC, somehow feel that she is quite..hmm.. not unhappy..but thinks that she feels that i am very troublesome. adding woes to her worries.firstly leave matters then now MC..hai..

shen ah jiu jiu wo ba..

way back into love

2007-10-28T04:43:00.000+08:00

[Verse 1](Drew Barrymore)I've been living with a shadow overhead, I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed, I've been lonely for so long, Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on!

(Hugh Grant)I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away, Just in case I ever need them again someday, I've been setting aside time, To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

[Chorus](Both)All I want to do is find a way back into love. I can't make it through without a way back into love.Oooooh.

[Verse 2](Drew Barrymore)I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine, I've been searching but i just don't see the signs, I know that it's out there,There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

(Hugh Grant)I've been looking for someone to shed some light, Not somebody just to get me through the night, I could use some direction, And I'm open to your suggestions.

[Chorus](Both)All I want to do is find a way back into love. I can't make it through without a way back into love. And if I open my heart again, I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end! Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.

[Middle-eight](Drew Barrymore)There are moments when I don't know if it's real Or if anybody feels the way I feel I need inspiration Not just another negotiation

[Chorus](Both)All I want to do is find a way back into love, I can't make it through without a way back into love, And if I open my heart to you, I'm hoping you'll show me what to do, And if you help me to start again, You know that I'll be there for you in the end!Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.

still so much to say...

2007-10-28T03:17:00.000+08:00

hello everyone.....haha as if i have a lot of readers...

its the weekend again... it seems only on weekends i and many other pple truly have time for themselves...to ponder...so pamper ourselves and etc... weekdays are pretty standard...go to work...come home n relac n sleep early n then back to work the next day...weekends seems short but it felt long....now i know y....

some random updates on what i have done during this hiatus...hehe...learned this word some time ago but its ages since i used it...

just for fun...do u guys know i always open 2 windows when i blog...one is this template...the other one is my previous post...to carry on with where i ended for continuity....wonder if fellow bloggers out there does that...do u?

settled my squad early today n got some rest at home...after which i went o maju camp to endorse my MC to be excused for RT...n incidentally it has ended cos i am left with 2 sessions which i can default. i think from now on...whenever i think of maju camp, i will think of the PTI who got into an accident and passed away...although we were only acquaintance but i felt sorry for him n his family. how sad, such a promising young lad. perhaps i and most pple shld take it from there n treasure life. n then i went to a bday chalet, an ex-colleague from IRAS.

friday is a powerful day. it can make pple happy. everyone just seems to be willing to put on a smile. work was harder than usual cos i had to run the show on my own...n sorry to say...i just gave myself a grade of 30% operational ready. most of the calls i got i dun really know how to handle them n i had to refer to my colleagues. i had to handle one situation though, pretty clueless i dinno what i am supposed to do so i needed my staff to explain to me what was going on, apparently she seems quite unwilling which i assume it was becos the matter was quite handy cos time was not on our side, the matter was pretty straightforward n more importantly cos she had to repeat it again to me. in the nick of time, i made a decision without confirmation from the other party but i think was viable n i dun feel guilty of that decision cos i made what i think was in my sense the logical/sensible/rational decision. then came another headache, previously i managed to obtain leave from my manager but now cos one of my colleagues is leaving, my bkk holidays in dec seems to be in jeopardy, argh.. seems to be so many things i have to be very meticulous to avoid making silly mistakes at work. ktv in the night was shiok, managed to let off some steam. really didnt mind sending my friends back however i applaud them for being understanding n making rational decisions. if i were in their shoes i would have done the same.

usual day at work. finally give in to the discomfort and pain on my left ankle n see a sinseh. have been limping ard the past few days. makes me look so pathetic.

cant recall already...but shld be the usual weekday routine. lets talk abt last weekend then.

RT in the morning. mj in the noon. nua. boring sunday.
RT. villa bali.

no luck on the mj table lately. has suffered substantial losses. badly need to recoup. hehe

met hazel,jas,wk for dinner after work. spending more generously on food n life. overdrafting, time to watch my expenses. we had dinner at waraku n then chill at paulaner. persistent/perserverance.. as seen..its a thin line. i always rem this. gu zhi n jian chi difference. when u fail, pple say u r gu zhi. when u succeed, pple say u jian chi.

as usual, the weekly routine so skip to last last weekend.

RT in the morning. mj. nua. haha...i din ctrl c + ctrl v
RT. steamboat at geylang. 2nd steamboat in 2 weeks. km8
a very emo weekend
finally went to dragonfly. more fulfilling to go ktv n sing

end of tape. feels like typing a report.

lets quote some of the nicks n phrases as seen on msn nicks n blogs
1) at first i thot the nick was like this "the only thing we never get enough of is love n the only thing we never get enough is love" but the nick is actually "the only thing we never get enough of is love and the only thing we never GIVE enough of is love"
2) smallest action is greater than the biggest intention.

twinkle. tinker.

do feel aimless now. maybe i need goals. SMART?bold?capable?

*Pondering for the past 5 mins*

time to sleep.

so much to say

2007-10-16T22:24:00.000+08:00

but i dunno where to start.

Orientation @ HSBC

2007-10-08T22:08:00.000+08:00

Had a good night sleep earlier and all ready to go to work today! haha...indeed i was...abt 40 mins early...kiasu...haah...so went to the mac n read papers...

orientation was quite the normal...met colleagues from diff dept....the presenter goes thru some slides n some ice-breaker... the presenter instilled confidence into us which i think was good.. it kind of made me proactive n socialable...haha...i took the initiative to talk to pple...n by chance i even made an short presentation...

a wet afternoon...lucky the unsheltered path wasnt too long...but still a bit drenched...i feel like an alien in the new office... new environment n new faces....was introduced to abt 15 pple...but i think i rem only abt 5 names...die..haha...then a very embarrassing thing la...had this online learning module which i took 4 tries to pass.....WTH....i think i was too conceited thats y.....after i fail the first time i thot i shldnt have prob passing the 2nd time...n indeed i did better than the 1st try but still fail...so i thot a third try surely pass liao...but fail aagain...DUH...din want to fail the 4th time...i went thru the notes again...luckily passed this time....phew...then spend rest of time to read thru some contract...n that abt ends my first day at work liao...

omg....hey!gorgeous is......

tmw working on an early shift...but also ends early...haha...good nite world
may tmw be better!

few days...

2007-10-05T18:14:00.000+08:00

few days ago and a few days to go...

its been so long since i blog in the afternoon...driven by boredom, anxiety and etc....

as usual...read from behind

time is slowing a bit down today...slow down by a lot i would say...the past few days were action-packed!

its been a really boring day so far...watch evans almighty...read up HSBC history n heritage... meeting a few friends for dinner later...hopefully it will brighten up the day or perhaps night a lil...

yday was a really really enjoyable day...but it explains y its so dull today...cos today really pales in comparison. lunched at sushi tei...i am starting to like jap food...the "healther choice"... and then we caught the nannies diary at amk hub....we took the "special transformer seats"...hehe... i enjoyed the settings more than the show...hahaha... n then went to the "ten dollars ktv club" to sing...its good shit man...seriously....anytime much more value than partyworld/kbox...a small cosy room which we can set the temp ourselves, free flow of drinks, songs n systems were good...n a bowl of "sharksfin soup"...haha...i can sing there till the last song available for me to sing...extended the time with supper...haha.....there were much more details i left out...ha...

went to sch n caught hold of mr nageb to be my referee...it seems quite weird.... he dunno who i am...he din talked much n then just agreed to be my referee.... dong gua tang suddenly becomes so hard to get...went to 4 medicinal n all sold out...cant believe it...any signs beckoning? RT ippt was just a formality...zouk out after that....which is a ONS for me as usual la..i miss drinking...haha... some ugly scenes there tough...kns...

1st attempt to get hold of nageb...failed.... went back to office to return some documents and nothing much...suppered with some friends at bedok 85... wish speedy recovery to ben's dad

went back to IRAS to return my pass n tender resignatiion...nice time working there...made new friends...learned new things...n i think the exp has been good...strongly recommend anyone looking for temp job can work there.... YES! signed!! all signed!!! got the job!!!! surprising met a friend there too who was working at the HR dept...did a medical check up, played pool and a night long chat...i realised how it can make me happy...

a few more days to go n i have to embark on another journey...i wonder how the future will be.... on one hand i am ready to move on...on the other, i am reluctant to give up the present lifestyle... uncertainty is not always delightfully surprising....its making me anxious...

aiya...heck for now...i shall just go n enjoy my night out..
till next time folks...

random updates...

2007-10-01T01:04:00.000+08:00

past 10 days...PS..can start reading from the last para...haha...then clearer picture...

accomplished 2 things today...finished watching my xue jing chu geng dvd...most pple like to listen to the original canto version but i prefer the chinese one...cos i think i can fully understand the show....but ok la...still managed to understand most of the show...nice show...if only....the first series i had to hold back my tears...but this time it was ok...shld be becos of the language ba...2nd thing i accomplish is buying 2 more sets of working attire...thanks to my bro's gf for such a good deal....

made such a wasted trip to office..owe it to communication prob ba...but dusen matter la.. tmw will have to make another trip down to resign... it has been a good time working there...settled my fantasy squad then went for RT...followed by a night of crap with the ex-campmates...missed those ole good army daze...hai...but i do feel a bit regret for not watching chen qi zhen concert...she is my idol man...the singer w/o the $ factor in this economic world...

had a 2nd rd interview with hsbc...Q&A was ok until she asked me if i had any commitment...then i told her abt my RT/ICT but not my holidays in dec..n i thot gone case liao...cos she seems concerned...it was such a long interview....but the HR called me in the evening...hehe...well...haven sign so nothing is certain yet..."fingers crossed"... i think i wanna learn to be a bad guy...or at least be bad guy to pple who dusen deserved to be nice to...waited for a friend for 30 mins at a bus stop...so many buses and cars....so fed up waiting for him...hai... maybe last life owe him one...chilled out with a few friends at villa bali and supper at fong sheng later in the night...

ferociously sending out resumes and applying for jobs...feels like parrot...repeating myself over n over again...had a nice night out....what shld i do next....haha/hai?lost...

send send send resumes and then go RT....n then chill out...PS cafe closes so early...dun go there anymore liao...haha...changed to coffee club express....nice places with assorted memories...

happy mooncake/lantern/mid autumn festival! family day...went to CQ after sending my sister back...feels good to stroll under the moonlight n neon lights...who thinks sex sells? i think there is some truth...

1st rd interview with hsbc...nice hr lady....had a feast at sushi tei then follow by mj after visiting my uncle at the hospital...he is slightly better now...but still very weak...hai...

another routine sunday and boring saturday

fri toto did not belong to me....put aeroplane night...dinner cancelled....mj cancelled...ktv beckons...a expensive ktv...n tiring night...

an oldie that i kept singing in ktv lately....yi ke xing jiao gei shui

我的一颗心交给谁？
交出去会不会后悔？
爱情的边缘一次又一次徘徊
我的一颗心交给谁？
交出去能不能收回？
付出了感情只怕换来是伤悲。
过去我为爱流过泪，
现在已锁上我心扉，
孤单和寂寞习惯陪我心沉睡。
是否该抛开是与非，
再爱一次也无所谓，
自从遇见你仿佛已经忘了我是谁。
我的心应该交给谁？
交给你会不会心碎？
迷惑的眼睛已分不清对不对。
我的心应该交给谁？
交给你会不会心碎？
一颗心交给谁？

nitez

not simple yet easy to see thru

2007-09-20T02:22:00.000+08:00

that was a comment a friend said to me some time ago...
today another friend say i dun look simple...

i wonder if thats the impression i give pple...
its not that i hide things to myself...i prefer to put it as keep things to myself...
i think its becos i dun like to impose on pple ba

applied for jobs at 3 local banks....but could have sent out more....too slack...feels like only reach 40% efficiency....for me RT is good now that i have time on my hand...think i sign on regular RT for sure liao...unless i downgrade...got an interview tmw...also dunno if its the job i wanna do...to be frank...i also dunno what job i wanna do..hai...

had a short recruitment drive in sch...its kind of good in my sense...since its more effective way of screening...an expensive dinner...but the food was quite good...and then chill out at dempsey
my poor friend...n it made me look bad...i din go to his rescue when his car broke down..... not his day....hp low batt...everyone is not readily avail..and despite clear instructions to his saviour...it was not heed...poor thing has to strand there for a few hours n incur heavy losses..i told him...lose money nvm...dun lose away confidence...hope he will heed the advice...

a really really really enjoyable monday....things got off a lil cold and a lil awkward..so funny...how can things be so coincidental...of all places and of all times...then it stabilizes...soon it became very cosy...n then it became so lively...so ...so unexpected? the element of surprise seems so sweet...but all good things come to an end...i wish a deja vu and a better wrapup....no reservations was a nice movie...could have been nicer ....

2d1n desaru u-turn you...haha.. can say its quite a activitiesless time in desaru... but just dun be too critical...then its not that bad liao...jus go there chill...nua...make merry...highlights will be the communication using walkie talkie and a taste of 160/hr and the seafood ba...hmm...how come cz can write so much on desaru...haha...http://odinchoy.livejournal.com/

told to go on 2 weeks leave...good n bad...less money vs more time....

the start of something or the end of another thing? again i wish for a deja vu...

tian tian xiang ni
tian tian wen zhi ji
dao she mo shi hou cai neng gao shu ni

tian tian xiang ni
tian tian shou zhu yi ke xing
ba wo zui hao de ai dou gei ni

dou gei ni dou gei ni dou gei ni ............

9/11....

2007-09-12T01:12:00.000+08:00

maybe its already written in the stars that today is an emotional day.

going to have a walk-in-interview at RSH...feeling quite nervous now... n omg...most of my formal clothes cannot fit in liao....hai...wth am i doing over the few years

visited my uncle at the hospital today....hai...he is so frail now...n there is nothing we can do... so sad...haven seen him for some time... can only pray for a miracle....

had a super tired day on sunday which resulted in a super sei day on monday...the last time i felt so sei the whole day was a few yrs back in my army daze...

had a nasty call on thurs n it broke my proud record...i escalated it to my sup... the person request is really out of my power liao...or u can also say i failed to pacify him to accept my proposal...anyway...just like most things...there is just a thin line btn them...

yippie! i graduated...although still quite disappointed that i failed the module which i failed last yr...chong na li die dao, you zai die dao duo yi ci...chong dao fu zhe....failures are scary....n to fail again is a more than a setback...my friend has this msn nick...past is not a burden, its an experience....to me...past is a burden and an experience.

a lil gesture shaken me...am i really thinking too much....

i was thinking abt something now...something like this....i am afraid of not doing something n causing regret but i am more afraid of doing something n failed n causing a bigger regret.

always hear this line in drama but funny its seldom be heard ....only 2 things can make men fret...one is money the other is women...haha

shld i go chen qi zhen concert?

suddenly...

2007-09-01T01:45:00.000+08:00

i feel like blogging....but i am so tired now n i have to work tmw....sianz.... too much time on hand makes me think a lot....the past the present and the future....then suan tian ku la in my life... when things get demoralising/sad...i derived an eqn.... too much time ->think abt things i shldnt be thinking ->do things i shldnt be doing->mistake -> regret-> depression

good nite

photos only

2007-08-20T20:26:00.000+08:00

belated hk/macau/shenzhen 8d7n zou dao jiao suan jiao tong you...

2007-08-15T12:09:00.000+08:00

more than just walk until leg pain/ache....n also lots of mai dong xi n chi dong xi...

finally have time to pen down this memorable holidays cos i have fallen sick n decided that i shld stay at home n rest n also self quarantine...afterall it wont be nice to spread germs to others...

day 0
our flight was like 6+ i think...so we had to reach airport at abt 4+...despite the irregular hours, we kept our spirits n moods high. 3 hours later we reach hongkong! dong fang zhi zhu!

day 1
the moment we touched down, we were greeted by a downpour but it did not dampen our spirits...after we reach the arrival hall, saw something of a culture shock to me....the fa lun gong thing had something like a strike there...not wanting to invite troubles...i did not wanna pay much attention n just move on with the crowd n follow the instructions of the enforcers... we wanted to take a coach to our hotel but the road was blocked so we were advised to take train instead...a blessing in disguise...cos we got a good deal with the octopus card(something like our ezlink) n were able to reach our hotel promptly. On our way to the hotel the weather was fine but after we were ready to get to our first destination it started to rain heavily....lucky we had our umbrellas with us...to think i was still reluctant to bring the day earlier...only to know its usefulness in the days the come...our first destination was the wong tai sin temple.... looks like its quite normal to carry umbrellas n walk ard in hk...despite the rain there were still many pple on the streets...then we went to snoopy world...haha...the rain haven stop....n the park was like open air...but WE DUN CARE la...taking photos in the rain like we were small kids....then we spend our time in the shopping malls n i bought myself a harmonica! haha...tourists have more reason to shop...keke...never pronounce hot as "shao" but "re" in hk...haha...the blur face on the waiter is so amusing.....due to the rain...i think most of the stalls in temple street were closed...so we just walk walk n then headed back to hotel to plan for our 2nd day...

day 2
yuan yang is not really my cup of tea...tried in spore...din like it...so i thot i shld try in hk n see if the autentic one taste any better...hmm...erm....still not to my liking.....lantau island!! still raining! but its actually quite good la...at least it damn cooling....an advice to anyone going there...i think its better to go up to the buddha first then can purchase a tic which includes a vegetarian meal and then explore the other areas...believe or not...i tried to qiu qian...but i din get any....it might be becos of this want to know yet scare to know in me...i tried like 6/7 times but no results...there is this "lucky pan"...if u rub it correctly(or if u have luck) its supposed to have ripples...keke...i couldnt do it the first time...but the 2nd i did it...so happy...for a du shen(gui) like me...whats more impt than luck...haha...then more shopping again...after that its down to the streets...its hksar 10th yr of return to china...the streets were filled with pple celebrating this joyous occassion n catch the fireworks......then we proceed to have some desserts at "Hui lau shan(HLS)" hehe...on the outside it looks like its super sweet, but its actually not..so for those who dun have sweet tooth it will be ideal..

day 3
autentic hk dim sum in the morning...haha...like we always see in hk drama/movies...finally we all had our haircuts...think jas n desmond had the more makeover.....went to causeway bay to shop walk jalan...spend time in vain looking for XTC!...but jas n ml found krispy kreme! damn nice!...next destination was the peak! finally seeing the things that i heard over so many times in front of my own eyes...another visit to madame tussaud...i think the funniest one is the one in sumo...but so smelly hahaha....n the gers dare to try but not me n des...keke...then we went lan kwai fong...tsk...it was a sunday night so not many pple there, so we just settle in a nicely decorated pub...tourist can do more things there...haha...we wore berms n slippers into their pubs n we werent turned away...

day 4
disneyland!! haha...everyone was telling me not to go there but i am glad i went... i mean if u r looking for thrilling rides then the place will disappoint u....but i think if u r looking for a cosy, magical time...then it fits the bill...there is a super andy lau lookalike gate staff ....his side view looks exactly like him...ha...we were denied entry the first time cos we had pies in our bags...so ke lian....then jas were denied the 2nd time...more ke lian...haha...but i think the staff see her so ke lian so took pity on her la...altogether we watch 3 shows....simba, 3d show and stitch...all were nice...n stitch is so funny...so all in all...i think it was money well-spent in disney for a whole day of fun for me..

day 5
breakfast at charlie brown restaurant...hmm...its nicely decor...but its also very quiet...then we went to the wishing tree...cannot throw the thing on the tree anymore...although to be frank...it not that bad also...rather than making a wish then not able to throw the thing on the tree...i think the disappointment will be more immense...no disrespect...but to my surprise...the expense at the wishing tree can be quite a lot...but ok la...all for ping an...as long as it works...then we went to shenzhen...its like another culture shock...there is this sense of insecurity the moment i reached there...went for a spa...the stone rub is so painful la...n to my shock...my thigh was all red after that...n painful...pai du...took the train to "windows of the world(shi jie zhi zhuang)" but on the way...we realised that it wasnt really worthwhile to enter since all the shows and rides have ended...so we just walked ard outside the place...ni gei wo yi tian, wo gei ni chuan shi jie.

day 6
macau! the first feeling it gave me is its like a mini europe...n casinos were really everywhere n anywhere... the weather was really hot n we were really quite clueless...so in the end we chose to take a guided tour...intially i thot was a reasonable deal...but at the end of it i find that it not...cos i think the money we paid could have allowed us to take cabs to the places we were taken to as well...ok...there was value added services la...he brought us to buy tasty egg tarts..n gave us some history lesson...but like only jas n i listened...ml n des were sleeping soundly behind...haha.. the guide brought us to the st paul wall, the ah ma temple, the macau tower, and fisherman wharf....then we went to the one of the most iconic place in macau...dog racing! but its really sunset industry there liao...the place is quite old n not many pple go there anymore...but its still fun for new kids on the block like us..haha...i am the big loser la...someone still yaya over her victories...say she knows how to choose the winning dog...hahaha....well...sheng zhe wei wang, bai zhe wei kou....then we went to casino of cos...how can we spend a day in macau not going to any casino...but having limited resources n not wanting to be victim of losing money...none of us really spend much money betting...P.S...the boat ride is really bumpy n dun be shy to puke...haha...i din puke on the ship but almost cos quite a number was puking n it really made me feel like puking too...tsk...

day 7
ocean park! i think we r quite lucky cos it din rained...i think if it rained then we cant make it to ocean park liao....how can go hk dun go ocean park...haha...but then its friday n its very packed... earlier desmon already mentioned that he may not want to go ocean park cos he do not want to take the rides...but we wanted to go...its like quite a dilemma...but in the end he went with us... the rides were more thrilling...i think the most scary one is viking...haha...after ocean park...we made our way to repulse bay...but i think it was too late...also dunno what to explore that...so in the end went to avenue of stars....a cosy breezy walk...slowing bringing our holidays to an end...n we found XTC! so so only la the ice-cream...some recommendation by my bro...haha.. but the boy attending the shop was cute...haha..i am not gay...i just find him cute....the rest of us found him cute also...

day 8
check out....breakfast...then we splited our ways to shop...i made such a funny blunder la...i wanted to buy the lao po bing then jas mother recommended...then i thought its at another mtr...so i took the mtr...only to realised its redundant la...then i went to buy the lao po bing n then with so much time to spare...i decided to shop! i bought 4 tops n 4 bottoms...haha... of which i think 1 top was quite rash decision...a lil big for me...then a berms which i also felt a lil too big... then one last bowl of HLS b4 going back to hotel to collect our luggage n fly back to spore....home sweet home....

Lastly, many thanks to des, ml and jas for planning all the itineries...hehe...

its my bday!

2007-07-29T02:17:00.000+08:00

happy bday to me
happy bday to me
happy bday to me me
happy bday to me

first of all, thanks to friends who have sent their wishes to me n spent these 2 days with me... love the presents n dinner n chill out...
finally have a chance to have dinner at the famous zi yean restaurant , not bad....but forgot to QC...ended up ordering so much food...roucheaster seems to have become so quiet...i think everyone has flock to st james...its really so rare that anything last forever...

lucky day on the mj table...enough to cover my expenses later on....dinner n bowling....have been having pretty exp dinner for the past few weeks....overspend...haha....must start to control the finance...what a day at the OCC...saw "RE" just when i was abt to leave....still it was a pleasant bday surprise except that her bf is with him...wahaha...then i also saw another friend from SIM..what a small world...it seems like at this point of life...after knowing pple from diff places...is common to see familiar faces anywhere i go....better not do any wrong things...b4 i get caught ...haha

anyway the whole of idea of celebrating bday...not really my type...i dun like to be in the center of attraction...haa...maybe just a simple dinner not with the objective of a bday dinner....no bday cake no bday song...haha...enough liao...or just a sms can liao...anyway...to sum...is keep it low profile and simple...haha...lao ren jia liao...

feeling so tired so jaded so wu nai so ji mo so gu du so wei qu so ke bei so kong xu...haha...good nite world

where r my photos...

2007-07-19T00:01:00.000+08:00

hahaha...purposely hint hint one...i want to see the pics taken in hk then can blog on my 8d7n hk/macau/shenzhen zou dao jiao suan you...hahaha....quick quick...b4 my memories fade....

mai dong xi chi dong xi lor

2007-06-30T00:22:00.000+08:00

going to hk in a few hrs lor...its my first time going hk...so excited...haha.... have been wanting to go there since dunno when n the time has finally come...haha

ocean park, peak, disney, lan gui fang....all the tourist attractions that i have been seeing n hearing is going to come b4 me...haha...

i have only 3 hrs to sleep...haha...dunno can fall asleep or not...

bb everyone for now...will be back in a week time!

time to/for change again....

2007-06-27T02:24:00.000+08:00

when i thot of this title...i meant change from student to a worker...but at the same time... i also wonder if this change will really happen...meaning....who knows...i may not be able to graduate... frankly if i am not...its going to be very hard for me to come to terms with it...bloody scary....

i can feel the expectations from my parents n bro...they r like allowing me to enjoy myself as much as possible then find a job n lighten their burden....if i really cannot graduate i dunno what i am going to face lor...sarcasm...despise...stress is building up....

had a swollen foot a few days ago....i wonder was it anything i ate or did i over exercise...hai... made me concerned over 2 things...the more immediate one is can i make it to hk n enjoy myself?...the next one is...how am i going to work with my condition....leather shoes r so much more uncomfy...n how can i afford to take so many mcs...i wonder if its time for me to start on medication...put if off for 8 yrs liao....cos was still young then...n medication can bring side effects...i wonder if its time to start now....hai...big decision...

i remember 2 yrs ago....i discussed an issue with a friend...as in pple who blame themselves n pple who blame others...i think i am a self-blamer more than a pple-blamer...ha...when something happen...usually i will blame myself for incompetence for not keeping things in control...probably will be a lil offensive or not nice to say here...but heck la...anyway like i say i am not blaming my friend la...but does hope that my friend can change...n of cos...there may be other reasons which i am not aware of...

what happened was....supposedly arranged to meet up with friends for a discussion...n thinking that everyone will be on time or at most slightly late...i could bring my parents to the place i am going...i can leave them there to walk ard on their own...then meet friends for discussion...but end up...one friend was very late...to be frank...i felt it was quite unfair to all who made an effort to be on time...so end up i had to leave halfway during the discussion...i did thot of giving the friend a morning call...given that the friend has a superb record for being late...hahaha...but i thot i shld give her a chance....i did thot of changing my mind n tell my parents to stay home in case i had to overshoot the timing...but they were so enthu the moment i told them i was going to take them out n jalan...just to reemphasize...no hard feelings ok(wouldnt it be nice if u dun read this, tsk tsk)...just hope that u will change...punctuality is a lil bit like responsibility...but u may have ur reasons...if i wronged u...tell me k...but if u dun think need to explain its okay also...
anyway...the moral is "da shi teng, ma shi ai"

anyway i am so so looking forward to the hk trip now...the most worrying thing is the leg...although track records has shown that after i see doc ...it gets well n wont have a prob...shall rest more at home these few days...

alright...good nite world....

another week...

2007-06-20T00:39:00.000+08:00

another boring week...the usual things, the usual routine....lets write something for a change... inspired by cz...my academic profile...haha...although we had different situation...he already graduate liao...but my fate is still unknown...

studied at woodlands pri sch....my lower pri grades were really bad...i think my worst subject was english i think...then when i was in pri 2 i moved house...then my neighbour became my tutor...luckily n changed my grades ard...i was in the 2nd class for pri 4 n 5...then i did quite good in pri 5 n got into the best class....i also dunno was it becos the pace were different...i think i degenerate without me knowing...i thot i could do well enough to go to an slightly above average sec sch...but i was only able to get into an average...but still i think owe a lot to my tutor...if not i might have land somewhere worse....

continued with my average results in ahmad ibrahim sec sch...in fact it was below expectations....supposedly with my PSLE aggregate...i shld be able to go to jc...how a sch can be value-added was becos a student psle is tied to the o-level...so my cohort was actually seen as the better cohort that added value to my sec sch...but i wasnt part of them...i took value away from it instead...hahaha...i dun really have a teacher which i think played really significant role in my life in sec sch....i was 2 points from being able to go jc....my english n geo already chalked up 12 points...hahaha...kns....

life in poly also average...studied building services engineering...not my first choice...not even a choice i choose myself...i chose my first choice...optometry in SP...but din get in...rest of my choices were made by pri sch friends...the 3 yrs ....think got all the suan tian ku la la...some modules were interesting some were miserable..almost had to repeat one module...but luckily i pass the supp paper...my final project was quite a classic also...we were an efficient team...haha we divided the job damn well...i was procurement manager...i din take part in most of the engineering...i only go n buy things n do some administrative work...n surprising our project dunno came in 2nd or 3rd...tsk ...

SIM...strangely...its tougher than i expected initially...but it also seem to be not as tough...managed to clear the first yr successfully but the results were mediocre..tough luck in the 2nd yr....3rd yr...unknown...

llalala....bed time...

back from phuket!

2007-06-13T01:41:00.000+08:00

haha...actually already back for 2 days...but now then blog...oh yah(to zy: yeah i had a great time there thanks!)...hehe...anyway i shall just convenient leave my friend's blog address here...
http://odinchoy.livejournal.com/

i like this lil tanned skin colour...haha...

these 2 days back in spore has been quite busy...do this do that....watched 2 movies...gui ah gui ah...cmi....really cmi.... then i also watched spiderman 3....cant believe there are still so many pple who hasnt watch it...anyway i had stomachache at the last probably half an hr of the show...tahan until spiderman forgives the sandman then rush to the toilet...haha

i am so interested to learn harmonica!...i went to yamaha music sch n look at them ....i am eager to buy them...apart from its more economic then other instruments...i also think its quite cool...i can bring them everywhere...but on hindsight...i think just like any other instruments...i think it shld not be too easy to master...n i dunno if my perserverance can sustain...kekeke...

finally met up with han yu...an ex campmate....had dinner at ding tai feng....chat abt all the good old days...past present future la basically...

pretty packed schedule for the next few days...meaning less time at home...hope my father will not nag at me...keke

kk nites pple

i am leaving for phuket!!

2007-06-07T00:48:00.000+08:00

keke...i am leaving for phuket in a few hrs...the flight is at 7am..n i have to reach airport at 5am...n i haven sleep...haha...whats new... most young adults r like that la..

it was such an impromptu...air tics n hotel book yesterday n gone tmw... i think it so ironic of planning holidays...
well...first of all...things r so volatile...so i find having to plan an holidays ahead can be so unsecured...but if u dun book early...its hard to get air tics n accomodation... so does that means holidays is given more priority then other things?...and u may have to adjust ur other matters to the dates of the holidays...anyway...hopefully have good news of my HK trip also...heh...after that then is really career planning liao...

some random updates...

a week of nuaing seems to be quite enough already...already covered most of the activities...n like time to be productive again....

anyway most of my activity is like quite standard la....mj n ktv...haha...
mj, ktv, bowling, dinner with friends, badminton, chill out, nua at home...these r abt the activities i do...
hmm...dunno how to carry on liao...nothing interesting...

all the best to some of my friends who r going to have there final paper on friday!

good nite world!

after 1 month.....

2007-06-01T01:10:00.000+08:00

yes yes yes!!...its finally over...had a dreadful time for so so long...lost for words now...tsk tsk...
hmm...i am still feeling uncomfy abt my exams...i am really not sure if i can graduaete...but i know its pointless to think at this moment liao...can only wait till the results is released... zou yi bu kan yi bu...

recap a bit on my examinations...
1st paper icp...i think i did my best for this subject liao...n i was able to keep my pen moving thru'out the paper...although i wanna say if i really flunked it...at least i wont blame myself...but i will be disappointed...

2nd paper was mm...hmm..din deflect too much from what i expected...i knew i wasnt going to have enough time to finish all...cos it requires a lot of time to do the workings...expectations were lowered b4 n after the paper...hopefully its still acceptable...

3rd paper was hrm...what a nightmare...i regretted studying so many topics...its like meeting neither ends...not here not there....partly i am blaming the lousy timetable i get...although i know my timetable is not the worst...but its not that good neither...so to an extent...i believe exams r not fair to all...i wonder if the employers see this point...back to the paper...i had a hard time filling the spaces...i kept thinking if shld attempt the other qn instead...i had problem recalling ...which further confirm my complaint that exams r so dumb...test of memory!! my confidence of passing it really low...n i blamed my stupidity for studying too many topics n the timetable...

4th paper, me...another frustrating paper...its the 2nd attempt...so needless to say it wasnt as bad as the first time cos i more prepared...but i still think i let myself down...i think i had a weak attitude when i was studying it...i just keep thinking that it was really hard for me know how to...so i wasnt very meticulous when i was revising...n it costs me dearly...a few qns was from either tuts or past yr qn...which means if i had been revising more seriously i would have known how to do them...n possibly more confident of passing the paper...n i made a careless mistake! darn!! i would blame myself by a large margin....shucks!

last paper...msm...its not tough paper...but i had a bad start...did markov n i keep having problem summing the mkt share to 1!...i spent a lot of time checking it thru...it got me all gan chiong n pek chek!...but luckily i still managed to got it right in the end...but i was in a fluster n really untidy thru out the paper...i also hope i din make any careless mistakes...i would be disappointed if i dun get a 2nd class grades for it...

i am not very sure of the situation...supposedly we can grad with 10 units...but i really dunno how true is that...if it is..i think my situation is slightly favourable...hai...it sucks to be uncertain abt the outcome...but i have decide to think more optimistically...just do what everyone is doing...expecting to grad n apply for jobs meanwhile...

speaking of which...its a headache also...hai...slack for a week then think abt it la...

did a few things that i had been putting off this while....cut hair...chill out...supper...mj...n blog! haha...will be going ktv tmw...n had dinner with friends...n another mj n supper...

just wanna say it really feels good after exams....no more enforcing myself to sleep not more than 8 hrs...no more thinking n planning what to study the night b4 i sleep....n to wake up n slowly enjoying breakfast...watch tv...you zai xian zai...

n what i want now is to go on a holidays!!...pls take me away from this place...i wanna go somewhere for a breather!! i am suffocating here!!

k la...i think i will end here liao...damn tired...i am going to have a good sleep n a day of fun tmw!!

exams bluezzzzzzzzz

2007-04-25T00:23:00.000+08:00

exams blues, only blues...getting more n more stress as the day goes by....have been hallucinating myself in exams hall n freaking out occasionally these couple of weeks...the thought of it makes me sick...time seems so fast yet seems so slow...fast when i realised days passed n its already abt 2 weeks since i last blog...fast when i think i dun have enough time to study...slow when it seems like it takes etermity for me to read a single page or do a single qn...thinking back, i remember there is a lot of things i did n many things on my mind which i wanna blog down... lets start with today...

the day din started too well i would say....my neighbour asked my dad for a ride but her face kind of changed when she knew i was the one driving actually...i also dunno y she seemed quite uneasy...i wonder y...isit becos i am unfriendly or i appeared unfriendly?....then had a bad experience on the road...i was driving at this pretty wide lane...becos i was going to turn left...so i occupy most of the left side of the lane, then i saw a car picking up speed n trying to squeeze into the lane with me...i was very pissed! cos i think he is putting my parents n my lives in danger...frankly if not becos my parents were in the car, i would have block his way...not another accident man...REN!...lesson was alright...pretty nostalgic at times when i know its going to be the last few lessons ...hehe.. had a lil discussion with daryl on efficiency and "got sim"(dunno how to say in english...basically mean thoughful)...anyway the scenario was we found a 2 seater in the LT...then he saw a friend, then she asked where we were sitting then he told her...so as can be seen...what for tell her? cos there is no seat for her tell her also no use...y waste her time to go n look for our seats...anyway its just one of the scenarios...another scenario was at the toilet...toilets in sim have a common door, which then lead to gents n ladies...that time i was abt to go thru the common door with a friend...when the door opened, a lady was abt to come out...then my friend walked in...i paused for a while wanting to let her come out first...but then she also paused to wait for me to go in...what i saw as inefficiency as we were both waiting, i decided to go in first...then i said sorry....lame ya...basically what i think sometimes its not rudeness of ungentlemen that override courtesy...but efficiency probably....haha...anyone reading this should find it very boring...anyway i had to leave early today cos i had to collect the car from the garage...cant believe it myself too...my father got into an accident again...thank god its a very minor one...but its still very demotivating...n he just lost his specs...jia latz...think my father is getting senile......became sim san zhi xiang with 2 other friends today!

beginning to believe "study" n gambling really clash with each other...luck has been very very very bad lately...chao ta liao...man u suffered a setback, luckily chelsea too

went to ktv after a full day ..pretty impromptu n feeling a bit guilty...haha...guilty cos i have so much revision yet to cover n guilty cos i have turn down a lot of friends who have been asking me out recently...but then i still can go ktv...was ready to go home after dinner with the friend...but he looked so sian...so made a last min decision to go ktv...it was pretty fun anyway in the end...one of those better sessions...i really hate it when i go to ktv on an "off" day...its like always stuck in 2nd gear...

i think i gave my parents attitude on thursday...i felt so bad...i had so lil sleep...maybe 3 hrs?..but i had to wake up to send the car to the workshope...what i wanted was to chop chop go to the workshop then returned home to sleep...but my parents wanted me to drive them to a few places...i had no appetite cos its still early...but they wanted me to eat...duh...so its like they have to force me to eat...they r really treating me like a small lil kid...haha...at first i was pissed but now i understand...its lifestyle basically...cos for them they r used to wake up early n have breakfast n do things...which is y they dinno what i wanted was to rush home n sleep but instead they carried on with their normal routine...lately i heard n oldie from su yong kang' song...the last line was..."ai bu zhi she zou jing du fang de sheng huo, geng yao neng zhu jing bi ci the sheng ming"

carrying that topic on lifestyle...my bro bought a new lcd tv...in my sense was for what...waste money...esp not at the time when there r already so much losses incurred over the 2 accidents... n when my father keeps nagging at me to save money n when my mum decides to stop seeing her diabetes specialist becos of the exuberant charges...but what can i say when i myself also think i am spending money unwisely...there is so much expenses along with the tv...we need a new tv console...we have to upgrade our SCV set top box....haha...maybe i am too stingy to be aesthetics ...haha...i am not sure if i am correct in using this word...ironically i have a t-shirt with this word...*933 is playing FIR ah qing song(qi shi hai ai ni), i think his songs r nice* ....anyway so we looked ard but still haven find a suitable tv console...maybe my father just cant bear to part with his money..

early bird on a sunday morning...an "off" day...hate it...

i did not make it to the next rd of the star dj contest, althought it was expected, but i was still hoping for a miracle. too bad it din come...recently while listening to 883...they seem to have a similar thing coming up also n it was for charity this time...but i think i really cannot afford the time now liao...

gotten back all my mocks resulting...pretty mocking...can buy toto with the numbers
msm-60..maybe can buy 6
hrm-22
mm-21
me-7.5
icp-39
last digit roll...haha...5, 6, 7, 21, 22, 39...haha...huat ah!!

had a very very very dream a few days ago....part of it is impossible...whereas part of it seems attainable...but it would take a great deal of me to come to terms with it...
does it chews on u like it chews on me...hai...

exams blues...only blues...its very chilling when i think what if i am not going to make it...its very chilling when if i think i have to see friends graduating leaving me behind...its very chilling when i think i am going to get a low class, which is very likely to happen...its very chilling when i think i am not going to find a job....its very chilling when i think of all the stress....its very chilling...very chilling...grrr

zombified

2007-04-13T01:07:00.000+08:00

feeling a lil like a zombie now....physically n mentally tired at the moment. the day started at 8am...had icp lesson in the morning, the last of my icp lesson. feeling a lil emo at the end of it , tsk tsk..it feels like saying goodbye to mr nageb, sim n fellow schoolmates....i still rem my first lesson in sim was ibm, taught by mr nageb, which seems like it was only yesterday...haha...how time flies.....
couldnt find a suitable person to go with me to taiwan...a lil disappointed but its ok...

did some mm revision in sch b4 my evening hrm class....pretty dismal cos i think i covered less than what i planned...emo again as its like going to be the last month i will be spending my time in SIM...something which has been a part of my life for 3 yrs....the library, the toilet, the tables n chairs, the koi pond, the atrium, the lift, the staircase...bla bla...very soon they r going to become memories...

like i was telling sean, it takes really a lot of motivation to attend hrm class...the last burst which really zombified me...kind of lost of words...its like i know yet i dunno whats going on n vice versa...as the lesson went on...many thots flashed in my were mind....so whats education?? whats really the rationale for attending lesson? y a min or a sec ago there can be some very enthu students seeking attention from the lecturer then the next they can just remain silent n then irritate the lecturer? i am not at all blaming them...just a bit puzzled...for all she knows, sometimes she needs to pinpoint pple to get an ans, then y did she still not do that, allowing some kind of a dumb cycle to go on...lalalla...

enjoyed 2 songs in the car on my way back, ying xing de ren by syz n xiao shi by FIR...i sang to the top of my voice, something like a liberation, letting it all out in the car! shiok! but just like we have to get back to reality, the engine stops, the music stops and then back to the tranquility...

just when we thot the accident which my father got into had come to an end, we received a lawyer's letter from the claimant was sent to us, sian...more errands to run n more dispute to settle. at first i thot it was a SOP, but now i totally dun understand y r they sending us a lawyer's letter. from the day of the accident till now, we did not receive any calls from them, so we din get into any dispute mah...so y r they sending letter to us...its not as if we have confronted n we r refusing to accede to their terms...anyway, just have to call n clarify everything tmw...

ok...some updates for now...

the mazda is also back, somehow it feels like restoring things back to status quo although its not really the case...firstly, dun really well comfortable driving a car thats pretty badly hit,if the intensity of the damage can be measured by cost, its 30k. lucky got insurance but still paid 525 excess. some of my neighbours were not making things better, they were like telling us an accident is worthless, if can sell then sell away...which i think its kind of creating some dissonance in my father n me, not wanting to be impolite, we just smile n keep mum...a funny/weird conversation with my bro also....he asked, so how is the car?...a very natural qn which i think anyone in his shoes will ask...but how am i supposed to ans him...so i just said its cleaner n look newer, haha....n he replied, ok so its for the better...then i really dunno how to ans liao...just keep quiet n change topic...

mm class was like this n like that lor....
cen jing cang hai nan wei shui
chu que wu shan bu shi yun
vaguely understand the meaning of this 2 lines, any kind soul who know can enlighten me pls, thanks

a very happening sat, yes 933 star dj contest!
seems pretty unbelievable, but finally i still made up my mind to give it a try...
reached there ard 1020 n to my surprise(delight?), there werent really too many participants. however, its not concealed...which means i have to stand on the stage n make a public audition, a very big stumbling block. at 11 i made my way to the registration booth n my number was 94... i was overwhelmed by the first 4 contestants...i really thot i shld chicken out...but i just stayed n watched n watched ...ok.. overall i will say more than half of the contestants were better than me...some same as me n only a few i think did worse than me...b4 my turn, i was thinking so what i shld say on stage...but but but...on n off the stage is so diff...i seem to have 1001 thing to say but i think i said less than 10 things...i also dunno y...n i even made mistakes which i initally warned myself not to make ...some of which were made by the previous contestant n ironically i was laughing at them myself when i was waiting for my turn. well...i wanted to defend myself by saying that the way this audition is held is not favourable to me, but i think i just have to accept since its their game n they call the shots....results will be out tmw...i will be very very very shocked if i do get thru...well...still i wanna thanks bukoh mary, cos of the 3 judges judging me, i find her to be the most appreciative i would say, she gave me this really sincere smile when i got on the stage n off the stage n when i was a lil nervous....on the other hand...lets not say ...haha...ask me personally la if wanna know...well...i will still try to make my way to become a dj...it seems a lil weird to me now as i reflect...actually in the past there were events like "shui qiang zou le wo de mai ke feng" and "project s"...how come i wasnt so enthu abt them previously...isit becos i am graduating n i need to find a job?...probably...but 2 yrs ago...i already make a declaration to someone i wanna be a deejay.....lalala...looks like i cannot stop writing on this...haha...anyway the reason i wrote on the form for y i wanna be a deejay was really dumb...keke...i wrote becos i really like to listen to songs, so whenever i heard a really nice song, usually classic, i wished very much i can own that cd...wahaha...thats just one of the many many reasons...just like i learn in my icp class we although there are many advantages n disadvantages, but we still need to rank them...that reason was joint top with another reason...

i was contemplating whether to pen this......sian...my ME sucks...i dowanna fail it again!

i am comtemplating to pen this also...
a friend asked me for a ride
at that point my father said he wanna use the car, so i had to take public myself too
but at the very last min, my father let me used the car instead
so in the end i got to drive.
i did not inform the friend
so i am wondering if i am correct or wrong or neither right nor wrong.

k, so y din i inform him...firstly...it was last min, so i reckon he shld have made his way so quite redundant to inform him...2ndly..lazy?dunno how valid it is though...probably to say its too much of a hassle more pleasing to see n hear...cos if i call him, still have to arrange place n time which highly needs adjustments on my side...so just take it as it is...
i did ask myself if i shld explain to him...asked a few person n they told me its not necessary...but i did ask myself if i were in his shoes how will i feel...will i feel i am being cheated? it seems highly possible that i will be....however...i am still leaving it as it is....wait yue miao yue hei, n probably if i explain things it would seem i am defending myself....

on a happier note, my parents cold war has ended...hehe...bed head quarrel bed tail reconcile...keke...

alright...good nite pple...

cold wars

2007-04-02T23:21:00.000+08:00

my finger is better now...but its far far from the way it should be...i cannot fully close it, its impaired...i dunno what to do...luckily i can still write...so its ok if it stays this way until the exams r over then i will go n do something abt it...so at times like i am sleeping or when i somehow accidentally or test water trying to close it, it still ouches! there were also some times where it hurts too...like all of a sudden, maybe change of temp or some bio reaction in me...for now...as long as it stays this way...i am contented...so from now till the exams...its going to be a very strict diet...if it still recur anywhere btn now to exams then its fate liao...

anyway back to the topic...lately there seems to be quite a few cold wars or some unpleasant events ard me...

funniest one is btn my mum n dad... it all started on sat. my mum and his siblings aka my uncles n aunties wanted to go n bai my maternal grandparents on sunday, but my dad was strongly against it cos he thinks its going to be very very packed...well true as it is...it was very packed... the thing is its my uncle decide one, then my mum cannot say dowan n my dad was forced to accept it unwillingly too...so that sat night, my mum went to get the offerings herself then they took turns to turn in...wahaha...at first my mum was in the room, then for a while she came out then my dad enter the room to sleep...so, my mum watched soccer with me until my dad fall asleep...wahaha...long time dun have such drama at home liao...the stalemate carried on till sunday...not sure abt today cos i wasnt home most of the time...then come the 2nd round...maybe my mum trying to test limit also...frankly i also dunno what dinner she cook today...2 terrible dishes which i think i only ate like 5% of them...haha...n there is still more than half left in the fridge...my father was obviously very fed up with the dinner...haha...lan lan suck thumb...cos if he cook something himself also not nice, go n buy food also not nice...just have to swallow some down...surprising he also kan kai quite fast la...during the 9pm show he still ate the humble pie n talk to my mum...but my mother dowan to give face...hahahaha...so old liao still got this kind of drama...wahaha... "oldish"? anyway will be a long in sch tmw also...lets see what will happen when i get home tmw...

something strange seems to be happening in sch....acting blur seems to be the best strategy... although quite frankly i dun like it...but its not within my control so continue to act blur lor... wo bu wen bu wen, ye xu hao guo yi dian...

watched the last episode of qi ji earlier on, it shall be the last drama serial till exams liao...bb serial for now!..

still struggling with the decision to join the DJ contest by 933?...the heart says 100% but there r so many things to consider...the reasons my seem superfluous or r they not? firstly, its the exams period now, devoting time to any other thing then study seem illegitimate. 2ndly, looking at my chinese standards, i think its going be hard for me to impress the judges...then looks also far from acceptable for 933 standards.........how?argh...keep struggling...

had a hair cut today...its very short now... talking of which...i find it quite awkward for my hair to be shampooed by a guy...haha...feels so gay...

k la...think all for now...good nite pple

damn pain ah!

2007-03-26T00:26:00.000+08:00

i got a swollen finger with me for 4 days! deformed now! blardy pain!! it is seriously affecting my life! n my mood! it dated back to last yr...a game of bball...argh...IF only i never play! my approach in life is usually come what may n things happen for a reason but sometimes these really puzzles me..maybe its just my ill fated life la...ren ming...only myself to blame...who ask me to be so greedy n not disciplined...hopefully i will learn after this time...said many many times liao...but still...

its been a week plus since my mocks r over...but my revision have been below expectations...i am so so worried now...n the blardy finger is making things worse...

i think i am so edgy now...i feel so insecure n my temper is getting bad...somehow i am less patient with my parents and friends...

some of the events over the week
went to bai bai my grandparents today...damn shag...after that mj with sibling n cousin...hmm...which is a correct education? the scenario was like that...i was winning then my cousin is losing...his son, my nephew, 8 yrs old played punk...he came over to me...then ask me to open my drawer...then he took some chips..anyway it was already very chaotic in the room liao...cos got 2 even younger nephews...making so much noise...so i dowan to create more chaos.. then he put the chips into my cousin drawer...wth...haha...think he took either 10 or 20...i am not very sure also...so i din expose him la..so after the game then i told him cannot do that again.. cos its almost like stealing...but i bet he dinno he was stealing...too young to know...

went to see a doc on friday...i dun like to see doc...cos i dun like pple to nag at me...but i think i let the doc down...he always tells me to take care of myself but i always go back on my words..

tuesday dinner could probably be what lead to my swollen finger now...a sinful dinner..regrets...

earlier i was saying i am so impatient to my father...that becos i had to run errands for him...n its still abt the injured car...go there to n fro...take up my whole day...

crappy entry..

good nite pple

how to start

2007-03-17T02:56:00.000+08:00

how to start writing this blog...hehe... radio is playing one my fav hit ...jian dai ai (jay)... its a boring nite w/o msn...wonder whats wrong...maybe they r doing some work on it...has been trying hopelessly to login for the pass 1 hr...give up...

ok...lets talk abt my mocks...its finally over...i think i did really bad...pretty demoralised..

my first paper was Managerial Econs...hai... xiong kou yong yuan de tong...cos its a module i repeat...its quite a blow actually..getting mediocre results is ok with me...but repeat sucks...the last time i ever got so close to repeating a module was in poly...i still rem it...i din get any consolation n i looked really down on myself...i think my dad n my bro was really disappointed in me... i could still remember the words my bro told me..."50 marks also cannot get meh?" yes...that moment...hai... but i dun bear any grudge la...i mean i think what he said is quite true...n when he said that probably he din mean to hurt me la...but just that also cant blame him...he is 1 yr older than me...so at that time he were only like 18...so it can be quite tactless when he speaks.. but last yr when i fail ME i was sad...but maybe its becos been thru more things liao la..so can kan kai n so din take it too heart when i failed ...but still a disappointment too...till now my parents till dunno i repeat it...haha...quite a joke now as i type...haha... so y din i tell them...hmm...they din ask so i never say lor...n since i could make it within these 3 yrs course...i thot as long as i can pull it off this time then ok liao...stressssssss.... haha like a bit digress...

2nd paper...management mathematics..was not as hard as i thought...but i cant really recall the workings....i hate to recall things! there is always this uneasiness in me cos i dun like to fall back on memory...but its inevitable...i left b4 attempting all the qns cos i was summoned to be my dad ahmad...

3rd...management science methods...haha...one of the easiest paper i thot it was...only to realise i am so dumb la...hmm...basically what happened was i thot a qn was set wrongly...FAE...fundamental attribution error...haha...but after i clarified with a friend then i realised its just a tricky part of a qn...but apparently it seems like i was the only person tricked by it..haha...cockanath**....but i have to be really careful though...cos in the records..there was a yr where the mocks was really easy but finals was damn difficult...i hope there is no deja vu this time...

4th...hrm...hai...its like another clueless subject to me...either the lecturer is left much to be desired or is really pretty limited to what he can teach us...as in much of the work has to be done by us instead of him...took the paper with "what can be worse" mindset.....as in like i already know zero things...so the fact that i could write something really made me felt it wasnt that bad afterall...i even wrote nonsense la...things which i dunno isit even appropriate...like assume is the acronym for making an ass out of you n me...haha...but this mindset cannot bring to the finals la...if not...i dowan to imagine the worst....

5th...international comparative perspectives...b4 the paper i thot i could prepare myself well enough...cos in the past...most of the subjects which i were given model ans by the lecturer...it was quite easy to spot the qns since the qns almost the same every year....but as i browse thru the past yr papers...i knew cannot make it liao la...the variance is far wider than the model ans i was given...even if i read ALL the qns that was given to me so far...probably i can ans 3 qn...requirements was to do 4 qns...n i believe with what i can write...i really need to ans all 4 to pass...somehow i did 2.5 qns...yes...its the prob of recalling again...argh...something like a essay constipation la...the points in my head was a bit vague...so i cant really put them into words n write fluently...i hate it i hate it i hate it!

so whats my opinions n reflections for the mocks
1. attitude towards mocks at diff level is diff...yr 1...gan chiong spider.... yr 2...dunno also n crack ur head n die gloriously....yr 3...go or dont go?...hahaha
2. repeating again n again n yet again...cannot play play liao...
3. constipation again...i remember there were still some more...but cant recall...

usually the mocks ended early...but this time my mocks ended a lil late than b4...so i am self declaring a 4n3d holidays...haha...already watched a movie...played pool...ktv...few more activities to cover for the weekend then back to the studying routine again...

i saw desmond koh at yishun 10...haha...my fav deejay during my poly days...pretty tempted to go to him to get autograph or take a pic something like that...but tats so uncool la...haha...nobody knew it was him probably becos he wore a cap n tried to make himself unrecognizable...

talking abt him made me think of future again...hai...i am still pretty clueless when ppl ask me what i wanna do after grad...argh...so for a job...i think i will like to be a deejay...haha...reason? so i can access to the unlimited songs...n i like listening to radio...so i actually wish i can be a deejay too...or a chef...haha...somehow office works just bores me la...i dont really wanna work in a office...but chance of it not coming true is not high...then the next job on my mind is probably sales job...like maybe sell cars or property...but salesman job is not well like la...i dowan pple to avoid me la...haha.....next well be my own boss...open a shop...just a small biz to give me a comfortable life can liao...bleak or bright?...i dunno....

so now...how to stop...haha...1001 things is generating in my head...
haha...still unable to connect to msn...
ciao for now...i will be back.

lost for words...

2007-03-06T02:35:00.000+08:00

hai...sian...sian...very sian... think from now till dunno when life gonna sian...

first of all is the mocks...sian....then the final exams...sian....then start to seek for job...sian...then start working...still SIAN!

damn stressed la...

also dunno how to pen down the 1001 things i want to say...cos i am damn lazy...if only there is a invention...something that links to our brain...then come to hear directly... maybe it will come true one day though cos saw on the news earlier that there is something new on the block which could read a brain intention...

sian la...

happy CNY everyone!

2007-02-23T01:14:00.000+08:00

happy cny everyone!...
my cny mood started last last thur....started with shopping at vivo...initially i thot i was not going to get anything...but in the end i decided to get something...vivo city quite a letdown leh...nothing much to shop one...haha...maybe i am yoo critical...mai hiam buay pai la...after that headed over to villa bali...chill a while then went home...

last min spring cleaning! actually i already had it planned la...my room very small one la...just a few areas to wipe n tidy up only la...which is y i din wanted to start cleaning so early...then i also helped to clean my sis room...it was quite fulfilling to clean the 2 rooms...took me one whole day but it was worthwhile...then the mahjong start liao...start with my bro cousin n her bf...play small small only n lost a bit...

cny eve...more cleaning to do...but it only took half a day cos everyone was ard to help...then mj with bro sis n dad...win a lil also...then at night went to uncle place for a reunion then mj again at a friend place...usually we dun have the habit of playing blackjack at my uncle's place...but this yr they wanted ...but already promised to play mj with friends...so was a lil spoilsport to leave my uncle place earlier...won a lil at the mj this time...children r so cute...haha...my friend sun was making a lot of noise but i dun find him a nuisance at all...so adorable...

more relatives came to visit us today....n somehow i am beginning to like it more cos i mingle more with them this time...i remember in the past i will behave like an autistic child like that...very shy one...n again blackjack.....haha...how come the craze is back again...keke...lost this time...then at night its mj again...lost this time...have been losing for the last few times at that friend place...maybe it clashes with me...haha...

the worst news i ever get on cny...n i also find it quite unbelieveable...my bro got into an accident...that is the 3rd one in 2 months btn him n my dad...wth man...thank god he is fine...hai... but the car is really bad...worse than my dad's accident...if u ever see a railing being punched out of the ground on SLE somewhere near mandai...then its done by my bro...hai...think he was too tired...he was gambling until 7am then sent friends home...probably fell asleep when he was driving...hai...other things to headache now...i have 2 very heartwarming(mushy) things to share now...haha...i rem that time my father accident then he was sent to the hospital...when he was wheeled to the clinic he wanted to go to the gents...at first i say i followed him...then when he stood up from the wheelchair he felt a lil giddy n hold my hands...i was a lil surprised...haha...cos i cant remember when was the last time he hold my hands liao.. then this time my bro accident...after we met up with my bro after the car was towed to our carpark...my dad put his arms around my bro shoulders n calm him down n pacify him...haha.... xing fu shi bei xu ai the ren xu yao (lyrics from wu yao ke jiu) ...he was so shaken he din even want to go n visit my uncle...but to be frank...no point go n spoil everyone's mood there also...so i was to be ahmad of the day also...stayed awhile at my uncle place...then made 2 visits within 2 hrs...to 2 campmates places...staying ard 15 mins at each place only...then went back to pick my folks home..... my lil cousins was like me when i was young...autistic...haha...no la...they r just shy...dinner with cousins at sakae n then ktv at boat quay...singing is shiok...

mj again...with 2 friends n dad/sis...lost...so overall i lose this cny...they stayed to have dinner at my place...for the first time i think for the almost 10 yrs we knew each other...haha...tiring cny...ended with me falling asleep on the sofa...

i think my friend dunno me well...or he cant stand me...haha...we arranged to watch just follow the rules ...but somehow we made a lil late to the cinema n the tic were sold out...i was a lil disappointed cos i wanted to watch plus there has been a change of plans when i felt it could have been avoided if he were not late...so i was grumbling n grumbling...but i was really just joking...but i think he took it too hard n was a lil pissed....then later went to help a friend to move some things to his temp hideout...i dropped his printer cover...hopefully its not spoiled...n my remuneration un return, st louis ribs at cartel

slowly resuming to normal life...rot like hell again today...ended with a chillout with a couple of friends at EB...it seems harder for me to chat with them cos the gap btn us is like so big...they were my pri sch friends...they r like doing so fine now....but where am i?...

what a letdown...planned a whole day of fun tmw...but becos the lesson was changed to noon so the day events had to be cancelled...but the dinner at defu lane tmw will go on!!.....have to return to reality after tmw...start engine again!!

thursday...

2007-02-08T22:21:00.000+08:00

discovered this last thursday...the best thing abt thursday........will revealed it at the end of this post...i am in an absolute nua mood now.....b4 i napped in the noon i planned to study at night! its a lie! in manifestation now...life is getting bluer n blacker now...stress ah...the day to the cny is drawing closer just as the exams is getting closer too...I HATE EXAMS...bloodsuckers!

lesson for the day, dun be bluff my myself again...

k...now the ans...the best thing abt thursday...its friday tmw! TGIF!

end of another drama serial

2007-02-05T22:47:00.000+08:00

again...this always happened to me when the serial i have been watching for weeks end....feels lost...feels like how i wish the show can just go on n on....i still remember when the show just started i was like keeping myself away from it...i think i missed the first few episodes....but dunno at which point i started watching...keke...then start liao...so is the 7pm show....deja vu ... gonna end soon...hope that with the closure of both serials i can start spending all my precious time on revisions!...lets put it to action now...i shall sleep early n wake up early from today...wahaha...nites pple

sleepless night

2007-01-20T02:18:00.000+08:00

its a sleepless night...i have been awake for almost 20 hrs...n i took 2 panadols at 11 plus...but i still cant sleep...probably was a tad traumatized by what happened today...

the day started as early as 6am...the phone rang...my dad got into an accident again...hai...the 2nd time in the space of 3 weeks... it din occur to me that it was so serious...i thot was going to be like the first time...maybe just some damage to the car...but no man...this time was quite serious...he crashed with a bus...omg...stary man...n he had some cuts...bleeding non stop... i was so shocked when i saw blood on his shirt, berms n shoes...really heartache at the moment... but at least he was still conscious...well...now the car...really quite bad...i never expect any of us in the family to get into such a big accident...cos i always thot we (me my bro n dad)...are responsible n careful drivers...the windows on the side were shattered... badly dented...if i ever get hold of any pic then i shall post it la..a pic says a thousand words...probably some comments on the efficiency...well...i appreciate the fact that the police were pretty calm to handle the things...but that aside...i feel they or the govt could have been more efficient...the incident i am talking abt was the damaged car... ok...initially i thot they din wanna tow the car away becos they wanna assess n carry out some investigation...but after a while i was told that TP r not coming to investigate n i had to get my own tow crew the tow the car away... i thot there was EMAS...a govt towing service that actually towed accident vehicles to a side then allow the car owner to get a tow truck...i thot that was what going to be happen...but not...which i was later told that EMAS only operate on expressway...i mean but myself in the shoes of the road user... the efficient way will be towing the car to a side so traffic could flow properly...anyway so in the end becos i din bring with me initially...i had to walked home doubly quick to get the number of my tow crew...on my painful legs....hai...went to the hos to see how my dad he...he looked so dazed...everything also nvm la...as long as he can recover n able to overcome the trauma...

went to sch for lesson...there was icp test...the qns were kind of past yr qn n there were some model ans...i was only prepared to copy...but as i was copying...i felt it damn stupid...the damn stupid education system to me...so i stopped...

was supposed to go defu lane n eat crab as a celebration for jas bday...but becos of the accident...we changed plans n went to holland v...had the famous xo fish beehoon...then chilled at TCC... guess the inconvenience n becos they had lessons next day...so we went home earlier than usual n were not able to let ourselves totally loose...

i tried to lie on the bed to sleep...but i just cant stop thinking of songs to sing...so came back n rant...

zhou hui new album...first 3 songs...nice...
let me choose my fav lines from each of the songs

haha...as i am looking...i like the whole lyrics!
i wish i know how to use some chinese prog now...then i can type out the lyrics...haha...till i learn then...in that case...just the chorus now...

ti wen--
ji mo bian chen le yi zhong ti wen
pei wo zai zi ye wu mong de shi fen
mei you ni de hei ye you yi dian shen
zao bu dao ke yi yong bao de ling hun

xiang nian bian chen le yi zhong ti wen
ran shao zai ling chen san dian ling wu fen
zheng ge shi jie zhi you hu hu de feng sheng
he yi ge zhi neng gen kong qi shuo hua de ren

ji mo chen shi--
cheng shi li suo you ji mo de ren lei
you ji ge he wo yi yang tou tou de liu lei
ruo shi jiang ta yi di yi di ji lei
hui bu hui liu chen yi tiao bing leng de he shui

cheng shi li suo you ji mo de ren lei
you ji ge xiang wo yi yang yan juan le pi bei
ruo shi jiang ta yi ke yi ke de chui hui
hui bu hui quan shi jie he wo bei shang

zheng ge cheng shi xian lu qi hei
gu du ren zai xun zao zhi ji de ding wei
wei zhuang bian cheng le yi zhong fang bei
fang bei pa bei ren kan chuan le xin sui

zhi neng zhuo peng you--
zai xie guo yu de tian kong
xun shang xin de li you
zao dao yi pian kan du jian que chun zai de tong

wo zai ji mo de tian kong
xiang xiang ni de li you
jiu jing shi yao qiu tai duo
hai shi wo gei ni de ai
zhi neng zhuo peng you

nice songs!!...hope u all can understand the han yu pin yin...keke...alright i shall try to sleep now......

so many days liao ah...

2007-01-19T00:42:00.001+08:00

since i last blog...so looks like going to be quite a long entry ...

have been having some pains at the left foot these few days...hai... its like end of the world for me whenever leg pain...one of the most miserable things...have legs but cannot walk properly...
crashed the noon ME class today...kenna spot check by the admin...sian...i had to leave the LT...so ma fan...well...usually when the LT is packed i can understand...but today there were still many empty seats leh...whatever la...anyway i had such a bad headache just now..i wonder y too..feeling much better now...phews...tmw got icp test...hai...but cant really be bothered la...just see how it is tmw then act accordingly...so glad that project superstar is coming to an end soon... this time the finalist were pretty poor vocally as compared to last yr...but more showmanship ba..

skipped mm consultation class...spend most of the time on revising my hrm...boring la...sian ..still a lost ship...n a painful leg...so a lousy day...

an early morning sms woke me up on tuesday...a bad news though...a friend's father passed away...n we din know of it from him...he kept it from us...dunno y...but since he dusen wanna say i am sure he has his reasons...so just attended the wake for a short while n din talked much... after that i brought my mum to visit my uncle...hmm...this uncle life is really amazing...ups n downs...anyway just wish him all the best la...after that went home to nua n some revision...

this sem like attend any lesson also boring...maybe its the last yr...no interest in the lessons like that...msm without notes...all thanks to daryl la...the problem kid...dunno whats he doing also...borrowed my notes then never come...bloody****....really was pretty pissed...i cannot tahan pple who r irresponsible...gave him attitude on the msn at night...heck care...if not he wont learn...after the lesson went to the gym...shiok...feels so good to exercise...but i am not sure if it was that that made my leg pain...so sian...like a fei ren!...yoga? pilates?

rainy sunday...sleep...revise a bit...normal sunday...

rainy sat too...fantasy...nua...mj...haha...

had icp in the noon...then nua in the sch b4 attending agnes wedding.....was a good thing i nuaed in the library...haha...the wedding dinner was pretty fun...but the poor groom n brothers had to drink a special concoction by us...

most of the last week was mad rush of revising my icp cos i had to do an assignment...
mj bday was on last wed..happy belated bday
jas bday is today...happy bday!

haha...somehow today entry is so crappy...haha...anyway whatever la...

hmm...to let live n live?...somehow like not correct...but anyway ...trying to understand that...can be as easy as abc...but can be very hard also...
come what may la...

look forward to defu lane crab tmw...hope no pain after that...

so many days liao ah...

2007-01-19T00:42:00.000+08:00

gone with the wind.....

2007-01-03T02:49:00.000+08:00

xmas n new year had come n go.... everything is like going back to routine again...back to the harsh reality...keke...

pretty tired now...having a lil bit of problem recalling what happened these few days...alright...
last friday...what a morning at home la...wahaha...my dad bought 2 new lamps to replace the old ones in the kitchen...he asked me to help...so i did...but ...frankly i also not sure was it becos i pull too hard or the lamp was already broken...but i think shld be latter...hahaha...welll i have the benefit of the doubt...plus i dun think i pulled that hard also...so my father asked me isit i pull too hard...then i say his qn very funny...cos u asked me i surely say i din...he was pretty annoyed..wahaha...probably it was really a bad omen....to be explained later...attended icp...icp class...lesson is more abt the same la...but the pple ...how to say leh...guess i dun have a click in that class lor...whereas the pple i know r in the clicks...so pretty bored during lessons n break...somehow meityng seems a bit sad n sick...hope she will recover asap... after the lesson i pass a xmas present to ml...haha...she said its nice...des also says nice n more imptly i also think its nice!..haha lao wang mai gua zhi mai zhi kua...then went to cz hse...wala!...what a twist of fate n fortune...haha...maybe there is really some affinity...but i dowanna think too much now...sui yuan n shun qi zhi ran ba....omg...my fav crab at defu is a blast man...they have renovated n looks so atas now...haha...but sad to say...owing to its popularity...all the crabs were sold out by the time we reached...which was only 820pm!!...omg...wasted trip...so funny...when the waitress said she has something to tell us...my friend replied..."dun tell me no crab liao..."...then the waitress said.."have...but its alaskan crab...."...haha...diao...its $120/kg la...n it weighs 3kg...cannot afford la...haha...so we ate normal fare...after that we went to cz hse n play mj till dawn...mk bought a hard rock tee from aust...thanks dude...

stay home...but pretty useless la...spent all my time nuaing...stare blindly at the notes n in front of tv n comp....

sunday, new year eve...damn...unhappening also...haha...spent the whole day play mj...no win no losee....kill time...but my bro got killed...on the mj table...after that met cz for supper at jalan kayu n chit chat abt the topic i am most interested in now...

stay home most of the day on new year day...hai...now the omen...my dad got into an accident...lucky everyone is ok...but the repair is going to be quite hefty...pok gai...haha..n made everyone moody on new year day...later at the night went to a ktv pub at club street to celebrate huini bday...i wont say is fun la...but wished it could be more fun...

early bird with my bro n his gf...think the long absence from exercise really weakens me...so many songs i sang like shit....maybe still a bit shy with his gf ba...then only 2 of us for 3 hrs..siong man...i bought myself an ankle support...wonder if i will look weird wearing it everywhere i go now...haha...still got a lot of things on my wishlist now...need/want/demand....if only money can come just from the tap...

kk...lets talk abt resolution....
1. jian fei...how?
2. study hard...how too?

think these r the 2 more impt resolutions to me...another one would me.....for me to know...find out from me if u can/want...hehe...

twenty mins more to kick off of soccer matches...i am already feeling giddy n hungry liao...argh...so much for jian fei...think i will just go n find food....

nites world...belated merry merry xmas n happy happy new year!

933 is playing one of songs i like most....a song probably i will remember for life...
tai chong ming by chen qi zhen...try to find it n listen...but think it will only be music to the ears for pple who can relate to it...
every lines is so ......situational...hehe...

procrastination

2006-12-29T00:16:00.000+08:00

rapidly mastering the skills of procrastinatio...thoughts like...aiya...tmw then do la.. no mood to do them now la...is taking over me...f me...i hate myself now...

last thur was fun...sim bash... added another musical note to my life...now i have do re mi fa...ha.. not sure if its a good or bad thing though...apart from that i really had a good time at the bash.. probably becos the company was fun n knowing that its going to be last time added more meaning to it...heres my explanation to jas for saying i made such a funny arrangement...see huh...firstly we r all worried abt u...then u have to work tmw...so best is to send u home first... then wanted to send ben back to MOS n send gilian back then ml will take cab back from ur place...but then took some time to hail a cab...so i asked ben if he is going back to MOS n picked jingyou then go home liao...he said ya...so i ask him to take cab then i send ml n gilian back lor...like that funny meh? haha...u selfish la...only care abt too expensive for ur bf...wahaha...you yi xing mei ren xing(dun think u understand, dun understand then come ask me in sch) anyway it was late...as long as everyone reaches home safe n sound can liao...

still feeling sei sei the next day...attended icp then went to have a gathering with some poly friends...ah man...kenna dua by agnes...haa but it was ok la...she din meant it also...was supposed to meet at orchard for dinner...i was not sure if its spore shopping center or orchard shopping center...it was the latter but she told me the former...so i had to walk a bit...but it was a good walk...i think i like to walk...it give a lil chance to exercise n think abt things...i aint sure if i am someone who thinks a lot...i mean...there is no definite limits...just like many other things...so i can only someone who prefers to make comparison of relate something to something...like songs, music, movies, pple...etc..almost everything...this yr the arrangement for gift exchange was different from the first time...pretty fun cos we had to guess who is the actual one buying the present....anyway mine was easy to guess...cos only those who have my msn knows i want zhou hui cd...so i guessed my sender pretty easily....thanks! love the cd alot! then i managed to fool simon his present was bought by me...so fun...i bought something from bodyshop for cindy...haha...a bit bo sim la i think cos i last min buy one...although u can say its already what i intended to buy....i like simon magic tricks! i look forward to that whenever we meet...keke.. i am a sucker for magic...

damn tired...but there was still hrm...shit man...hrm sucks! i am really clueless...i dunno how to study for it...sianz..went to cwp to shop for xmas gift b4 going home...bought for ml n jas...hope they will like it ba...hmm...ml was so sweet to give me a hand made socks...thanks!..gan dong :"...then home n do my fantasy stuffs...at night went to ktv ...i am pretty fed up with my legs really...i dunno whats the prob with it...

xmas eve...lonely xmas...hmm...dun make it so sad la...though was at home but at least it was peaceful...haven napped for such a long time...1pm to 6pm...haha...then played mj with my pple at home...dont really wanna stay at home...but also dunno where to go...so just online n chat with other lonely souls...alas...found cz...we had mac at seletar reservoir...frankly i quite like the setting...quiet n peaceful...n nice chat...riiiiinggg....hy called...just nice...4 pple available...so mj again...probably one day will really come where i will be really alone...when everybody is busy n i have only me myself n i to spend the xmas...it will probably be really lonely...

mj madness continues...then ktv ....i felt i am a walking zombie...n i am still feeeling i am one now...

another wet tues...spent the day doing some mm tuts n ran some errands.. in the evening went to mediacorp studio n watch the live recording of PSS 2 male semis...tic courtesy of LESHENG... support him!...if u don mind...keke...it was pretty fun ...

another mm class another day of revision in sch....did the revision outside the LT where i know "fa" will be...hai...i am a piece of shit la...courage n confidence have deserted me...

another ME class...and more doing nothing...i feel like killing myself!haha...piece of shit piece of shit piece of shit piece of shit piece of shit piece of shit................LS went thru... great...

cos i am dying inside to hold u
couldnt believe what i felt for u
i am dying inside
i am dying inside
but i couldnt bring myself to hold u.........

holiday mood~~~

2006-12-21T01:55:00.000+08:00

jingle bell jingle bell jingle all the way....lalala... my mind is totally overtaken by the holiday mood today...i think its becos half of this week is gone n i just wanna indulge in this festive season...

i think i am so naughty in mm class...haha...2 things rule...firstly, if its too hard i am not interested to listen...too simple i also dun give a damn...haha so basically i am paying lil attention in class...sometimes i feel guilty for disturbing the lecturer n fellow students...after that i made a futile effort to jio pple for ktv...haha...i think i can be such a nuisance sometimes...to a certain extent maybe i shld not keep pestering once they decline...stayed in sch to do some tut qns...but the holiday mood is making me listless la...after that i toook a long road home...i walked to np then exit thru the back gate...reliving the old days memory...then along the way i sang softly...haha...quite a shiok feeling...n a good exercise..."new york dallas los angeles...ji mo gong lu mei zhan dou xia xue......"after i got home n here i am ...glue to my comp n tv...kill me...

wet wet wet....cold cold cold...torrential rain flooding most area...the situation looks bad at some area man...hrm then went home n some hrm revision....bored bored bored....

msm...home...nua...tv...revision...sleep....ha

mj sunday...haha...seems like the power of mj is taking over me...my weak legs gave me a fright..lucky they r ok after a rub...

started sat with a nike sales at expo...bought an basic tee n a pair of shoes...hope its not another wrong decision...got home to settle my fantasy team then nap...woke up then calls n smses came...went to have dinner with faithful old friend daniel at glass house...then went to walk ard at PS n watch eragon...part of the expediture at PS was carrefour...remember the old days when they stocked up tidbits n snacks b4 booking in...eragon was simple to understand...unlike lotr... the author is only 17 yr old...no wonder...

icp...home...stay home friday night....

ME...revision...home...tv...

mm...revision...home...tv..

ok...nothing more to say...end it with this....

last xmas i gave u my heart
but the very next day u gave it away
this yr , i am saving my tears
giving it to someone special...

fa fa fa fa...

2006-12-12T23:05:00.000+08:00

haha...i think i am crazy....i got the 4 "fa" tiles from my mj n put them on top of the monitor...to inspire me...keke...huat la!

oh man!...damn pain!!...pain until i cant walk...hai...what marathon...i swear i will not run if given the choice again...attended my msm in agony...the moment i stand up i need a bloody long time to accustomed to limping n the pain..agony!

climax tue...i contemplated skipping hrm n go straight to see a doc first...but on the way i thot...damn...tahan one day liao...whats another 3 hrs..how wrong how wrong...i struggled to make it to the LT lor...then the LT was damn bloody cold!...i struggled inside and it took me great pains to get out of the LT during the break..that was it...i cannot get back to the LT liao...sean packed my bag for me n i went to see the doc...too painful...no choice have to get a jab to heal faster...last time i pain until i cant even limp so i used my wheeled chair to get ard at home...haven done that for a long time...but i had no choice but to do it again this time...

couldnt make it to morning mm cos still my legs were only rated 50%...as usual noon class lor...n the usual talking away in the class...ha..

ME...ah...what test...shit...i hate the lazy me this sem...partly is really owed to the pain that has be hounding me few weeks...pss is a must thing to watch now...haha

what a fri...haha...time to disclose the small secret here on msn...sometime ago i din wanted to blog abt my trial at talentine...but now that everything over liao can say liao...hmm..i also dunno how to start...keep it simple...i joined talentine...but never get thru the audition...but anyhow...the even sponsors were talent scouting or also can be say doing sales la...cos in the end they r actually pple to buy their grooming service...something like that la...where pple can learn how to be an artiste...but also some other personal grooming stuffs...but well...anyway still a good exposure...then supper at yishun then go home...

early bird...chirp chirp...ktv in the noon with ml n des... initially i thot ml say say only...wah...but she really wakes up early n give me a morning sms sia...what passion for ktv...haha...after that rush home to settle my fantasy teams then rush to huini wedding dinner. so happy for her..wish her n derrick happiness n bliss ever after~~~~~~~~~~ she requested me to send her folks home...so how could i reject her...haha...that fact that she shows appreciation is already justifying y i shld do her the favour liao...

argh...wasteful sunday...i wanted to study one....but my bro san que yi...then my malay neighbours next block was holding a wedding ceremony....so its gonna be rowdy anyway...so play mj la...then whole day gone again just like that lor...

usual mon....nothing unusual...

what a tuesday!...just like a meaning stephen chow was trying to put across in his show ling ling fa....when i try hard to find something u will not find it...then when u r not expecting it...it will just pop out....too bad...tan hua yi xian...so fast...just like shooting star...haha...did just a bit of production today...a mm test that is due tmw...ai...ming tian hui gen hao...

good nite world!

standchart marathon

2006-12-04T11:16:00.000+08:00

what a tiring sunday!...slept at 2am and woke up at 420am for the quarter marathon...feeling the aftermath of it now! my legs r only functioning at 40%..pain pain...mountain pple mountain sea...my event started at 7am...the moment i started to jog i knew i was going to be in trouble...the ankle that did not recover fully was already signalling to me...but i cant possibly just stop so just have to bear with it n finish the race...jogged for like until the 6km mark...then i finally walked...kind of disappointed actually...but well...i am just not well prepared enough..besides the ankle...i also have 2 big blisters on two of my last toes...but to me i know they r just excuses to me...anyway i completed the race in 1hr and 26 mins...timing isnt really much of an issue...its the process.....

after that i rush home cos got to pick up the folks for dim sum...its like such a mad race...morning drive from woodlands to marina square...then rush back after the marathon then rush to miramar hotel to eat then send them home then rush to amk for mj...wasnt really that keen to play...but i haven master the skill of rejecting...my legs were like so painful n i am so tired...sitting for hrs at the mj table only make things worse...knock up so early last night...chong chong mang mang...what a weekend...

i am seriously slacking a lot a lot in my revision...i hope to put them all back in places b4 the xmas...

till next time...

how to say hi?...

2006-12-01T02:10:00.000+08:00

hmm...how to say hi...it can be as easy as abc yet it can be as difficult as....haha...or as hard as...? gosh ...i know neither...broken english me...

let see what situations can there be with saying hi...on the msn...i always say hi/hello/yo to pple...to some i will use hi n some use hello n some use yo...depending on how close i am with the person...then there are some i dun bother to say hi...n some i wanna say hi...but something is holding me back...complexity...let the words remain unsaid~~~

then now face to face...saying hello to strangers like receptionist or customer service is so easy compared to saying hi to pple u know but u not sure if they do recognize...cos its like so paiseh like if u say hi n then the person just stare blindly at u wondering who u r...even a smile with no return also so paiseh...n its like so frequent esp in sch for me now...cos some pple r friend's friends...but i not sure if they recognize me...so i dowan to be misunderstood at dao by not smiling at them or say hi to them...yet an unrequittal...will be so embarrassing...haha..

today was not bad...at least i felt 60% productive.....think 50 % la...haha...attended ME...i still having trouble understanding that topic although its the 2nd time i am attending it...hai...then i get down to finished my mm tut ...feels good that i can finally keep the notes for a while...for the past week...my table is like so messy...tv monster caught me again...i am beginning to watch more tv lately...its eating into my revision time...shucks...pss is still fun to watch...what a pity the big beauty her ching is out...although to be frank her singing skills is so so only...

happy bday jy...what a day...big roti prata...haha..cos after mm lesson i wanted to stay in sch to do tuts...but but but...went to settlers at hv instead....quite fun...but seems like a bit old liao... somehow like find that becos its so childish to play board game...but hey...those games not really that easy man...need to strategize and gk must be not bad as well...

stupid hrm test la...shit man...its killing me..i seriously wrote shit i think...the dilemma is if i dun hand in i feel like i am doing myself a disfavour..yet if i hand in its like telling him to read shit...haha...anyway i still hand in...i dun really have any idea how to tackle the problems lor...somehow abdul is so implicit...y cant be be more specific like tell us what to read n what to write...hopes he will give out model qns and ans asap...

very boring msm class...think i am not a lesson kind of person...more of a tut kind of person...cos i find it so hard to understand lecture or i find it so hard to pay attention...doiing tuts is like more helpful to me...maybe i dun not know the meaning underneath but at least i have some idea what to do...think my nature is like that...i dun like to dig so hard to find the underlying truth...i just wanna know the truth n accept it...watch bai jia le season 2...quite nice show...i think they should allow the loser team to buy out the furnitures...afterall they spent so much effort in it...so if they like it shld let them buy if they want....

sei sei sunday...thats due to the hangover on sat...sleep like almost during the whole of day time then attend a simple wedding of my cousin...my family orbat is very funny...guess its the elders' having prob with each other...then things only seem to turned better this couple of year...well..like they say...blood is thicker than water...i haven seen this cousin of mine for i also dunno how many years...probably more than 10 years....

shag sat...started with buying jy present...think we bring bad luck to arsenal...haha...they lost 2 games after we bought the jersey for jy...then went to collect my race pack...oh man i feel so motivated there...however i rate my legs 50% ok only...fingers still crossed...the goodie bag is not bad also..then walked ard suntec then at heeren....dinner time...i booked a table for 18 the day b4...but when i went to claimed my tables, the staff at village say they dun have records of my reservation...wth...luckily they were still able to get us the seats...quite uncomfortable though since we were given 3 round tables to join together...finally had my pork knuckle...i have been craving for it!...after we went to acid bar...not bad...better than i expected plus we din have any probs getting seats...cool...the night din end there...then we went to a ktv pub at boat quay...side track*listening to my fav singer singing one of my fav song...chen qi zhen..song title cant remember...haha shiok...the reason y this song or this album is so memorable its becos it brings back many memories...the first cd for my first car....those were the days...."*ok...get back now...played dice sing song n make merry in the pub...then while i was singing, a guy from a table beside us came to approached us...at first i wonder is it something not correct...then he put his arms around my shoulders...n looked at me...a bit stunned...haha...think he is a tourist from hongkong n a bit drunk n just wanna have fun n make some friends...so he bought us drinks...cool...hehe...although i din drink ..then we sat at the river to continue to chill...jasmine is drunk la...drunkard...wanna pee into the river...wahaha...

nothing much on a friday...lesson n then malinger in sch...then mj...n lose...hai...down on luck again....

attended noon me class...cos i am very tired...then went to bugis to find ben n jas to buy ml present...tcc at bugis is nice...worth patronizing...made a expensive trip to peninsula...i think all carparks in spore shld have grace parking man...i went there wanting to buy jersey for jy but all the shops close liao...so left like within 10 mins...but kenna charged 3 dollars...omg...

lalalala...wed...lalala...tues....hahaha...dont write liao la...

13 days hiatus...

2006-11-20T01:29:00.000+08:00

day 1....er i think day 13 better

day 13...
3 consecutive weeks without mj...kind of good at least i managed to catch up a lil bit with my readings...my damn funny leg...here pain there pain...sickening...a day of lying on bed, gluing to computer n some tv...the qi tian da sheng on scv very funny la...i am surprised they din censored the "vulgarities"...

day 12...
abt the same as day 13 as in i had some revision...then after that met richard for dinner at vilage...the former marche.... went there with diff grps of pple b4...a place with pretty plentiful memories...dunno y the leg was so in pain yesterday...which explains y i din wanted to stay out too long...although already chatted very long with richard during the dinner...so there still a lot more to be said n the night was still young...however i am so in pain i just wanna go home n rest...

day 11
sch is getting stressful...n with a preacher like nageb...it adds to the woes...there r more n more things to memorize liao...towards the end of the lecture i was like having cold sweat...how to tahan...cannot take it man...after that went to ktv with huini...2 pple sing 4 hrs is really quite madness...the quality gets lousier as we sang...

day 10...
had ME...after that i doubled home...my leg is so painful! arghh...inital plan was to do my mm tuts...but since i am home i switched to hrm...then in the evening there was an impromptu decision to go mu chuan...there was a singing contest there....kind of made me interested to take part...i think i will ...but maybe next yr...n maybe i will try out the audition there too after i grad...in case canot find job then i can sing for a living there if i can make it...hahaha...wonder what enlightenment my friend got there...he decided to quit smoking...great isnt it?...pple who wanna quit smoking...can try going to mu chuan...haha

day 9
skipped morning mm n attended noon one ...actually morning one is better cos the lt is better...but what to do....then sort of completed my msm tut..as in i look at the qns n they seem so repeated...except for the figures...so i just try a few examples n close shop...a new show to catch now...project superstar...

day 8
boring hrm in the morning then some msm tuts in the noon....home n thats all....mono life...haha

day 7
msm then jog...probably the jog that cause me the misery...but only my incapability to blame...

day 6
refer to day 13...wahaha..

day 5...
with reference to day 12...nua-ed at home...y did i say wrt to day 12 leh...cos life is so funny...
nobody asks u out ...then when they do....they come altogether...i had few options for day 12...none for day 5...keke...

day 4
icp then wanted to jog at np one...but forgot to bring shoes...forgetful me...so went home to jog then lalalalalalala.....

day 3 to day 1....no idea...haha...

live to fight tmw...ciao...

finally i am feeling better...

2006-11-07T00:10:00.000+08:00

yes...after 2 weeks...i can finally walk properly...its like learning how to walk...believe it or not... cos i have been like limping for 2 weeks trying not to exert pressure on the affected area...which are the big toe area and side of my foot...it took me some time n courage n confidence to step n then wholly n walk normally...anyway i am just so relieved over it now...to be free from pain is a blessing...

hai...sad to say...i have lost confidence in acupuncture...did i mention the physician is actually a friend's father? what a letdown...i visited him...not it did not relieve me of any pain nor did it get any better...utter waste of money n time n lost of faith n trust...continue to be in pain...n i told myself i will give him 2 days...my slack n nua continued with the pain...

for the first time in many weeks...i swopped my morning mm class to noon...due to fatigue n untolerable leg pain...if i had to go i would have to take public...but by going in the noon at least i can still drive...so i went to the noon class...what a fortune to have met mj...if not i have to alone...anyway i still unable to phil lesson...hai...i am just banking on the tuts to help me... then after lesson...hmm...i went to do the "something secretive"...haha...still dunno the outcome...i do hope its positive.....after that i became ahmad...driving for abt 2 hrs...from sch to home...then home to serangoon gardens n then home...i sent my folks to a wedding banquet...thot i could have arranged dinner with a friend then i can stay ard that area then dun have to drive so much...but he wasnt at home n the pain continue to kill me...so i just wanna go home n rest...to sidetrack abit...actually its also partially due to my impatience ba...i could have waited for him for a while...but i din want to wait...i dun like waiting....n so since we couldnt come up with a viable solution in double quick time on the phone i proposed to go home...

ok...times up for the grace period...i am going to see a western doc...this doc ah...really make big money man...he has seamless patients...something i am pretty pissed also...firstly i called wanting to get a q number...but the person told me to just come n take a number...then when i reach after my lesson...the number is 25 n i got 49...wah lao eh...which means at least wait 1 hr....but got one person who came b4 me said she called n she got 37...argh...dunno how they work...ok...my uric acid is quite high...anyway i am so glad i see the doc la...i felt better after just one day...

tgif...normal icp...normal day....anyway there is this guy whom i am pretty new to...but i dunno y i am like so rude to him..haha...rude as in i really suan n tu him directly...but it was really all for fun n jokes...hope he is not offended.....my folks have another wedding dinner to attend again...so be their ahmad again...so while they r eating theirs...i had mine with my bro n sis n thai express... the food is normal...but i find the price a bit steep for that fare...after that my bro wanna go eat selegie dou huay...i can only watch...n eat grass jelly...caught the last episode of zhuan shi qing yuan...so glad...that means the evening time can be use to study liao...need more to time to catch up on lots n lots...

so so revision on a stay home weekend part 1...supposedly wanted to visit a friend father...but he dun really want us to go...cos he says his father is quite vulnerable to germs n bacterias now n quite uncomfortable with visitors..so never insist lor...hai...but mk seems quite insistent...somehow his r/s with yh seems pretty strained now...bachelor=boring weekend n soccer..haha...

flop revising...the moment i lie on my bed i only want to sleep...omg...so lil revision only...got to be one of the most sinful day...

boring msm...dunno y...how...i am losing all interest in study...hrm revision just now is not productive at all also...die...shit!

confused...so whats next now...chong lai? stop it? look forward?..............

y wont the pain go away...

2006-11-01T00:31:00.000+08:00

y ah...y my leg still pain after so long...i also dunno when will it fully recover....argh...it got better last thurs after the acupuncture...but somehow it worsens after friday...was it the food that i ate during supper?...i din really eat a lot of the "forbidden food" ah...or it was still more than i could consume...damn sian la...no mood for anything...haven had a proper revision since that day...so many things are accruing..stress...vexed...pain...

after ME class last thur i nua in sch then went to see a chinese doc.. had acupuncture for the first time in my life...wah...sensation... when he poke the affected area...which is at the big toe...pain... then other area is also pain together with some "ooh"...then when he on the electricity...could feel the current...first few mins pain...then after that is...not so pain...cos used to it liao... after the whole session it was still painful...but the next day was better n i was so happy n i thot i will recover by monday latest...but its not meant to be............

felt much better on friday...attended icp then went home....skipped dinner cos my usual dinner is ard 8pm then roger was giving a supper treat...perhaps it was this sinful supper...damn...all the best to roger for he was treating becos of his pay rise...

pain came back...but anothe area...the other end of my feet...dunno wth..... attended cindy n mh wedding in the evening...how blissful...wish then happily ever after...poor legs...have to wear shoes n walk so much...ouch...wooh....

cmi liao...pain reach climax...plus a few hrs at the mj table...only make matters worse...more stress...more pain....stress cos never study again...

very weird very very weird....maybe happiness can cure all illness...i was still feeling the pain.. then attended msm...after that went to ktv with ml jas ben n jy...i really dunno y...but i felt my leg was better at the ktv room....how come?? i dunno...maybe its ktv therapy...indulging in something enjoyable probably can cure a person...i was happy cos i thot i am gonna be fine soon...but the joy was shortlived...after we step out...then the pain come back...felt the pain creeping back at the dinner...then reach home the pain came back in full force...arghhh....

attended hrm...then nua ard to wait to see the doc again...acupuncture again...but this time i haven feel better...i hope it will be after tmw when i wake up...hoping for epiphany...

just have to live in agony now...............

gei kiang...

2006-10-25T23:08:00.000+08:00

kiang jiu hao, mai gei kiang...haha...that was what we were taught in army...but i failed that lesson...haha...stupid me la...already know my condition does not allow me to play soccer i still go n play...as a result...50% crippled from friday till now...how shitty! shld have "ting mama/papa de hua~~~bie rang ta shou shang~~~...but this time its i myself shou shang...i have already stopped playing soccer for a long time cos i always injured then my father n mother will nag at me...so i listened to them...n stopped for a very long time...but last friday...hai...gei kiang...
after soccer then go n play mj...din lose there but lost heavily on soccer...sianz...

sat...pain reached climax...sit also pain...stand also pain..sleep also pain...no mood for anything... was trying to do my msm assignment...but just too vexed to study the qn...pain pain pain...ouch!!n continue the slump in soccer...

the pain subsided slightly on sunday.....so was able to do some revision...omg...my integration sucks!...i was doing assignment...then i saw the qns...instantly remind me of maths 1...i remember i was stunned there during my maths 1 paper...i thot i was gonna fail then...but luckily i scrap thru...that was a big topic then...i hope its not for mm...then maybe i can drop... continue to slump at soccer although man u won...

monday...happening... i went to have a hair cut in the morning...dunno y guy hairdresser likes ot make a ah beng...haha...went to the salon i usually cut my hair...initially was always a lady hairdresser...i am quite satisfied with her haircut...but she left...so now is other pple cut for me...it happened that the last 2 times were guy hairdresser...haha...n twice they cut my hair like beng...after that i sent the mazda for service...i think customer service wise...mazda is a far cry from toyota...then make my way to sch...wah...pain...limped slowly to sch...after sch...jasmine n ben sent me to the workshop...thanks so much. then met up with some campmates...actually i wanted to go home rest...hai...but sheng qin nan que...

early bird got worms to eat...went to ktv with bro and his gf...haha...my bro n my sis same kind one la....very shy to sing...haha...after that came home to play mj with my sis who is super in love with mj...

mm mm mm...think phil style is not suitable for me la...cannot concentrate at all with his style of teaching...after lesson just stay behind in sch to do the tuts...hai...whats better...dun do/do with reference to the ans perpetually?...haha...i dunno man...my bro was kind enough to let me drive to sch today cos i say i bai ka very hard to take bus...hehe...

alright...shall sleep le....good night...

rotten life....

2006-10-19T23:00:00.000+08:00

haha...i dunno what i am doing these few days man...as in not doing productive things...many things are accruing...omg...sheat!

did less than minimal revision...then stayed up to watch soccer till morning...then drag myself to sch..unable to concentrate in lesson n din stay in sch to do my tuts...wth!!... today i was like totally burn out in ME lesson...partly becos its the same thing going thru again..so i took a few snooze during the lecture...

will i be able to wake up from my idea next week?!...guess i need some push/pull factors... someone treat me ktv if i finish all my tuts? haha....

omg...almost...again

2006-10-17T00:25:00.000+08:00

i almost got into an accident again today...and i am so so sorry that this time is largely solely wholly my fault. lucky nothing happen...

hmm i was doing a right turn... then i totally forgot got pedestrian crossing .. cos all my focus on another car turning right with me.. he turned very slowly n looked like cutting into my lane..
so i move away from him n pick up some speed.. then almost hit a cyclist... then i realised its pedestrian crossing..what a close shave...i am just so glad i din hit the cyclist...an old man... it would have been very jia latz...i think even he also couldnt have time to react...as i looked at the rear mirror he seems calm...then i also saw other pedestrians faces...they seem clearly shocked n angry...i actually wanted to stop at the roadside n apologize...but in the end i din...well...how to.. it would create a stir n maybe dangerous as got cars coming from behind...

anyway has to drive more carefully in the future...perhaps too many things on the mind...n the haze...kills all mood...n distracting...

looks like a lot of updates to be done...

last thurs morning ME class i was listening to eric mp3 player...heard the guan yu ai qin by kelly n jy...so nice...oldies always evoked a lot of feelings. oh yah...n i did something which i never really thot i will...lets not reveal it here...till the time is ripe...(*haha...its actually more than a week i blogged...then i think there is going to be some chronologically error liao)...anyway its not a good day...

same old comments for icp class...interesting issues...but then they seem really too big for me... went for a jog after that...then mj...with some good old friends...but i think have to stop...cos it really makes saturday very lethargic...

spending time on the comp n notes for most of the days...then went to holland v to eat...wanted to rush home to catch soccer...but then father suddenly makes an impromptu suggestion to go n visit my uncle...hmm...so sad...he got cancer n he is going to china for treatment soon...hope he recovers soon...was a tad disappointed that i had to miss soccer...but it was ok...

hazy hazy morning = cancel jog....then did my msm assignment...another copy n paste assignment...silly...then play mj ...

ok...so i there will be a week of mistery...haha...cant recall liao also la i think...

good nite peeps...

gosh...time flies

2006-10-05T01:19:00.000+08:00

cant believe its a already more than a week since i last blog...it always felt like it was only yesterday...keke

lets pick up the pieces from where i stop...haha...

oh..so i last blog abt the soccer madness...yes i think i am soccer mad now...staying up and watching more n more soccer...not that i dowan to sleep...also dunno whats really keeping the fever in me after the world cup... then its making my father unhappy...haha...maybe i shld stop... aiya...what i says i also never do one la...i say wanna skip lunch also never...keke..

mm the next very tired morning...i dunno isit becos of tiredness or index numbers is just too abstract...like quite alien to me...but looking at it more deeply..it seems to be just applying formula ...but there r so many to rem!... went home then koon...good sleep...u know its that kind of sleep u know u will never wake up for dinner unless someone wakes u up one...haha...yeah...my father woke me up...

nothing much to say for thurs...just lesson n some revision in sch n home...slept early following the aftermath of soccer...

attended icp...somewhat funny...i think to strangers i am really very cold ba... i was sitting with this iras colleague of mine n her friends...then her friend was quite friendly...but i guess my coldness make me look kind of like dao...hope they r not mistaken...i am just shy...haha...after that went for a jog with waikit...shiok...but dunno y...as of now i am feeling some pain at the ankle..which is like few days after the run...isit normal?...dunno la... after that had dinner with him at this coffeeshop which serves really nice roast meat/duck char siew...went there frequently while i was working partime at an engineering company nearby...then went home nua a bit n met alvin for pool n supper...yeah eat again...haha...all the jogging r useless... he is so so ai mei with one of his classmates now...haha...wish him all the best...

stay home saturDAY...did the usual fantasy football and icp revision...hai...icp is like such a wide topic...seriously after 2 yrs of this degree course...i wonder if its really what i want...as in...the topics n things we prepare is for such a big world...what mnc...tnc...aiyo...i small heart one la...just a small shop n be a small towkay can liao...interesting soccer results...lots of upsets...then played midnight bowling with a cousin who just returned from shanghai for a holiday...apparently its national day there now thats y...

stay home sunday as well...this time is really whole day...revise icp n did a stupid hrm assignment...just copy n paste...how silly...then more soccer at night...

unable to wake up early to continue with hrm assignment...so just have to bring it to noon till i return home from msm...did that n then happily gluing myself to comp...n watch a thrilling soccer...roller coaster...imagine this...1-0, 2-0, 2-1, 2-2, 2-3, 3-3...haha...exciting!

hrm seems to be getting better...as in the lesson now is more relevant it seems...earlier was all theory n antithesis...now at least something applicable...

mm, m&Ms...haha...index numbers is still abstract...then now trigo...argh...maths is crazy...i dun have a beautiful mind...went home to study a while then made way to cck for pool then sbw for movies...relaxing hor...hha...just being bored la...studying is so sian...today got pple giving out leaflets regarding the talentine...dunno to try or not...haha...pretty curious to know how is my standard...haha...rob b hood is nice n funny...just dun expect too much...i mean as in thats what i always feel abt movies...i think its subjective...as in if u think is nice is nice...but most pple seems to be just wanna pan qing gao u see...as in if someone say so so then u say nice...its like saying urself have no standard...so everyone just say...not bad...so so...haha...

heard this line on the radio some time within this week...sad but true...often this really happens to us...
xiang de dao de de bu dao, bu xiang shi qu de que shi qu le~~~~

nite peeps...

e-brake!

2006-09-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

thank god!...i almost hit a car today...phew! i was moving forward while i was filtering to dairy farm exit on bke...then when i turn my head back the car in front of me din move...i jam my brakes...i think i was really close already...maybe just cm away...phew...

hrm was undescribeable...ok yet not too ok...chimz yet not to chimz...can understand yet cant understand the lecturer...hai..hope it gets better...

revision in sch was not so good...venn diagrams is not simple leh...that made me wonder whats easy...maybe a degree is really not as easy as i thot it was in the beginning...which was 2 yrs ago...

jogging is cool...sweating is cool...the process was tiring but ending was fulfilling.

redo the 2 msm qns that was went thru...hmm...now thats something easier...but a lot of traps... very prone to careless mistakes...

tmw look set to be going home to sleep after mm cos i am gonna watch soccer till dawn today...

more updates lah lala...hui yi dao dai

2006-09-25T22:51:00.000+08:00

lalala...i guess i must be one of the laziest blogger n i produce one of the most boring blog...wonder anyone will give the accolades to me...hehe....y not right? since they gave it xiaxue...haha...

went to mazda service center this morning to repair the spoil audio display...wth...the car is not even 3 months old...disappointing...jasmine was being so kind to agree to come n fetch me to school from there...but i waited n waited...sms her n replied...i knew i had to come up with plan b liao...haha...luckily there was a direct bus just on the main road n the rain has stopped...trying to just have fruits for lunch for this whole sem...fat fat fat....i think i can call my msm lecturer jay chou...haha...not that he is as nice-looking or diao as jay...but his jokes r hei se you mo la... jasmine gave me a ride to the service center, thanks! hady mirza is sg idol...well..he was the idol for me since the beginning...although i would say jl gave a good fight i felt...not as one-sided as the last...my bro attribute it to the malay community though...they r well-known for unity...

super shag the day b4...slept at something like 4am n wake up at 9...the mind that thinks endlessly means i only sleep when i am really tired...if not once i wake up the mind starts thinking liao..keke...not always la...luck was great on the mj table...haha...almost wipe out my sister n my bro...haha...but well...win their money no kick one leh...want to win must win outsider money mah..luckless at soccer again...

ok...now the reason for super shag...went dbl o in the night...not bad...pretty fun man...pretty lucky on soccer but din capitalised...let a golden opportunity slip...

ok...another reason for super shag...i played mj overnight...one of the worst game ever somemore..period. ICP is boring...k..rephrase...actually ICP lesson is fun..nageb is good la...i enjoy his lesson...boring in a sense...like very lonely like that...dun have a primary grp there...

on the contrary...ME was...not so interesting...its like a brain cracking thing...so was MM...easy one easy...hard one...really very hard...n with the solutions given...i cant be bothered to give it any third...maybe not even second thought...just see answers la....

mm mm mm...suddenly realised 12 to 130 can be so long...so many things so lil time plus so lazy...have to cut short the interval..happy bday ben

yea...hrm...hmm...i dunno y everyone is telling me its tough...stop dampening my interest...well.. whats easy...many indeed there are some easier ones...but its one of few areas(very limited) i am interested...getting forgetful...or is there just too many things on my mind man...i forgot to bring wallet n ben's present...2nd time i realised i din have my wallet with me ...first time left in the car...2nd time was left at home...had a celebration for ben at EB...great relazation

yea talking abt failing memory...i think i forgot to lock the gate...

sunday routine jogging for standchart preparation...hai...what happened when a laid back person and a very org person get...conflict...haha...well...why i say that was becos...that day was raining so i thot jogging was gonna be call off...anyway the org person sms me damn early asking me still wanna run or not...but i continue to sleep n see whether the rain will away so never replied...the when the rain stopped...org person called...but i was still sound asleep...so i say cancel lor...then smses like bullets shoot here n there...hai...so sort of dowan to sleep anymore liao la...just go n jog la...wanted to study after that...but sister jio mj...so play with her...i have no conviction...haha..i live to please others(pui)...but more importantly myself...haha..

hai...forgot it...was trying to paste the dao dai lyrics here...but i think nvm la...

night world.

grrrrr

2006-09-16T02:34:00.000+08:00

grrrr...wet weather for the 2 days... a bit freak out last now...got this funny achy/pain right ankle...dinno attribute it to what...was it my gout due to my careless diet or was it the weather.. took an elixir at night n phew...the ankle got better...

k...thursday first...attended ME...terribly boring/sickening...hai..still lamenting over my failing it..argh...hai.. murphy murphy... the pple i want to see din appear...yet the pple i dun really wish to bump into keep appearing...tian yi....stayed in sch after the lesson...first was to see whats happening at the atrium...student week...buzzy...miss sim pageant so so only...n i wonder what was the audio pple doing...cannot make out what was said with so much echo... then stayed in sch to do some mm revision..backward notation for venn diagram chimz la...went home to take a lil rest b4 having a farewell dinner with tony et al...wish him shun shun li li in india...ma la huo guo at beach road...so so...time to take a break of all gambling...on a slump...

some inhouse revision b4 attending icp..due to time constraint i gave miss to the duet superstar...wel..not really anything to regret ba i think...icp was shortened today becos nageb had an appointment...hai...he is a preacher la...last time always felt useless or feel so small during his ibm class...its coming back in icp class now...a surprise ktv...with wk maureen n steven...weird it seems...but already used to this kind of weird grping liao...ha...it was fun...i love singing...haha...funny was settled at a weird place as well...keke...wanted to try a shop at kiliney after steven recommendation...but the shop closed down le..so we settle at a funny kopitiam....after dinner went to play pool with mk n yh...weird feeling also...was there an hidden agenda? did yh have something to tell me personally? maybe i shldnt get mk along..hahaha...silly thought or not...whatever...night pple...

lets pen down my plans for tmw...first half of the day...settle squad...then do some filing...then some revisions...then dinner gathering with some poly friends n soccer...guess thats all...

good nite...

updates..

2006-09-14T00:05:00.000+08:00

well well well.........living each day as it is..... first thing to update...i no longer respond and serve.. left iras to embrace sim again...ha.. well...to sum up...the whole experience at iras was overall positive...if anyone could still remember how much i disliked it in the beginning...i would even bet on myself to leave within 1 or 2 weeks...but hey i stayed 2 months...haha...so i guess everything is really abt adapting...once adapted or getting used to...rest come easy...or at least comfortable...n not to mention i made a few good friends there n knew a whole of schoolmates from sim...n learn new things...well.. maybe i can take an opportunity here to apologize to some taxpayers whom i had gave the wrong info...sorry...but whats done cannot be undone...just hope that they did follow with someone to rectify their probs

so it was back to sch...sch...neither good nor bad...timetable was far from good... not that i wanted a five day week...since its definitely not that i wish to retake a subject... if i din fail i wont have to fork out more money n have to go sch one extra day... so i have 5 subjects this sem...msm hrm mm me(again) and icp...looking at the brighter side...i have a chance to get my first class...haha...but realistically its not going to be as easy ...

i wanna make everyday productive...immensing myself in sch to study actually sounds good...but i am too easily distracted...argh...its actually the mind that cannot stop thinking...try try try...

i took part in the standard chartered marathon...not 42..heh...just 10km...have to run frequently from now till then...i dowanna concuss there...keke....

well at this moment i wonder what else to ponder....lets just write whatever comes to my mind... tony going to india for firing...all the best to him...he looked so worried these few weeks...hopefully everything will turn out well for him...

haha...kk...i decide to take back my words...if i write whatever that comes to my mind i think this is not going to end...lets end this entry with a diary of today

mm this morning...very crowded...i prefer a smaller class though...lecture(r) were okay...lunch in sch...think its the only dunno how many times i ate there despite being a third yr student...cos the volumous pple really turn me off...stayed behind to watch duet superstar ...guess the spot we were at din really allow us to judge the participants fairly...too many echos liao...so cannot hear them clearly...n then...murphy law visited...does murphy law mean what will happen will happen or what will go wrong will go wrong?....

went home wanting to study but nap instead...so decided to postpone revision till after dinner n some tv...spore idol...getting boring...although in my heart hady is the winner...but even his performance wasnt brilliant enough..after some tiny weeny revision its gluing myself to comp again...k la...hopefully soccer will be good later...shit...i scared cannot wake up to watch...

k la...lets end here...hopefully it satisfies the one and only anonymous reader...

*live to fight another day ??or fight to live another day??

.....

2006-09-02T11:48:00.000+08:00

why who what when where how? why like that? who can answer me? what is going on? what should i do? when did it happen? where can i find the solution? how to solve?

I CANT BELIEVE MY EYES!

2006-07-13T02:09:00.000+08:00

ARGH...I AM FEELING VERY VERY ANGRY NOW! I CANT BELIEVE MY EYES! I CANT BELIEVE THERE IS SUCH AN UNREASONABLE GUY!

I was at coffeeshop n i saw a dumbest thing n unacceptable thing! a fucking stupid driver trying to park his big car between two cars....i was already stunned when i saw him attempting to park...but i thot he will realised it but this CB was really cock enough to hit a taxi...then he drove away...from what i see he isnt trying to run away...but he was just trying to get to the side of the road so as to not obstruct the traffic...so the taxi driver went to stop the asshole...i dunno what was said btn them then...but after the asshole went back to the taxi...he raised his voice n said a lot of vulgarities...bloodyhell...wrong yet not apologetic at all! n act so unreasonable n arrogant! n i think the taxi driver really din want to blow the matter up so he just cant be bothered to argue with the asshole further...hai...pretty disappointed with myself n everyone at the scene...no one stood out to help the taxi uncle...bystander effect! the other thing i really cant stand is is bloody yaya papaya face!...the thot of it really disgusts me! he was grinning at his victory...i really hope he gets his retribution! i regret not taking down his car plate number...i would have made a police report n let him get punished!

unduly i really wonder how i will respond if this happen to me or my father.....for me i guess i will say for now that i will definitely not be willing to let the matter rest but things cud have been different if i were the one confronted...then i think the uncle is abt the same age as my father...so i am a bit worried how he will handle it if he is the inflicted one...hai...injustice.....ugly ugly..angry angry...

IRAS

2006-07-08T12:02:00.000+08:00

I Respond And Serve....haha...thats IRAS pple...one week of work had passed...roller-coaster ride from monday to friday...ha..y do i say that...well..beginning was like hell...i was so gan chiong picking up my first few calls...haha...i wasnt able to ans them on th call so i took down their names n contact n then call them back after i clarify their queries with my supp...slowly then get use to the qns n calls..well...so afterall it wasnt that bad well that is if they r enquiring the usual stuffs...but still there r some problems...which include having to understand the foreign accent...hard la...i cant even understand what they were saying i keep asking them to repeat...ha! in all...there were some pretty nice but there is also a fair share of nasty callers...but heck lor...sometimes i also dunno if i am answering them correctly...but i know i already ans them to the best of my knowledge liao...

alright...some updates abt myself...hmm..haven been lucky at world cup for the last 2 matches...maybe the earlier triumph has got into my heads...i am like opposing pple opinions...for the remaining matches i have decide to follow suite ...you fu tong xiang you nan tong dang!

hai...i am so lousy can...i think i overworked myself last week...did some jogging n push up..which was over the limit n felt ache n pain in the elbow n leg...learn the lesson...i will just do it slowly n steady ba...i really hate to be in pain...not just the discomfort but also all the nagging from my father...just dun understand y cant he just not keep nagging when i am already feeling the pain...pain then pain liao lor...still add to my woes...argh

hmm...last night went to geylang to eat...mediacorp crew was there filming...probably gonna see myself on tv soon...haha..

k la...later playing mj...huat ah!

till next time pple

lalala

2006-07-01T02:16:00.000+08:00

phew...the week long iras training is finally over...its was omg...wth...wtf...so sian... frankly i am quite put off after knowing its a call center job...its not my cup of tea...but i think i was like caught in between all sorts...like should i quit...maybe can stay n try n see how...maybe it wont be that bad as i thot...so i din make a decision immediately to quit...then thru out the lesson...the trainers were like saying dun worry...its not going to be that bad as it is...n other encouraging things...although deep down the voice within me was discomfort...dissonance...aiyah...call center job seems to be like such an issue to me...i used to think any job were manageable as long as we r willing to try...but after the previous n present incident...i realised the reason behind quitting a job...

hmm...maybe i shld give a lil description of my training grp...there were suppose to be 10 person from the start...but one gave up the job n din come n 2 came the next day....

first person...miss n..the youngest amongst us...she apparently worked in iras b4 but was more of a backroom staff instead of the frontline job...i think she is also like quite dun like this call center job...haha...so i think the likely thing is going to happen to her is she will be deploy to other dept or she will just stick ard in the call center since she seems quite comfortable to stay in iras...

2nd person... miss hp...same as me...same from sim...same from uol.....but we like have never seen each other b4...haha...she ah...i think she quite heck la...but not as much complaints or as much displeasure as me...hmm...she looked more likely to stay then leave also i think...

3rd person...miss v...nus graduate who is still currently unemployed...she looks like she is looking forward alot to the job...although i feel she is over qualified la huh...haha...i think if not for her previous employment in iras she may not even have been employed...she is like to stay...

4th...miss pw...she is very quiet but definitely those joker type...those leng xiao hua queen among her peers...haha..cant really sense she is disliking the job...but hard to tell if she gonna stay behind or not...or perhaps like miss n will be posted to other dept...

5th...hmm..auntie fp?...cos she is actually the oldest among us...n already had 3 kids...she is the most serious trainee la..the only one that din fall asleep...well..but i feel actually she is not that zai albeit the zai image she showed...no offence la...just that i feel she is answering more of the qns post by the trainers by experience than knowledge...and ask qns that were not covered in class but what she deem as "smart" qns...nonetheless...her attention is still admirable...she shld be staying....

6th...miss fk...haha..my best kaki for the training...cos she share the same displeasure....dun play play ...pple study medicine in ireland one...haha...n a pretty girl also...got looks got brains...think her bf is so fortunate sia...most likely she will leave la...she gonna take like 2 block leaves btn now to august ...n she is like disliking the job so much...haha...we r taking abt tendering together...but we decide to die die stay on just to make sure we will be paid for the training...

7th...miss j...the only dropout so far...but well i think her reason is more than well-backed ba..she is a graduating student n already found a perm job...so there is no reason from her to stay...anyway thanks to her for telling abt no pay if i decide to leave during training...thats y i stayed thru out the training...

8th...the most zai one among us....miss e...well she has done the same thing b4 la...so its like refreshment class for her...maybe thats y she sleeps most in the class...no problem for her la..she is staying for sure...

i am so like odd one out sia...the only guy...maybe its call center job la...so female is more sought after...anyway another incident also shows i am odd one out...haha...what happen is for the feedback form i filled in...i wrote i think i was only able to answer 40-45% of the calls...haha...so the perm staff came n find out y i write such a low degree of proficiency...but heck la...i thot i shld write a lower figure just in case i cant deliver what i wrote then it will be worse....hai...dunno if i will stay on...to leave straight after the training is like so irresponsible...but well...it will be pointless to stay n make things worse for iras i think...

k l.a...dun grumble liao...good nite ppl...till next time...

monday bluess

2006-06-26T01:10:00.000+08:00

argh...hai...gonna start work tmw...so sianz can...have to wake up early...follow the morning madness crowd to work....damn sickening ah...but on the other hand...nua from now till sch reopens also not good cos the holidays is so long... will be starting work in IRAS tmw...hopefully everything will be fine n not as boring as i thot..

the past week was dvd, mj, world cup....

dvd helps to make my day pass very quickly....i finished watching this hk drama serial "love bond"...a quite entertaining serial...light-hearted type...i prefer this kind to those suspense or bloody flicks...

luck on the mj table has been so so only...win n lose la...n occasionally runs in opposite to my soccer bet...

went to learn cycling on thursday...haha...damn hard sia...i think i wun be able to pick it up liao...but i can ride on the 2 person one...haha...just need someone to do the balancing in front n i will peddle at the back...its really quite fun...but backside very pain after that...hehe

finally attempted my ippt...think its going to be the last time i am allowed to attempt w/o passing...hai...RT gonna sucks in the future...must find ways to downgrade haha...

ktv again with miss stephyumi...tried out quite a few new songs today...quite bad...needs to listen more to be able to sing them...poor form today also...think maybe feeling tired n heaty...

once again england played below par but was able to get a win thru a solitary goal from a "beechiam" ...haha...beckham's free kick..."ka ching"...anyway this is the sound of the cash register which i used to describe winning money from soccer matches...haha..almost rythmes with "cash in" ya...

k la...sian liao..blue blue monday...till next time pple...

busy world cup!

2006-06-19T13:14:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging much since the world cup started...haha.. thats becos i usually blog at the night...however since the world cup start i have been watching it instead of blogging... frankly this world cup is the one i am following most...the few world cups before i was only half-interested...maybe partly becos i am gambling on it...hehe...guess a bachelor's life only revolve ard soccer n mj...at least thats what i have been doing for the holidays....

some world cup updates...
grp a : the host nation is doing pretty well in this world cup as i see...once used to be a super defensive side..it has taken a more offensive approach this time...probably because their coach now was once their famous striker klinsmann...no much comments on the other sides...haha...i am only interested in "branded countries"

grp b : england has managed to proceed to the next round...frankly i haven been watching this england play becos either i am outside or mjing...but from what i hear from pple ard me is they dun play well but can score...haha...hai...thats soccer n probably on life as well...to side track abit it reminds me of the bball match i just watched...the losing side did not really put in less effort than the winning team...but end of the day a winner has to be decided, thats how reality is in real world...argh,...my ME exams!!!

grp c: probably the hottest team in the world cup now...argentina...this south american side gets "F" for football...fantastic that is...skilful players, good teamwork...the other team in the grp is holland...another country with more luck probably...very shaky at the back but quite ok in their attack...a good team to watch to supply all the " f**K", "heng ah", KNN" CCB", "wth" hahaha...thats because they play so lousy behind that looks like going to concede goals anytime... now for the less branded teams...ivory coast...this is a pretty good side man...the hei ren can really run n full of energy...too bad they r drawn against arg n hol...if not they stand a good chance of going to the next stage...

GRP D: portugal will seemingly have the easiest time of all...they have the best blend of players n a good coach to top it off...din watch the other teams in action...but they were only just there to make the numbers...oops...haha...

grp e: i guess its just apt to name this grp e...e for erratic...the teams here win n lose n draw anyhow...haha...fav r italy n czech n i think they shld be able to go thru...pity for czech to lose their strikers if not they are really dangerous...italy..hmm...as usual...tradition shld see them thru...

grp f: brazil is truly the master of soccer...only at half best they look more than able to handle any teams in this grp...brilliant individuals...just a few patchy good team play n they can kill off any teams liao...australia is probably the dark horse for this world cup...a good coach plus a few good players...they looked to be progressing into further stages in any world cups like any dark horses before...

grp g: the most uninteresting grp to watch...france is flop...they have to be careful man...if not they r gonna be thrown out of the world cup in grp stages like they did in the last world cup...well like they say too many cooks spoil the broth...they undoubtedly has the individuals talents but i just dun understand y they cannot win...maybe its becos the opposition just know how good they r n put in 150% effort when playing against them...ren pa chu ming zhu pa fei

grp h: spain shld be able to dominate this team with much ease...but having said that they do produce lacklustre performance on this big stage....

okay...enough of this world cup shit...till next time pple...

ole ole ole ole....

2006-06-12T01:41:00.000+08:00

world cup lai lor...haha...hmm...what shall i write... ok...first of all the impact of the aftermath has subsided...but wont be fully gotten over...got to select modules carefully for the next sem...hai...but what the hell...everyone is difficult...

did not expected today to be so packed...play mj in the day...then ktv after dinner...what the hell...i am coughing like hell but heck lah...haha...singing is so much more fun compared to study...anyway sang until po hou long again...need some time to recover liao..haha...

mj n soccer won...hopefully can continue winning till i can cover the extra fees for next sem...
special hand happened at mj...one ka got the "hua hu" he got 7 flowers prior to the appearance of the 8th flower...n b4 the game could end i got the 8th flower...first time in 10 yr old mjing...haha

some friends are gonna have the last paper tmw...all the best to them!

till next time pple...

we reap what we sow

2006-06-04T02:58:00.000+08:00

how many agree this with me...i am not going to forgive myself for failing my ME paper(although the results is not out, but i think there is no speculation that i will pass at all...cos any speculations r false hopes...) its the worst paper that i have ever sat for...n although everyone is telling me if i had already done my best then i no need to blame myself...but did i really do my best? maybe not...cos doing my best probably shld be trying my best to understand n able to do every single topic in this module...n probably things wouldnt have been in this state n i wouldnt have felt so guilty... from the onset i thot instead of trying to understand meagrely from every topic i might as well select a few topics which i cud understand more n be proficient indeed...n how wrong was i, how wrong...all the qns i prepared din come out...that was a disaster...the moment i flip open the paper i knew i was destined to fail....
recollection of what i have done wrong...

firstly i really shldnt have selected topics to study...but having said this...i am caught in a dilemma...looking at the other 3 papers...if i had tried to understand everything single thing, i could land up somewhere unfavourable as well...so y is the decision to selective drop/select topic a correct decision in some cases n incorrect in others...maybe its really fate? i wanna beg to differ but i think primitively to select is wrong, its a gamble...if it pull thru is luck thats all...
secondly, usually the culprit was time factor...however this is clearly not the case as well...time really wasnt an issue...it was plenty...but i devoted the same time to work n play, when clearly the more righteous thing to spend most of the time studying n just a smaller fraction of time playing...all the time spend on mj, daidee, tv, ktv...r they justfied...guess they play a part in my failure too...no doubt abt it
third, maybe i am not suited for studying...studying has never been easy on me like it seems to be on other...i just dun make the cut...*radio is playing that irritating JJ song now, the one abt studying*...add salt to the wound...

well...i also know its no use crying spill milk now...but i need time to get over the aftermath... frankly i am feeling very sore abt having to repeat this module...y me y me? esp when i know there r surely pple out there who haven worked harder than me n their reason to pass is becos they selected to study the topics which i din...

i am having mixed feelings now....i want a break...to release all the tension in me...but i really dun think i deserve a break...thing was much pleasant last year..i had a good break becos i know i deserve the break...i did probably the best i cud, wth...i did drop n select topics to study also...so whats best? so whats correct?argh...hai...confusing world....FAN AH!

i have endless dejected words to describe my feelings now....if every negativity is counter with positivity, i really wish to know what good thing can happen to me...cant believe i am so naive to believe in this...

*sigh**sigh**sigh**sigh**sigh**sigh**sigh**sigh**sigh**sigh**sigh**sigh**sigh**sigh**sigh*

stressed!

2006-05-29T00:12:00.000+08:00

i cant help feeling super super stressed now! exams is coming my way very very very soon... have been procrastinating my entry becos of a faulty comp...in fact i am typing in fear now...i am so worried that the comp may be faulty halfway while i am typing...i certainly hope not...

haha...anyway also no mood to write anything now...whole mind is possessed by the exams
wish me luck pple!...plssssss....thanks!

closer n closer

2006-05-18T01:39:00.000+08:00

its getting closer to my next 3 papers....with just over 10 days to left.. starting to feel the heat again...self awareness abt actual, ideal n ought self is pretty scary, read that earlier from my esap note...
my actual (present) state isnt that good cos i am freaking over the exams...i am only somehow confident of passing
ideally , i wish the sky is the limit, getting all distinctions
ought to be at least getting 2nd upper or lower to secure a good job in the future

ideals r what we strive for, but failing to achieve it will produce dejection-related emotions(dissatisfaction, sadness)
failure to resolve actual-ought discrepancies will produce agitation-related emotions (fear, anxiety)
frankly i am running into probability of not attaining both...shucks..hai...

finally decide to just touch a bit on 3 of the 11 topics in ME...they r pretty much beyond my abilities to understand n time dusen permits to focus much on them also, i call it a temporal end to my ME revisions n move on to esap.....had a lil tiff with my bro.....hai...gong shuo gong you li po shuo po you li...what happenend was i remember clearly we had a bet on soccer n i won but he says he din acknowledge the bet...i was prepared not to pursue the money since it was just a petty amount n it was all for a moment of fun then...but accrued losses over mj n daidee later n actually reduced his losing...so i said lets call it quits...but he refused to budge n but still kept harping on it n pressed me for payment...so wu liao...its actually not the money that matters now...its the pride...haha...sound like 2 childish adults...i heck also lah...i simply just refuse to give in, cos y shld i?.........the new tv show on channel u is pretty nice, wardrobe sos...but what sexism..they only help to salvage the female's wardrobe.....ideally i shld be studying now or at least ought to be sleeping but actually here blogging....haha....

it seems like a blue tuesday yesterday...haha...cos my sis left home to stay in the hotel for her last week of stay in sg, not that she wants but i suppose its becos her boss is in town so she had to attend to her boss, my parents seem so sad...haha...spend the rest of the day on my ME n left stressed over the topics i dropped...maybe it wasnt a bad idea...cos to spent time trying to understand them will be very time consuming...n after a few surveys i did it seems that most other pple are dropping topics here n there...hope its not going to cost me dearly...

happy belated mothers' day....had a very heavy brunch n made me uncomfortable the whole day, orr bee...ha...then did revisions but was perpetually interrupted by my father over the sale n purchase of a new car...personally i want a lancer, but feedback from agents n friends was it isnt a good car so my father is reluctant, but i am frankly ok with any choice since he is the one ultimately paying...the old car has been a good servant, with occasionally off-days...haha...its time to retire lao peng you...had a belated celebration for mum...ate at a restaurant...probably becos we requested the food to be prepared earlier...so its actually not very tasty but it still cost a bomb...n since its mothers' day so its ok to splurge a bit...n had a bit of red wine...was pretty worried to have a gout attack though, luckily not...n funny i had a pretty funny dream... what i remember was there was some cock up at the restaurant then i started scolding n yelling at the restaurant's staff...haha...

sunny sunday, had the usual brunch n i knew mj beckons since my sis is leaving...n so it happened...but just after dong feng nan in the first rd my aunt came...haha...so she took over me...but she left after one game so i took over.....then after dinner play another..."lao ber ji dao"(last game in dialect) we said.....

sat revision was good...i din an ok amount of revision so i decide to pamper by playing pool with my sis...it turned out to be a thrashing...she is too good for me...well...maybe she wore contacts while i din, cos the last time when she din wear i din lose that much...argh...littlefools won the FA cup, their fans r so yaya...

vesak day...fri revision wasnt that satisfying...cant remember much what happened that day but i guess there was mj n mj...thats y i din study the whole day...

visited gmc to see my mum spec for her diabetes...with the help of insulin her blood sugar readings its better...but wud prefer it if was because of the intrinsic reasons n not receiving external help...no choice lah...a lil bit of revisions after that

a day after that demoralising POA paper...so i was feeling a lil lethargic n only study a bit n there was a call for mj with long time friend/ka kis...boring game..not only i lost but also because one of my friend was in a foul mood...well...a lil too many things for him to bear now probably...hopes everything turns out fine...

majulah majulah...looking forward to hit my targeted amt of revisions tmw...till next time peeps...oh yah...suddenly thot of the strike in uk uni...its actually quite amusing to be inflicted...but it wouldnt if the outcome is going to be negative...haha....haha....hahah....

disappointing

2006-05-10T00:47:00.000+08:00

had a very disappointing paper today...somehow i can only reprimand myself for not putting enough effort...it wasnt really a tough paper but i wasnt well prepared...i was dumbfounded at the beginning...i was stunned at section a...there were 12 qns yet there is any i am confident totally...managed to pick up some momentum at the later sections, i hope they r enough to pull me thru...*fingers crossed*...looks like i have to punt on the world cup to make some money in case i incur more expenses on sch fees if i fail...i have to admit i really din put in enough effort this time...time n time again....

feeling damn blue the day earlier...to me i really feel waiting is more miserable than the process n results...study n study n study...but xing bu zai yan probably...i even contemplate mj but the other kakis stopped me becos i am having a paper the next day...sick of studying

mj for a rd then study n watch soccer...kudos to henry...formidable, invincible player ..

GE...surprised that it actually caught my attention n i voted for......

attended ME class for the last time...still pretty much confused over many topics...have to put in lots of effort to understand...usual study n tv for the rest of the day

go n see spec with my mum...her condition is getting better...i hope it will be like this forever..but everyone knows how hard it is to control diet...then the usual mugging n tv
a lesson learned in the carpark, maybe sometimes its better to wait at a level for a lot rather than driving up n down the carpark to find a lot...not too sure if it applies to other things in life.. subjective i guess...

last of my marketing, probably the last time i will ever see the motivational force...yup its only force cos the other one wasnt there...went home since library was packed...wanted to study but travelling to n fro sch is so tired...nap n nua...

have to buck up for the rest of the paper...but will the unaspiring me go back to the usual ways...maybe i have set too easy targets for myself...
*shitty* mood now...